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Hal Yorke was involved tagentially (needstheroutine) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-01-05 22:51:00

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alex millar, hal yorke, john mitchell, katherine pierce, lauren drake, lydia bennet

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I suppose since none of you are ripping my heart out that its real.. That I'm here.

Which means I have some apologies to make.

[Alex]

Alex. I...

Where do I begin but with how very sorry I am for everything I did. It got too much, it got too hard, and once again I didn't ask for help. In hell I saw things, I saw how bad it got at home, the things I did.

I'm sorry.

[Mitchell]

You truly are stronger and braver than I am ever capable of being. Your control I...

You should be proud

[Lydia]

I don't know why you chose to save me but I will always be grateful that you did.

Thank you. You're the best friend a man could have.

[Lauren]

I don't know what to say.

I 'm sorry. For everything. But you should know, in spite of how he...how he used you. You're strong. You have the potential for great things. You just need control, but I am far from the man to teach you.

[Katherine]

I am sorry. I don't know quite how to say it but there it is. I used you, in weakness, I twisted things because it was easier, God, it was cruel. And it wasn't him, not always. I'm sorry.

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Hal

stucklikethis
2014-01-06 03:51 pm UTC (link)

You know, I used to have this stupid dream, that we'd make it through things, even though there would be him and I'm not real, we'd manage it anyway because I would be enough for you and you'd not make the same mistakes you did before.

And it wouldn't even have to be for long, just until that fucking Christmas Bauble happened and we could wish to be human and could just be together and grow old and fuck and be human.

But the Bauble didn't even fucking happen and you became him anyway and I'm still here like this.

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Alex

needstheroutine
2014-01-06 04:02 pm UTC (link)

You're real. Don't do that, don't believe that. You're real.

The bauble yes. Wishes. If it comes, if it does, at any point you know I'll wish it. There's nothing I'd want more than to be human, to not have to suffer this endless hell that he causes. Not to wake up in a world he's spent 50 years tearing down around him. His own personal kingdom to rule.

500 years and its been the one thing thats kept me going, the thought that one day that might change. The cycle might stop. Leo helped, Annie, Tom...and you, you most of all. Because in all that time, in all those 5 centuries. I never imagined I could truly love another person.

Let me prove that you're real.

Let me show you that

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	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 04:09 pm UTC (link)
	I'm a ghost. An echo. I know you think right now that you'd wish for it. How do you plan on proving it to me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 04:20 pm UTC (link)
	You are very real to me. What, you think I wouldn't? After what he did, after what I did? There is nothing I want more, as long as you wish it too, as long as you're with me. By proving that you can still feel. Perhaps not as ~~tangib~~ obviously but you can (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 05:06 pm UTC (link)
	~~I've barely seen anyone in weeks. No contact. Just me, alone in the woods.~~ Sure. Don't, don't put that on me. You want to be human, if the chance ever comes up, you do it regardless of what I do. I don't know if I'm ready for that. You need to earn my trust again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	You think I could do it without you? Alex...I don't know, you know I've never been au fait with... I'll do what I need to do. Whatever it may take (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	You don't get to put that kind of pressure on me any more. You don't get to count on me being your saviour. That's the thing, I don't know what it would take. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	It's fair. Its for me to figure out then. Its reasonable (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	I just don't even know any more if I can even save myself, I can't handle the pressure of needing to save someone else too. I hope you do. I don't know how, but I want you to do it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 07:47 pm UTC (link)
	But no, you're the strong one. You always have been. Please Alex. I'll figure this out. But first I need to...undo some plans as it were. I had not lain idle (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so strong I've spent the past couple of months in the woods. What did you do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	Because of me. It's the wolves. He had a plan for the wolves. Shouldn't be suprising (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 08:20 pm UTC (link)
	Because I lost control. I became unsafe to be around. And because I just felt better alone. He hated werewolves. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	And now. Yes. He did, he never really bothered with them, and then something changed. When she died, it became different. It became a petty vendetta. Then there was Leo, and then Tom. Ironic really, it was always werewolves saving me from myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	It's a little hard to integrate back into people again. So what was the plan then? Do the wolves need to be warned about anything? Kind of glad Tom wasn't here to see all of this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 08:41 pm UTC (link)
	You have friends that care for you, even if you don't want to see me. I'll find somewhere else, I'll go where he stayed, well, once the blood is gone. No. Not quite yet anyway. Things weren't entirely in motion yet I can stop it. As am I. Though I do find I miss him dreadfully. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Hal

stucklikethis
2014-01-06 10:15 pm UTC (link)

I don't think there's anyone at the house. Mitchell left pretty much as soon as he appeared. Think he's in a motel somewhere.

Good. You should, I think Klaus would actually kill you. Only he's allowed to mess with werewolves or something.

Might have been easier if he had been here. Could have made it clear to people that actually I'm not just some crazy ghost ex who can't handle being dumped for another woman.

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	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 10:25 pm UTC (link)
	He's not said a word to me yet. I don't know what I'm supposed to do there either. I will. I'll make it better. God, I did say that didn't I? Alex I'm sorry...Lauren she, He duped her, so completely and he needed to make them think you were mad (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	I think he's freaked out. By you. By everything. He nearly lost Lydia when the Complex exploded, and he had to watch her do a ritual that could have killed her to save you. Okay. You called me a bitter ghost, in a world where they hunt spirits. I guess I'm lucky I don't have bones here to salt and burn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose I can't blame him ...god. Look, you need to know, she didn't give in to me completely, and I tried, a lot. There were times I...he...was considering just forcing the issue. Some things happened yes. I won't give details, it'd be vulgar. But that didn't. I suppose it means nothing, not from my side of it. But you needed to know (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	Really can't. Yeah. Think some people wanted me gone as much as you. It doesn't mean anything. As far as I'm concerned whatever happened was too much and she's still a stupid little skank. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 10:41 pm UTC (link)
	And once again I have more to atone for. I wish you wouldn't talk like that. Not when it was my doing. ...do you know where my dominoes ended up. Silly question I know, I just find I need them (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	I guess so. Don't assume you're some master of the universe who ruled everything. She made her own choices too. They're in the house. I considered throwing them away. But they're in the drawer of the dresser. Right hand drawer. Under the tablemats. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Alex needstheroutine 2014-01-06 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	In some ways yes, in others she was scared, and alone and he took advantage. Thank you. For keeping them. I need to see Leo's...hell was, it showed me things When you're ready, when you're willing to see me. Come back? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal stucklikethis 2014-01-06 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	Don't, don't make me be okay with her. She's got Lydia for that. I'm not okay with her, or Katherine. Or you. ~~But you're the only one who bothered to say anything to me~~ What things? Maybe. I know I should be cold out here, but I'm not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)