Claudia Donovan (knocknockclauds) wrote in wariscomingcom, @ 2013-10-12 06:10:00 |
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Entry tags: | claudia donovan, niklaus mikaelson |
Klaus
Okay, look. I don't know you from Adam, don't know your family from the Johnson's. All I know about any of you is what I hear from other people and I'll be honest. I don't pay much attention to any of it. I make my own judgments. Right now, that judgment says you are a man in pain lashing out at the world. Which, understandable, considering what you've lost. But you didn't just lose the girl you love, did you? You lost your hope. Because that's what Caroline was for you, right? Hope that you thought, after everything you've been through, wasn't possible to have. But there it was, all shiny and bright and so close you could taste it. And now it's been ripped away from you and that's got you spiraling.
That? I've lived that, okay? It was under completely different circumstances and Pandora's Box was involved, but the point remains. For awhile, I lived in a world without hope. Everything is colder. darker. Twisted. You don't care. You don't want to care. You blame the entire universe for doing this royally screwed up thing to you and you wonder... is it even possible to come back out of this? Do you even want to? Does any of it even matter any more?
I'm here to tell you it does. It does because you have family here fighting tooth and nail for you. Are they her? No. Can they fill the void that losing her has left? Not a chance, no one ever can. But they love you, okay? They care. And they don't want to lose you, literally or figuratively. And that? That should matter. That should give you something to hold onto.
This disaster streak? It won't help, you know. It won't bring her back. It won't stop the pain. It's just fueling it, making it worse. You know what helps? Dealing with it. Facing it. It's the hardest frakking thing out there and it sucks so much, but it's the only thing that actually helps in the end.
I'm not asking this to use her memory against you, but it's a legitimate question, not for me but for you to really think about. Is this what she would want? Is this really the man she fell in love with?