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Doreah (from_lys) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2012-06-15 19:42:00

Entry tags:

andy gallagher, doreah, isabela, jenny, peeta mellark

filtered to friends and Jaime
ooc: In case you were wondering if you're a friend of Doreah's, she pretty much sent the invitation out to everyone who has ever been kind to her, including Peeta and Jenny as well. And Jaime. She has to be civil with him now.

Being the end of the week, I say it's the perfect time for us to get together. Food, drinks, and conversation. What do you say?

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	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-16 01:27 am UTC (link)
	Do you have nightmares? Or is that just me...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peeta from_lys 2012-06-16 01:30 am UTC (link)
	Only one that I remember, but it woke me up and I was unable to fall asleep again that night. Have you spoken to anyone else about these nightmares? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-16 01:34 am UTC (link)
	No. I can't. ~~And I can't stay with Katniss now but the only thing that helped was knowing she was right there~~ Have you...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peeta from_lys 2012-06-16 01:43 am UTC (link)
	No, I haven't. I would like to but I'm too afraid that they'll get worried for me and fawn all over me like I'm some kind of invalid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-16 01:49 am UTC (link)
	Same here. Maybe we should just talk to each other...then neither of us has to worry about that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peeta from_lys 2012-06-16 03:11 am UTC (link)
	It makes sense. I am willing to listen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-16 03:19 am UTC (link)
	Is now the time? I don't want to bring you down when you're trying to be in a good mood ~~or at least put on the smile for the crowds...and I know how that feels, too; to smile when your heart is breaking and your hope is gone.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peeta from_lys 2012-06-16 03:26 am UTC (link)
	Don't worry about bringing me down, Peeta. Really, I'll be fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Doreah

peetanotpita
2012-06-16 10:42 pm UTC (link)

The nightmares were worse when we were still in there. I would wake up and not be able to tell if I was still dreaming or whether I hadn't been dreaming at all and that I had died and that was it; all there was was blackness. But then you or Jenny would make a sound and I'd know I was still alive and it would start again the next time I fell asleep.

They're the same now, the nightmares. That I'm still in there and that I'll never get out. That I'll die there alone and afraid ~~like the coward I am~~ and I'll never see Katniss again...or my family, or home. And then I wake up and I'm here, and I'll still never see my family again ~~and I'm not speaking to Katniss right n~~ and it just...feels suffocating. Does that make sense?

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Peeta

from_lys
2012-06-17 12:47 am UTC (link)

It does make sense. Everything about that place was suffocating. Of course thinking of it would bring on the same emotions. It's awful that you're still plagued with these nightmares. I didn't really have any dreams while trapped, though it was still unsettling. I lost time. One moment I would be awake, aware that I was in the crypt with you and Jenny, and then next I would just... Slip into blackness, I guess. It's only now that I'm in my own bed that I have the nightmares.

I've done some looking into things, though. I've heard that it might help to think of a more peaceful or happy time. The trouble I have with that, though, is that it's difficult to push certain thoughts out of my mind.

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	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-17 12:51 am UTC (link)
	Katniss and I used to sleep in the same bed when we had nightmares about the Games. We got into a fight, sort of...I can't go to her. It's harder, now, not having that. To deal with it, I mean. How do you deal with it? I can't remember anything peaceful or happy that lasted more than a day or two...I don't know if that will work for me... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Peeta

from_lys
2012-06-17 01:02 am UTC (link)

I've heard about the Games. You're both admirable individuals for surviving all of that together. If you don't mind me asking, why did you get into a fight?

I can understand that. I haven't had much serenity in my life, either. There are videos to watch online, though, that help a person relax. This one, for example, with the beach and the sound of the waves, is one of my favorites. - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zh-klfBJlHc

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	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-17 01:15 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I don't know how admirable we ended up being, in the end. It's a long story, really. No, no, not beaches, no beaches. I can't do beaches. Do they have anything else? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peeta from_lys 2012-06-17 03:59 am UTC (link)
	Bad experience on a beach? Sorry, nevermind. I don't mean to cause you to revisit more unpleasant memories. Well, there's this one with thunder and rain. http://youtu.be/WvRv-243Cmk Rain can be very relaxing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Doreah peetanotpita 2012-06-17 04:03 am UTC (link)
	The Quarter Quell was on a beach. It's okay, you didn't know. That's much better. Thanks, Doreah, I'll try this tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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