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Tweak says, "You're so obvious"

Edwin Courcey (hedgemage) wrote in valloic,
@ 2023-06-26 10:11:00

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!: network post, dc: lena luthor, ₴ inactive: edwin courcey, ₴ inactive: marlene mckinnon (2), ₴ inactive: nico robin

[Filtered to anyone who checked up on him during the weekend*]
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I would like to apologize to anyone who tried to check in on me this weekend. I had wanted to be alone, and Sutton Cottage was following my wishes.

I am [...] not used to having people who care about my well-being. Back home, I had spent most of my time alone with my books, and at the time, that had been enough for me. And so, it seems, I prefer to retreat back to them when things are difficult.

Thank you, all of you, for being my friend. I do appreciate your care and concern, even if I may not have seemed like it at the time. I will endeavour to not isolate myself again.

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	heymarls 2023-06-26 04:32 pm UTC (link)
	No apologies needed here, mate. I'm glad to see you coming out of hiding. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-26 05:59 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. You were right, of course; back home it was safe, but happiness is something that eluded me until very shortly before I arrived here. I don't know if I'm willing to give that up yet. And Nikolai, should he return, would probably be disappointed if I'd never left Sutton Cottage after he left. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	villainized 2023-06-26 07:46 pm UTC (link)
	The power of friendship is a force to be reckoned with. There's also nothing wrong with needing some time for yourself, by yourself. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-26 07:50 pm UTC (link)
	No, I don't think I'll ever be so overcome with the warm fuzzy friendship feeling that I'll willingly forgo my alone time. ~~Unless I was enjoying being alone with~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	all_sunday 2023-06-26 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	No need to apologize, Edwin. Everyone has their own way of handling loss and sadness. And it can come as quite a shock to realize just how much you mean to people. But it's a nice shock (at least, I hope it is...) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-27 12:34 am UTC (link)
	It did come as a shock, and not an unpleasant one. Perhaps I shouldn't have been so surprised. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2023-06-27 12:49 am UTC (link)
	I don't think so. When you go for so long on your own with no one else around you to suddenly having people, it isn't an easy thing to get used to. And friends have a way of often surprising you and I think that may be the point, really. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-30 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	I don't often like surprises. Sometimes they're nice though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2023-06-30 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	Something I've learned in the past year or so is that there are Good Surprises and Bad Surprises. While the Bad Surprises sometimes seem to come often, the Good Surprises are the ones that often mean the most, if that makes sense. I will do my best to not surprise you in the future. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-30 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	It does make sense, and I think I know what you mean. Up until about a year and a half ago, good surprises just weren't things that happened. Though I'll confess that "surprise, your boyfriend has been sent back to his terrible home where he's far more likely to die a violent death with no memory of you" just about tops the list of bad surprises. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2023-06-30 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	It does and I am so sorry. I really wish there was more I could do for you and for Nikolai. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-30 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. I doubt very much there is, unless we find a way to bring specific people here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2023-06-30 10:08 pm UTC (link)
	It would be amazing if we could. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	notdick 2023-06-27 02:58 am UTC (link)
	I don't blame you for needing some time. When Henry was sent back, Blue and I shut everyone out for a few days. We have persistent friends, but it was still something necessary for us. That doesn't mean I'm going to leave you alone, but I understand. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hedgemage 2023-06-30 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think I've heard much about Henry. Thank you for understanding. That's also something I'm struggling to get used to, but it's getting easier. (Reply to this) (Parent)