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Burton "Gus" Guster (Psych) ([info]cutlicker) wrote in [info]utr_logs,
@ 2008-02-03 22:58:00

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Entry tags:burton guster, shawn spencer

Who:William Zane and Samuel L. Jackson
Where: Billy's place.
When: Dunno, earlier.
Warnings: None. BFF talk, that's it. Some grr, angstyness.

After talking to Shawn's. . sister online, Tesla, erm, right, anyway he found out the. .oddly familiar address. He went, and his jaw only hit his lap when he had already parked. It was Lassiter's house. He shook that off as best as he could too and got out of the car, hurried up to the door and knocked, put on his determined face and waited for Shawn to answer the knock, which Tesla conveniently ignored by picking her earbuds up and popping them into her ears.


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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 04:18 am UTC (link)
"Fine! I'll get the door! It's not like you're closer or anything."

Shawn padded over to the front door, opening it and, sighing loudly, briefly contemplated shutting it again without saying anything.

"Guess I shouldn't be surprised. The Jackyl has returned."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 04:26 am UTC (link)
"Huh. That's funny, I thought I heard Shawn's voice in this Beatles song."

Gus raised a brow when the door opened, crossing his arms in a most many manner over his chest. "All right, Shawn. I'm here. Now we're going to talk. Like old times." He stepped in past Shawn to gape briefly at Tess, who gave him the most annoyed look that she could before going to her room.

Gus turned back to Shawn. "Shawn, I'm your best friend. Talk to me."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 04:32 am UTC (link)
Shawn left the door open and walked into the kitchen, effectively ignoring Gus' insistance on talking. Exactly why he hadn't wanted Gus to know anything in the first place.

"Tess! How do you feel about a milk and pineapple run?"

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 04:40 am UTC (link)
Tesla came in and grabbed a Granny Smith, took a bite as she slipped her shoes on. "'kay. Back when I feel like you've had enough time to bond." She joked, Shawn ought to know when she was kidding by now.

Gus watched her leave and sighed. "She looks like your mom."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 04:42 am UTC (link)
"So that explains why she's not out on her ass yet." Shawn rolled his eyes and walked back out into the living room. Sitting down on the couch, he grabbed the remote and started surfing like a pro.

Eying Gus from the corner of his eye, Shawn snorted loudly. "There's nothing to talk about."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 04:47 am UTC (link)
"Don't get snippy with me, Shawn." Gus followed him. "There's plenty to talk about, let's start with this, you're a douche. Everyone thinks so, and they gave you some leeway because of how soon things had been, but now you're just being an ass."

He crossed his arms. "You never used to act this way, except for when Melinda Hasselbeck dumped you for Marvin Hayes."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 04:51 am UTC (link)
Shawn paused in his rapid fire channel surfing to lean forward and bury his face in his hands.

"Why the hell is my goddamn love life so friggin important to everybody right now? Why don't they go watch the American Idol tryouts and insult those idiots for a change. Maybe if people stopped bringing this up and reminding me of it every two friggin seconds, shit would be hunkydory? Ever think of that?"

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 04:55 am UTC (link)
"Because we're worried about you, Shawn." He sighed, shaking his head. "You think I like having to come over here to put my face up in yours? Well, I don't. But you're Shawn, you're my best friend and seeing you like this, watching the way you attack the people that love you and the way you push them away? I know it isn't healthy."

Gus shook his head again, rubbing at the knot at te back of his neck. "Shawn, we all know this isn't you. House is frustrated, I'm . .rather confused but also frustrated and Tesla, she's a little girl, Shawn. How the hell you gonna go treaing a little girl like a house sitter? Especially your baby sister. You always wanted a baby sister."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 04:59 am UTC (link)
For a brief second, Shawn actually considered opening up, letting all the shit and yuck that had been building up inside of him the past few days out, just to see what would happen.

And then he remembered the reason why he didn't. Gus was too knew to this universe. He wouldn't get it at all. So instead, Shawn shot him a dirty look and stormed off to his bedroom without saying a word.

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:06 am UTC (link)
"Oh no you don't, Shawn Spencer. Get back he-. . ." Following him with heavy, supposed to be threatening footsteps Gus froze when he hit the threshold of that room, it was. .it just felt odd.

His eyes skimmed around for a moment, his scolding forgotten when he spotted a hint of a photograph stuffed under some pillows. He could clearly make out Shawn's smile and what looked like Lassy's. He sighed. "Shawn listen, I know. . I haven't been here. I mean, don't get smart about that but I know, ok? But you're not helping anyone, especially yourself bottling this shit up. You're acting more liken Henry than yourself."

He leant in the doorway, philosophy taking over his brain, blocking out the implications of his own words. "It's ok to love him even if he's gone."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:10 am UTC (link)
Shawn visibly winced at Gus' words. "Don't... don't use the L word Gus. Just... don't."

Shawn sat on the bed, pulling one of the pillows into his lap and hugging it tightly. "I... know that. It's not about that. Not really."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:14 am UTC (link)
Gus made to talk about that too but figured it was the least of Shawn's worries, at least for now. "Ok." He wasn't giving in, just letting up a little.

"So what's it about? I'm not asking you to tell me everything but the more you keep to yourself, the more crazy it's gonna make you." He managed a playful grin. "I don't want to have to break out my Pimp Hand on you."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:19 am UTC (link)
Shawn sighed loudly and defeatedly, but still managed to crack a joke. "Oh no. Anything but that Magic Head."

Squirming on the bed, he fiddled with the pillow, choosing his words carefully so they'd at least make sense to a noob. "This place... this world we ended up in? People come and go from it all the time. Sometimes they come back, sometimes they don't. You, for example oh Super Smeller himself. This is your third appearance here, but I doubt you remember the previous ones, else you wouldn't be so freaked out about... him." Shawn glanced at the photo next to him before continuing.

"People.. disappear all the time, at any time, with no warning. So, what's the point Gus? What's the goddamn point in anything when it can be ripped away without any warning?"

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:23 am UTC (link)
Gus didn't talk, he just listened, he wanted Shawn to get out as much as he felt like he could before there was quiet for a few moments. He wet his lips before talking. "That sucks really bad." He shook his head. "I wont lie, Shawn. I think it's bullshit."

He sighed. "But. . I think that the point is, if you let it get to you like you have, you're just going to be miserable. The point is to make your time with people memorable, make it worthwhile so in the end you can say, 'Hey, they left a few times, they came back just as many but we had some good times.' Rather than 'They kept leaving so I have up, man.'."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:27 am UTC (link)
Shawn looked back at the photo again. Grabbing it, he pulled it out from its hiding spot and closed his eyes as his pain in the ass memory replayed the day it was taken in his head.

"He... he disappeared and reappeared with no memory of anything before. I should have known it would happen again. S'what I get for being stupid huh?"

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:31 am UTC (link)
Gus shook his head, frowning deeply at that. "How does it make you stupid? Saying that is what's stupid, Shawn. The way this place works doesn't make you stupid. People get caught up in their feelings, they don't think . ." He sure had enough experience there.

"You can't be accountable for what this place has done with him. You don't control it and whether you 'should have known' or not, it didn't present itself as an issue because that's not what relationships are about. They aren't about freaking out if the other person is going to go, it's figuring out to do while you're both there. If you're all worked up or what you should have known or whatever, you're unnecessarily keeping yourself from happiness."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:37 am UTC (link)
Shawn shook his head. "You don't get it. I KNOW all that. Everything you said makes perfect sense. What I'm saying is that I should have known better."

He avoided the eyes of his best friend, knowing Gus really didn't want to hear anything he was about to say, so won't this teach his inquiring ass a lesson?

"We... had been dating for a little over a month when he disappeared. I had been turned eight years old at the time LONG STORY Not right now. Anyway, the... new one showed up after I grew up again, and didn't remember a thing. What I'm saying is that I should have taken that as a sign of bad juju and left it at that. Instead, I had to be a jackass and thought I could get him back... I knew the risks and did it anyway. And OH LOOK, blew up right in my freakin face now didn't it? That makes me stupid."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:40 am UTC (link)
"So you took a risk Shawn. You l-iked him. He meant something to you. So it blew up in your face and yeah, that hurts, but what good is this? Sitting at home when you're not at the office or bangin' some random guys and gals?" he swallowed heavily after that before managing to continue on.

"You're making yourself miserable and the people around you miserable. Now, tell me Shawn, what's the grand scheme behind that, hmm?"

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:44 am UTC (link)
Shawn squirmed on the bed again, feeling eeriely like a bear approching a bear trap but not knowing exactly where to step.

"It won't suck when they disappear?" He said in a small voice, practically a whisper.

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 05:46 am UTC (link)
Gus frowned more. "It wont suck to know you pushed them away until they were gone and you couldn't make things btter with them? I beg to differ."

he sighed. "I know you've been burt and I know this is cliche, but you have to move on, man, if you want to feel eve na teensy bit happy. If I have to pull a "Twister" move and tie myself to somne piping, I aint going nowhere anytime soon."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-04 05:52 am UTC (link)
Shawn rolled his eyes and tossed the pillow aside. "You seriously don't get it do you? You disappeared twice! House and I had just come back from Mexico when he disappeared and came back not knowing who I was. If that eight year old thing hadn't happened? We would NOT be friends right now. He..." Shawn gestured to the picture again, refusing to admit it hurt to say his name, "He didn't remember anything when he came back. I was Spencer again. And if he does show up again? I'll be Spencer all over again. I am TIRED of being forgotten all the damn time! I'm tired of waking up and feeling like someone hit restart on my life. And no offence? But you can reassure me all you damn want, it won't make any difference if you get taken away AGAIN."

Shawn shoved past Gus, needing to get out of the bedroom, out of the house. He stormed back to the front door looking for the keys to his bike. It would be too ironic taking the Crown Vic right now and he really didn't feel like dealing with that either.

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-04 08:02 pm UTC (link)
Gus sighed and went to go after him and yell at him some more when Tess came back in with a bag of groceries including the milk and pineapple Shawn had asked her to get, she took one look at him, saw him hunting for his keys and she sighed, kicked her shoes off and grabbed them from a hook on the wall, pressed them into his palm before going into the kitchen to mutter under her breath on her own.

Gus sighed. "I know I don't get it Shawn, it hasn't happened to me. But you're being ridiculous about all of this."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-05 01:22 am UTC (link)
He nodded his thanks to Tess and walked out the front door, knowing Gus would follow. As soon as he heard the it shut behind Gus, Shawn pulled out his sunglasses, loving the well timed dramatics the whole scene was playing out as. "I'm not being ridiculous. I'm being practical. There's a difference."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-05 01:29 am UTC (link)
"Oh, is that what you call it? Last I looked, 'practical' was a term ladies used to describe proper behavior in the earlier 1900's." He shook his head. "Stop pushing people away, talk about things that bother you and for God's sakes, Shawn, stop working as much as you can and sleeping when you can't. I never thought I'd see the day Shawn Spencer became Henry Junior."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-05 01:34 am UTC (link)
If Gus could have seen the glare Shawn shot him from behind the sunglasses... well Gus probably would have stood his ground, having known Shawn for most of their lives.

"Dude. Harsh."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-05 01:40 am UTC (link)
"It's Harsh, but it's true. Maybe that's what you need now, Shawn. Someone to tell you like it is instead of people holding your hand and telling you it's ok, because it's not. From what I've seen, and heard, you're being a real dick because this universe isn't working to your advantage. I understand that sucks quite a bit for you, but seriously, no one here enjoys it and no one else completely shuts out the people that love them the most like you have."

He shook his head. "So start thinking about how you make people feel before you act the way you do, because I can tell you one thing, and that's that that vortex isn't the only thing that can make people go away, Shawn."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-05 02:14 am UTC (link)
Shawn sat down on the stairs that led up to Lassy's his front door. He was silent for a very long time. Just thinking.

Resting his elbows on his knees, and his chin in his hands, Shawn stared out at the Santa Barbara coastline. The house wasn't within walking distance of the beach, but you could still see the ocean from the steps.

"... I know you probably don't want to hear this since it might infect your 'straight man' mindset... but I miss him. No offence to you buddy, you're like a brother to me, but I've never missed anybody like this before. I can't make it go away. How do you make it go away Gus? I don't know how to handle this."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-05 02:29 am UTC (link)
Gus couldn't help but chuckle at the first half of that, rubbing a hand over his eyes, glad Shawn was finally worn down enough to just spit it out, and make a crack at him. "Yeah well, believe me, convincing myself you're gay-ish? Hasn't exactly been easy."

He sat on the bottom step at Shawn's feet and looked out over the view himself, taking in a deep breath, hoping to inhale the sea scent but instead met with just plain old air. They weren't close enough to take in that salty air. "I don't think you ca never make it go away, Shawn. I think you're supposed to just ride it out until it doesn't hurt as bad, or something."

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[info]psychyouout
2008-02-05 02:44 am UTC (link)
"I always figured you didn't want to know about the other pretty faces I brought home. Though I thought you'd be more shocked about... him than me."

The smile faded from Shawn's face as he continued on. "It would be nice to go back to before all this happened. To forget all of it. Think I'd have to move first. Maybe after Houses move back to New York, I'll go back to my old place. Or find some place different. Sterile, ya know?"

Shawn turned to face Gus, an inquiring look on his face before it broke into a huge grin. "Ugh this grown up stuff is way too itchy. Hey! Let's go to Mexico again! Maybe we'll get you married off again."

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[info]cutlicker
2008-02-05 03:00 am UTC (link)
"Well I don't, that's true. But in general, I guess it's cool. I wont hate on you for diggin' dudes." He laughed a little. "It's shockin', yeah. But, I mean, whatever made you happy. I guess."

Gus nodded in understanding. "Maybe that's a good idea, yeah. Tesla will be out on her own, you can get your own little place. That'd be good for you. And I'll be coming by to annoy the crap out of you."

Gus laughed again, a little harder and he nodded. "All right, maybe we can." He joked, nodding, figuring he'd give him this just this once. A vacation was probably a good thing.

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