Shawn shook his head. "You don't get it. I KNOW all that. Everything you said makes perfect sense. What I'm saying is that I should have known better."
He avoided the eyes of his best friend, knowing Gus really didn't want to hear anything he was about to say, so won't this teach his inquiring ass a lesson?
"We... had been dating for a little over a month when he disappeared. I had been turned eight years old at the time LONG STORY Not right now. Anyway, the... new one showed up after I grew up again, and didn't remember a thing. What I'm saying is that I should have taken that as a sign of bad juju and left it at that. Instead, I had to be a jackass and thought I could get him back... I knew the risks and did it anyway. And OH LOOK, blew up right in my freakin face now didn't it? That makes me stupid."