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Vanessa Ives ([info]mirrorsbehind) wrote in [info]rooms,
@ 2015-06-07 22:11:00

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Entry tags:*journal, caliban, dracula, eddie nigma, mina murray, vanessa ives, victor frankenstein

[public, locks to victor f, mina m]
[locked to victor f]

Sir, I hope your dreams carried you through without trouble. Any news of Mina's condition?

[locked to mina m]

How fares the gossip? Was the gathering well-received?

[public, anonymous]

I am interested to speak to anyone who knows something of the dead who are not dead.



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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-09 03:58 am UTC (link)
We all seek what offers succor. Those foreign lovers you speak of, constant as they are, do not, not for me. God has left me as alone as any Christian, but I at least have faith that he listens, even if he does not answer, even if there is no sign of his hand in my life.

I do hate to be beaten.

I still wonder, but my life now has adventure. I do not truly think it will ever be a quiet one again. Why chase what has squatted in my doorway these long years? [...] But there are untested wilds I still wish to cross. I simply no longer trust that the good will be left good when I reach the other side of them.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-09 04:21 am UTC (link)
How chaste a woman you are.

You always thought yourself the daring one. Vanessa, always the one to forge ahead bravely, and more my father's child than Peter or I ever were.

But do you wish the good to be left good? You no longer trust, but do you crave that quiet goodness that has always eluded you? I no longer seek a brighter word than bright, but I often yet wish to stumble upon it, an unexpected pebble beneath the toe of my slipper.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-09 04:45 am UTC (link)
Let us not operate under delusions. Wiser, though. That may be.

I think you and Peter were more his children than ever you knew. All I patterned from him was an eye on places not yet traveled. His better parts showed in both of you, and I do not think the desire that led him from home was his best part. did he tell you what he made of Peter, how he buried him, skin like a drum, light as a child

I don't know. I wish for you to I think we all crave things that will never be. I have never been quiet in my heart. I may also never have been good, as you suggest. Likely not. But I do imagine it, the good and quiet life. It will never go further than imagining.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-09 04:50 am UTC (link)
We were born to a world where truths are spoken as untruths. I mean the words no more than you believe me to mean the words.

Neither Peter nor I wanted his broader world. We had not his drive, nor his ambitions. We were not born with souls for adventure. But you, dearest Vanessa, would climb a mountain to have climbed it. We would only climb it for his attention.

You would hate it terribly. I married into it, and it was dull as sermons.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-09 04:57 am UTC (link)
No. [...] I spent some time with a person who had a very direct manner. Occasionally I tire of speaking around the truth, as one ought to.

I tried to tell him not to go. His heart was on his quest. I said the most any friend could say to deter him. That promise of attention at the summit was enough to make him discount me.

Some days I think I would hate nothing more. It is difficult to say what you would hate when it is not possible. I suspect you are right, and I would go running off into the clear blue as soon as an opportunity presented itself. I never could sit quietly all through a sermon, no matter how I tried.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-09 05:04 am UTC (link)
They'll flay you alive here.

Of course. We, all of us, longed in vain for father's attention.

If anyone had thought to tell me that dancing would become tedious as sermons from a pulpit, I would've laughed for hours. But my husband was a quiet man of law, and his proclivities did not include dancing.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-09 11:01 pm UTC (link)
I have had worse.

I think he knows that, now. Too late.

Did it become tedious to you because it was to him, or because it lost its luster when you were a married woman?

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-09 11:35 pm UTC (link)
Having been flayed worse does not cancel new injuries, Vanessa.

Does he? Well, dearest, only you would know.

I married to quiet scandal. I married because he would be faithful. I married because it was what ought to be done, given the circumstances. He was a good man, but I never loved him, not even in the simple way that butterflies love flowers in Spring.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-10 12:41 am UTC (link)
Never fear, Mina. Consider me on my very best behavior.

do you really not remember even a moment of

Then it is better you are not married to him now, however painful. Scandal and all, you deserve a man who will be faithful, and whom you can love.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-10 02:40 am UTC (link)
You don't know the meaning of best behavior, Vanessa. It's what has always set you apart from those of us who bore as white toast soaked too long in milk.

I care naught for these things. Marriage is but shackles and sadness, inequity and ownership.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-11 02:10 am UTC (link)
You are no such thing, as you well know.

I feel much the same, but I am surprised to hear it from you. Never again?

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-11 03:43 am UTC (link)
Perhaps no longer. But, once, surely.

No. That girl that longed for ballrooms is dead, dearest sister.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-11 04:53 am UTC (link)
No. Never.

I do not know that marriage is always that way, marriage and ballrooms. Yet I have seen no evidence to the contrary. or mother would not have

What do you long for now?

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-11 05:23 am UTC (link)
Perhaps not for you, dearest Vanessa. Perhaps marriage would, for you, be an adventure.

I do not know what I long for. I suspect I shall know, in time. To remember? Perhaps, memory is something I long for. To forget, and I believe that too is something to wish upon.

For now, I will be the curious adventurer, and I shall go ahead.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-11 04:16 pm UTC (link)
How much is do you wish to remember? If you wish to forget as well, there must only be a limited number of days you pray to know of.

[...] Would you allow me to cast your fortune? In cards. I know it may seem a strange request, and I know how your Anglican heart inclines away from superstition. But one never knows where answers may lie.

I wait anxiously to hear of them, these adventures of yours as I may no longer have a part in them.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-11 08:18 pm UTC (link)
I am not certain what I wish to remember. It is easier to know what one wishes to forget. Lists can be made as long as the arm, twirled off the desk like ribbons on a frock.

Your cards do not frighten me. Yes, you may. I have naught to hide.

Writing letters is the business of our sex. I can write you of the sights with little trouble, should you wish to hear of them. I am sure you will be dreadfully bored here, alone.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-13 12:50 am UTC (link)
Yes. Forgetting does seem more appealing, sweeter than honey from the rock, but the price. One wonders.

They do not try to frighten you. They are, after all, only cards.

I do have my methods of remaining occupied. I would, however, recieve any letter from you with enthusiasm. Report every detail.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-13 03:17 am UTC (link)
She suck'd until her lips were sore, darling Vanessa?

I will meet your cards whenever they wish to meet with me. Perhaps over tea, or must this reading happen in darkness with candles flickering about us? I know your appreciation for the theatrical.

I've a friend to meet me. Hopefully there will be aught to report soon, perhaps a fortnight. I desire more time between dreams and traipsing.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mirrorsbehind
2015-06-13 04:23 am UTC (link)
Indeed. We ought to investigate whether Miss Rossetti had her eye on you and I when she wrote her poem. We may be entitled to a portion of her royalties, as subjects.

I think there can be tea and candles at once. Darkness won't be necessary, unless that disappoints you.

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Re: Mina M/Vanessa I
[info]mote
2015-06-13 04:25 am UTC (link)
That conversation is one best had in a bright sitting room, among spectators. Such a spectacle would be a shame to waste.

I don't fear the dark, but I don't cherish it. We shall merely draw the drapery somewhat.

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