Sirius Orion Black (homeoffleas) wrote in ridgewayresort, @ 2011-01-09 22:23:00 |
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Entry tags: | dominique weasley, sirius black |
Who: Sirius and Dom
When: Sunday morning
Where: Their room
What: Sirius changes his mind
Rating: TBD
Status: Complete
Sirius groaned as he heard the shower. He had worked till six o’clock and then sneaked to bed. Saturday nights were always crowded and clubs the last one to close. Normally these had been the days when he had slept alone. He missed his freedom but knowing that Dom was safe was worth it. Dom alone in a room with someone like Damon or Damien out there had never been his favourite thought. But giving up his freedom was scary nonetheless. How did other people do this? How did James do it?
There was something else that scared the shit out of him. How could he have been so stupid and agree on becoming a father? There were together for two months now! Not one of his brightest moments Sirius had to admit. When he had thought about children, he had thought of something like Harry. A kid that was already old enough to take care of himself. He had imagined how great it would have been to teach him all the things James and Lily would have… will want… (bloody time travel!) Harry to know and a few Lily certainly wouldn’t. Also there had been this other reason. Just knowing that he would never have a child made him want one and somehow having a child would be the first step to break out of his destined life. And Dom seemed right for him. Merlin, he lived with her! Something he had never imagined he would ever do. Relationships, longer relationships were for James or maybe Remus (if his friend ever discovered that he was not only a werewolf but a man as well). But Sirius? Nah!
But having a child? No. He was not ready for that. The responsibility was just too much. He doubted that he would be able to love someone enough to let them dedicate your life. Sirius rolled onto his back and rubbed his eyes, trying to get used to the sunlight. It was annoying but on a Sunday morning everything was annoying. Sirius propped himself up on his elbows and waited for Dom to return from their bathroom. His mind was hazy and all he could do was staring at the door.