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Tweak says, "Happiness can't buy money"

Malia Tate | Teen Wolf (wantsherfurcoat) wrote in paradisocomm,
@ 2016-04-20 19:19:00

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~cisco ramon (namegenerator), ~derek hale (theworstalpha), ~finnick odair (dist4_finnick), ~malia tate (wantsherfurcoat), ~ruby lucas (rubywolf)

Right, so...um. My cave is dry and warm but there's a little creek outside. And it keeps rising. And it's getting closer to the entrance of my cave.

Would anyone let me stay the night?

I don't want to drown in my sleep.

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	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 01:44 am UTC (link)
	It's weird to have someone care about that. Even though I know it's the baby you're worried about, it's still weird. Okay, but weird. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theprettybeta 2016-04-21 01:46 am UTC (link)
	Malia, I have been worrying about you since we got here, and I've been taking care of you since we decided to do this, it shouldn't feel weird anymore. You just need to open up and trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 01:49 am UTC (link)
	Why? You don't trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theprettybeta 2016-04-21 01:54 am UTC (link)
	Who said I didn't trust you? I'm having a baby with you, how could you even say that to me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 01:58 am UTC (link)
	Yes, and you've been really really wonderful. But you won't talk about you, Isaac. You won't let me in. Since we're talking about opening up and trusting people. When you got in that fight with Scott... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eunoia 2016-04-21 02:05 am UTC (link)
	Oh my God, put a fucking filter on it. If he didn't want to talk about it before, he isn't going to want to talk about it on a public forum where everyone can see it. You're being a brat right now, Malia. You really are. Just saying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:09 am UTC (link)
	I - Fine. I'll just be quiet. Never mind, Isaac, it doesn't matter. why would you I thought you were my friend I thought Why would you be mean (Reply to this) (Parent)

	LYDIA. theprettybeta 2016-04-21 02:13 am UTC (link)
	It's fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ISAAC. eunoia 2016-04-21 02:15 am UTC (link)
	No it isn't. If she wants to treat you like shit and you want to take it, fine, but she's going to need to do it where I can't see it, because she's being an ungrateful little brat and I'm sick of it...and right now I'm not in the mood to keep my mouth shut about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

LYDIA.

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:19 am UTC (link)

She doesn't get it. She doesn't get that it's ungrateful, she doesn't understand.

Please, Lydia... I still have to go out and get this bed and move it, and I've had a really long day today and I'm just tired and now she's upset and I don't know what she wants me to do, please don't push her any further. I'm already on the edge right now, I don't know what I'm going to do, please.

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ISAAC.

eunoia
2016-04-21 02:22 am UTC (link)

Clearly she doesn't but I'm out of patience for it.

Oh, I'm done. I said what I needed to say to her. If she doesn't like it, oh well. If no one's going to tell her she's being a dick, then she's never going to stop being a dick.

Go move the bed because you're a good guy and that's the kind of thing you do. ...then go to my old shelter and just take some time for you. I think you more than deserve it.

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LYDIA.

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:28 am UTC (link)

I think she's upset that I didn't talk to her about Allison after what happened with Scott. I don't know why.

I can't. I told Ruby that I would be over tonight and I don't want to cancel on her, it's not right. It's not her fault my day has gone south and she's down there trying to explain to Malia what's going on. ~~How can she not trust me, Lydia, how could she not~~

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	ISAAC. eunoia 2016-04-21 02:30 am UTC (link)
	I really don't care why she's upset. She doesn't give a shit why anyone else is upset, literally ever. You don't to cancel on her, just be late. Take some time, clear your head. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	LYDIA. theprettybeta 2016-04-21 02:39 am UTC (link)
	I can't. Remember what I said about why I couldn't do things sometimes because I didn't know when I would get back up? None of this is right. I can't believe she feels like this. ~~I've been trying so fucking hard, Lydia...~~ I can't do that right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ISAAC. eunoia 2016-04-21 02:40 am UTC (link)
	Malia feels whatever is convenient for Malia, Isac, she's selfish. You're bending over backwards for her, everyone sees it and you're not doing anything wrong. She's the asshole right now. Not you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:08 am UTC (link)

I've been really wonderful... but what? But it's not enough for you to trust me? I've been really wonderful but I won't talk about what makes me upset so you don't trust me? I've decided that the person that I want to bring into the world, whether I'm going to be raising it or not, is going to be part me and part you, you don't think I trust you?

What about it? What do you want me to say, Malia, that I'm upset? Yeah, I'm upset, Everybody died, everybody is dead or they left, there's no fixing it, I don't know what you want me to talk about. It hurts. But you saying that you don't trust me hurts even more...

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	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:12 am UTC (link)
	I trust you completely, that isn't it, I - I just want you to - I just want you to be my friend I thought Lydia was my friend but now she's - she's mad at me and I don't know why and now you're upset with me and I'm so scared and I just want to understand and do things right and now dammit I'm crying (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:16 am UTC (link)

Malia, stop for a second and think.

I am literally going out in a thunderstorm to get you a bed that you don't need so you have something comfortable to sleep on. I'm probably going to end up giving you my shelter so you have somewhere that you can have privacy to invite over whoever you want. I'm having a child with you.

Why the hell do you still think we're not friends? I don't understand. I don't know what more I could possibly do to convey to you that we are friends. What do you want? What do you want me to do? Tell me and I'll do it, I swear to god I will but I don't know what you want me to do.

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	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:21 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't matter. You're right. Everybody's right, okay? You didn't do anything wrong I just wanted you to talk to me that's all because I wanted to talk to you and I just wanted to be there for you like you always are for me I was trying not to be selfish because I care about you don't worry it I obviously did it wrong I'm sorry okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:25 am UTC (link)

I spoke to you about my father.

I don't speak to anyone about my father.

There's nothing to talk about. No one can be there for me. If they could, I would come to you, but no one can be, alright? I don't know how many times I'm going to have to say this. She's dead. She's gone. No one can fix it. No one can make me feel better. It's not getting better. She's not coming back. Talking about it won't fix anything.

I'm glad you care about me. But I need you to trust me. That's what's important. I need you to trust me.

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	Isaac wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:28 am UTC (link)
	I do trust you. Maybe nothing can fix it. But I just...I want you to feel better, that's all. You're so good and you deserve to be happy and I want - I just want to make you happy. That's all. I can't bring her back I can't fix that I just...wish I could. I'm sorry. I just...I'm feeling too many things right now. It sucks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Malia

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:36 am UTC (link)

But you don't think I trust you? After agreeing to do this with you, you don't think I trust you?

No, Malia, not maybe. Nothing can fix it. Nothing can fix it and nothing can make me feel better, I know that's not what you want to hear and I'm sorry, but it's true. Nothing can fix it. Nothing can make it better. I wish I could bring her back too. But I can't. No one can. If I can keep moving while knowing that, you don't have to worry about me.

But you suggesting that I don't trust you because I don't want to talk about my dead girlfriend? That can be fixed. That's not okay, Malia. That's really not okay.

Just wait in the shelter, alright? I'll go get your bed and when I bring it in I'll put you in it and make you some tea to make you feel better. Some ginger tea, for your stomach.

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Isaac

wantsherfurcoat
2016-04-21 02:42 am UTC (link)

How did I screw this up so badly
You're the only one here I do trust
I just wanted to be there for you
I thought like in the movies if you talked to me you'd get better
I
I love you not like boyfriend or romance of any of that dumb stuff but like family like pack and I just wanted to do something nice but I just made things worse and I'm such a damned fuck up

I'm sorry.

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rubywolf
2016-04-21 02:17 am UTC (link)

If you want people to be your friend, then you need to learn to have empathy for others and put their feelings ahead of your own sometimes. It's obvious that you haven't learned how to do that yet, at least based on your earlier post about not caring if everyone here died if it meant you got to survive, but you also don't ever want to seem to listen when people tell you how to be a better person.

Instead of being convinced that you're right all the time, try actually listening to what other people tell you, especially people like Isaac who are only trying to help.

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	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:24 am UTC (link)
	Ok. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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