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Tweak says, "Why yes, yes I am."

Malia Tate | Teen Wolf (wantsherfurcoat) wrote in paradisocomm,
@ 2016-04-20 19:19:00

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~cisco ramon (namegenerator), ~derek hale (theworstalpha), ~finnick odair (dist4_finnick), ~malia tate (wantsherfurcoat), ~ruby lucas (rubywolf)

Right, so...um. My cave is dry and warm but there's a little creek outside. And it keeps rising. And it's getting closer to the entrance of my cave.

Would anyone let me stay the night?

I don't want to drown in my sleep.

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theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:16 am UTC (link)

Malia, stop for a second and think.

I am literally going out in a thunderstorm to get you a bed that you don't need so you have something comfortable to sleep on. I'm probably going to end up giving you my shelter so you have somewhere that you can have privacy to invite over whoever you want. I'm having a child with you.

Why the hell do you still think we're not friends? I don't understand. I don't know what more I could possibly do to convey to you that we are friends. What do you want? What do you want me to do? Tell me and I'll do it, I swear to god I will but I don't know what you want me to do.

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	wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:21 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't matter. You're right. Everybody's right, okay? You didn't do anything wrong I just wanted you to talk to me that's all because I wanted to talk to you and I just wanted to be there for you like you always are for me I was trying not to be selfish because I care about you don't worry it I obviously did it wrong I'm sorry okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:25 am UTC (link)

I spoke to you about my father.

I don't speak to anyone about my father.

There's nothing to talk about. No one can be there for me. If they could, I would come to you, but no one can be, alright? I don't know how many times I'm going to have to say this. She's dead. She's gone. No one can fix it. No one can make me feel better. It's not getting better. She's not coming back. Talking about it won't fix anything.

I'm glad you care about me. But I need you to trust me. That's what's important. I need you to trust me.

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	Isaac wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 02:28 am UTC (link)
	I do trust you. Maybe nothing can fix it. But I just...I want you to feel better, that's all. You're so good and you deserve to be happy and I want - I just want to make you happy. That's all. I can't bring her back I can't fix that I just...wish I could. I'm sorry. I just...I'm feeling too many things right now. It sucks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Malia

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:36 am UTC (link)

But you don't think I trust you? After agreeing to do this with you, you don't think I trust you?

No, Malia, not maybe. Nothing can fix it. Nothing can fix it and nothing can make me feel better, I know that's not what you want to hear and I'm sorry, but it's true. Nothing can fix it. Nothing can make it better. I wish I could bring her back too. But I can't. No one can. If I can keep moving while knowing that, you don't have to worry about me.

But you suggesting that I don't trust you because I don't want to talk about my dead girlfriend? That can be fixed. That's not okay, Malia. That's really not okay.

Just wait in the shelter, alright? I'll go get your bed and when I bring it in I'll put you in it and make you some tea to make you feel better. Some ginger tea, for your stomach.

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Isaac

wantsherfurcoat
2016-04-21 02:42 am UTC (link)

How did I screw this up so badly
You're the only one here I do trust
I just wanted to be there for you
I thought like in the movies if you talked to me you'd get better
I
I love you not like boyfriend or romance of any of that dumb stuff but like family like pack and I just wanted to do something nice but I just made things worse and I'm such a damned fuck up

I'm sorry.

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	Malia theprettybeta 2016-04-21 02:47 am UTC (link)
	It's okay, Malia. It's fine. Just wait for me to get the bed back, okay? I'll brush your hair for you. ...And if you want me to talk I'll answer any questions you have. We'll have tea together. It'll be alight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Isaac

wantsherfurcoat
2016-04-21 02:52 am UTC (link)

Okay.

...it doesn't work like in the movies, does it? I mean...talking and crying your heart out to someone and then feeling better because of it. I'm an idiot for thinking it might. That's all I wanted. You don't have to talk about anything you don't want to.

I just...know you're busy tonight but tomorrow sometime when you get back...maybe we can just...take a nap together or something. No talking.

And I think...I think I'm going to stop seeing other guys for the next few months. I need to think about our baby. Not me. You've been such a good father but I don't think I've been a very good mother.

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Malia

theprettybeta
2016-04-21 02:57 am UTC (link)

No. It doesn't. Believe me. Crying doesn't make it better.

We can do that. And I can go to Ruby's later tonight, there's no rush. I want to make sure you're alright first.

You don't have to do that. If sex makes you happy, have it. It's not hurting the baby. It's not harming anybody. Malia, you don't need to change anything. That's what I'm here for. If you're doing something unsafe, I'll tell you. Until then, you can do whatever you want. You should.

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Isaac

wantsherfurcoat
2016-04-21 03:03 am UTC (link)

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push. I never meant to hurt you.

You're...you know that person who makes you feel safe, and wanted, and maybe like you're not the biggest fuck-up in the world? The person who makes you want to do better and make yourself better because they deserve it? The person who comes to mind first when you're hurt or afraid...or when you're happy and want to celebrate?

That's you for me, Isaac.

You're my best friend here. You're my pack. And I'd die for you if I had to.

I'm so proud that this baby's yours:

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	Malia theprettybeta 2016-04-21 03:11 am UTC (link)
	If you really mean all of that Malia, then you need to trust that if I'm not talking to you about something, it's because I can't. It's because it hurts, and it fucks me up and every time I think about it it's hard to breathe and I don't want to get lost in it. But I know I will if I go there. Don't think I'm hiding things from you. I am too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Isaac wantsherfurcoat 2016-04-21 03:15 am UTC (link)
	I do mean it. And I do trust you. I won't ask again. I never wanted to hurt you. If you say you aren't, then you aren't. You wouldn't lie to me. Are you busy tomorrow night? I'd like you to stay with me.i can give back rubs too. Or at least I can learn. And I can do sweet little kind things for you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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