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Naomh Pádraig | Saint Patrick (naomh_padraig) wrote in nevermore_au,
@ 2013-01-08 23:44:00

Entry tags:

-abroad, saint darerca, saint george, saint padraig

WHO: Padraig, George and Darerca
WHAT: A re-soulenated Padraig is having a Moment
WHEN: After Patrick is resoulenated
WHERE: Padraig's farm
WARNINGS: Talk of torture and horribleness

It had returned as suddenly as it left him. One moment Padraig was whistling and boiling water without a care in the world, and the next he was on the floor of his cabin, backing up into the corner on his hands and knees. The horror of everything he had done in the past years weighing on him heavily. His eyes widened and he burst into tears, clutching his chest and crying so hard he couldn't breathe.

He had starved his brother and tortured him. He had allowed another version of himself to try to kill his sister. He had done it because he had lost a soul he hadn't even tried to give away in the first place.

It was too much to take and after hours of cowering in the corner and trying to figure out how to deal with what he had done, he had headed to his barn, his gait deliberate. He grabbed a heavy bag of sand and a rope and he carried them both to the edge of the cliff which plunged down to the sea. He had spent so many years in captivity, fighting to not throw himself off the edge. Hope had kept him alive; hope of escaping his master and heading home. Now he had no hope. He had committed atrocities he could never live with.

Padraig tied one end of the rope to the sandbag and the other to his ankle. If he threw himself off the cliff, the weight would keep him submerged. The water would keep him from coming back, at least until his body decomposed or drifted too far out to sea and he just popped back to Ireland somewhere. And then he could do it again.

He stared off the cliff and sighed, watching the water churn below him.

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monster_slayer
2013-01-08 11:01 am UTC (link)

George had been tapping away on his laptop, singing songs to Darerca in an off-key way, when his phone rang. A glance at the number had him raising an eyebrow.

-"Hello, Yankee. What's the occasion for a call?"

The first thing he heard was the American sniffling, loudly, and that nearly made him drop the phone in shock. "A-are you all right?"

"His soul is back," the Yankee said, still sounding like he was choking back tears.

"WHAT?!"

"I went down to Hell, and I got it back, and it's back in Patrick." He was definitely crying. "So Padraig's probably-"

George hadn't heard anymore, letting his phone drop to the floor with a thud. "DARERCA! GET THE CAR, NOW!"-

That had been hours ago, and they'd finally reached Padraig's farm. George was practically vibrating with pent-up energy, desperate to check on his brother and see if he was all right. He didn't wait for Darerca to turn off the car before he leapt out and ran to the door.

"Padraig?" he called, stepping into his brother's house. "Padraig, are you here, where are you?"

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	prayingwithfire 2013-01-08 11:08 am UTC (link)
	Darerca pulled to a stop after George leapt out of the car, the brakes squealing in protest. She jumped out as well, leaning the doors open. Following George into the house, she frowned. Padraig wasn't in there. "George!" Darerca called to him. "He's not in here, maybe he's somewhere on the grounds?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 11:20 am UTC (link)
	"Fuck," he hissed. "All right, come on, we have to find him!" It did not bode well that they could not find Padraig. Not at all. George was frantic by the time their search took them towards the cliffs, and he saw a small figure standing near the very edge. "Padraig!" he screamed. "Don't you dare move!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

naomh_padraig
2013-01-08 11:25 am UTC (link)

Darerca skidded to a stop when she saw Padraig's shape sitting there on the edge of the cliff. She saw him turn to look at them and the expression on his face made her heart break.

Padraig stood quickly, but he didn't move away from the cliff's edge. "George, stop!" Padraig yelled, wrapping his arms around himself. He couldn't face his brother and sister, why were they even here? He didn't deserve them. "Just stay away from me."

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	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 11:27 am UTC (link)
	George took in the sandbag, the rope tied around Padraig's ankle, and the devastated expression on his brother's face. "Padraig, please come over here," George said, holding out a hand like he could will Padraig towards him. "Come here, all right?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

naomh_padraig
2013-01-08 11:34 am UTC (link)

Padraig shook his head but he didn't move. "I don't deserve to be here, George."

"Bullshit, you just don't want to feel the pain and that's not fair!" Darerca screamed at him, her anger coming out of nowhere. "You put us through hell, whether it was your fault or not. Are you going to put us through more?"

He swallowed and stared at the both of them before taking a tentative step away from the cliff.

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	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 11:36 am UTC (link)
	"That's right," George said, voice encouraging. "That's right, come on, Padraig, come here. We came to see you, not to watch you throw yourself off a cliff. Come here, come on, please." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	naomh_padraig 2013-01-08 11:44 am UTC (link)
	He swallowed roughly and he took several breaths before taking another step towards them. "Goddamit," he hissed at them. He sank to the ground, but he was far enough away from the edge that he was safe. There were no words for what he was feeling, but he figured he should start with a frantic, "I'm so sorry, fuck-" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 11:45 am UTC (link)
	George let him go no farther, more or less tackling him in a hug. It knocked them both completely to the ground. He was babbling into Padraig's shoulder, tears in his eyes. "You bloody fucking lunatic, going to jump off a cliff, I would have gone down there and smacked you myself-" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	naomh_padraig 2013-01-08 11:50 am UTC (link)
	Even though he felt like George shouldn't be anywhere near him, Padraig wasn't going to push him away. He wrapped his arms around his brother and he sobbed into George's shoulder. "George- I love you," he breathed, broken-hearted. Darerca just sat on the grass and watched them, tears running down her face. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 12:35 pm UTC (link)
	"I love you too," George said, rocking them back and forth. "Of course I love you, Padraig. Please don't hurt yourself." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	naomh_padraig 2013-01-08 12:42 pm UTC (link)
	Padraig didn't want to let George go and he didn't notice when Darerca crawled forward to untie the sandbag from his ankle and push it off the cliff to get rid of it. "George," he said weakly, "I- I can't-" and then he fainted. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	monster_slayer 2013-01-08 12:51 pm UTC (link)
	"Fuck," George swore softly, his brother deadweight in his arms. He looked at Darerca. "Let's get him inside." A few minutes later, Padraig was laid out on the couch and wrapped in several blankets. George was pacing next to him. "Do you think he's going to be all right?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)