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Ellie is supposed to be grown now (lady_dragon) wrote in neeps,
@ 2017-12-24 11:25:00

Entry tags:

! journal, elspeth macfusty

[posted evening 23 December]

[FLORRIE]

I am sorry.
I would say this in person, and can, but I suspect you’d rather not see me right now.
Not that I would blame you. ~~I barely want to see me.~~

Hitting people without their consent is not appropriate.
Violence is not an appropriate response.

I wish I could say I had a good reason for my actions. I do not.
I tend to act without thinking and I have been under a lot of stress lately.
This does not excuse my actions.

I am sorry.
I do not expect your forgiveness.
Certainly not anytime soon.

I am excusing myself from the family holiday party, so please don’t miss out in order to not see me.

[GWEN]

I am sure you are well aware of my colossal fuck ups lately. I am honestly taking this time off to try and fix things. ~~Or at least stop punching people.~~

I am sorry to have ruined your anniversary plans and now your holiday.

[CAV]

We should talk.
When you're ready.

I am sorry for my actions.
I will not punch or take any sort of violence toward you.
Promise.

[MacFUSTY CLAN +]*

In light of my recent actions I’ll be excusing myself from the party.
I have already explained the situation to mum and dad.

Everyone deserves to have a good time.
I would only complicate that.
I am sorry.

*Includes: McG cousins, Owen, Tor, Maddock, Anyone else I am forgetting who might earn an invitation to the MacFusty Christmas Eve Party.

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	Elsie avoidretrograde 2017-12-24 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	Alright, I'll ask because we're over journals and I'm not sure I can continue without an answer to the obvious question. Why Elsie?! If you have an issue with Calvallero, then aim at him. What has Florrie ever done to you? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Merc/Ellie lady_dragon 2017-12-24 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	Me. The issue is me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Merc/Ellie avoidretrograde 2017-12-24 05:57 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, Elsie. It's very clear the issue is you. My question is: Of all the people to punch why Florrie? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Merc/Ellie lady_dragon 2017-12-25 03:19 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't punch Florrie. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Merc/Ellie avoidretrograde 2017-12-25 06:03 pm UTC (link)
	Fine. Of all the people to hit, why Florrie? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Merc/Ellie lady_dragon 2017-12-25 09:06 pm UTC (link)
	You're right. I should have punched Cav. I was trying not to do that. Not sure this is better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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avoidretrograde, 2017-12-25 10:02 pm UTC

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lady_dragon, 2017-12-25 10:13 pm UTC

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avoidretrograde, 2017-12-25 10:18 pm UTC

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lady_dragon, 2017-12-25 10:24 pm UTC

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avoidretrograde, 2017-12-26 03:00 am UTC

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avoidretrograde, 2017-12-26 03:09 am UTC

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lady_dragon, 2017-12-26 03:32 am UTC

	Ellie \| Cav cavallero 2017-12-24 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not so sure I believe that promise. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Ellie \| Cav lady_dragon 2017-12-24 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	Well within your right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ellie \| Cav cavallero 2017-12-24 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps we should meet at neutral ground to talk. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ellie \| Cav lady_dragon 2017-12-25 04:59 am UTC (link)
	Name the terms. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ellie \| Cav cavallero 2017-12-26 12:59 am UTC (link)
	What are your holiday plans? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ellie \| Cav lady_dragon 2017-12-26 02:08 am UTC (link)
	~~Moving~~ An Nead. Probably helping around the Reserve. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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cavallero, 2017-12-26 08:43 pm UTC

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cavallero, 2017-12-27 12:18 am UTC

	Ellie/Owen mr_dragon 2017-12-24 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	Rhonna and Fergus will miss you, but it's important that you take care of yourself. Happy Christmas. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Ellie/Owen lady_dragon 2017-12-24 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	I'm at the house. They can always stop by. Mum and I made our dragon cookies today. So it's like I'll be there. Kind of. ~~Surprised you'e even~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ellie/Owen

mr_dragon
2017-12-25 02:00 am UTC (link)

Lorna and/or I could swing by before we head to my parents' place on Christmas morning, if you're going to be around then?

The kids will love that- it's their favorite part of the MacFusty party. (They will loudly tell you and at great lengths that it's the presents, but I know the truth.)

~~I know I'm not~~ Ellie, I know I'm not exactly your favourite person, but I'm always around if you ever want to talk. Or yell. Or hit something.

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	Ellie/Owen lady_dragon 2017-12-25 04:58 am UTC (link)
	I would say that hitting something landed me in the place I am now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ellie/Owen mr_dragon 2017-12-25 05:15 am UTC (link)
	~~What.~~ Are you in trouble? Do you need any help? Have you talked to anyone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ellie/Owen lady_dragon 2017-12-25 05:36 am UTC (link)
	Probably. Also probably. Yes. Technically. Owen. Please just enjoy Christmas with your family. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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mr_dragon, 2017-12-25 05:41 am UTC

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lady_dragon, 2017-12-25 03:17 pm UTC

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mr_dragon, 2017-12-25 05:03 pm UTC

	Elsie mrs_dragon 2017-12-25 01:08 am UTC (link)
	~~Fuck, I wish you'd let me help you... I miss you.~~ [ooc: unsent] (Reply to this)

	Ellie/Gwen gwensational 2017-12-26 02:13 am UTC (link)
	I've heard from Florrie McGonagall already. In your own words, what happened? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Ellie/Gwen lady_dragon 2017-12-26 02:17 am UTC (link)
	From where would you like me to begin? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ellie/Gwen gwensational 2017-12-26 02:22 am UTC (link)
	Whatever immediately preceded your decision to attack your cousin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ellie/Gwen

lady_dragon
2017-12-26 02:39 am UTC (link)

~~Well I was bor~~

Specifically?
The Circe article and the Cattery
Key trigger points that might have set things into motion

I didn't punch Cav
I know this is not better
But I wanted to punch him after the meeting
I may have slammed into a wall
But I didn't punch him

Then at the party
Alasdair and I were snogging
Maddock - who I just realized I'm still married to. Surprise?
We were about to leave and I saw Cav and Florrie

I reacted. Not thinking.
I slapped her
Open hand. Not punching.

Fully body bind followed.
More anger.
Then leaving.

Working on the remorse
And fixing things
If they are fixable

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	Ellie/Gwen gwensational 2017-12-26 02:56 am UTC (link)
	What does "working on remorse" mean? Are you in fact remorseful, or do you merely know that you should be? I've recently heard that this may not be an isolated incident. Who else have you hit, punched, hexed, cursed, or otherwise attacked since you began working for Portree? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ellie/Gwen

lady_dragon
2017-12-26 03:03 am UTC (link)

It means

[...]

It means things are complicated
Something wrong was done
Fighting without consent is not appropriate

However the emotions behind it were real
And to be perfectly honest?
Punching someone is one of only things that eases things for me

[...]

To give you a full list
Might be impossible
As you might well remember the period between MacDonald's injury and the Fall Classic

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