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Tweak says, "Knight to E5"

MarinaNova NPCs (marinanova_npc) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2015-07-20 19:48:00

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:mingle, aidan reilly, aigis, angelina burnett, artemis crock, carl grimes, carol peletier, charlotte charles, euphemia li britannia, kitty pryde (aoa), leia organa, mgann morzz, nico di angelo, olivia moore, rose, sam winchester, sarah williams, seyn ayliffe, spencer reid, spike, yuuri shibuya

333 - Rubber Ducky mingle
[Rubber Ducky, you're the one. You make everything so much fun. Which is why you'll find them just about everywhere. Maybe even in that pitcher of tea you just made. Never a dull day here in MarinaNova Asylum. Whether you are trying to beat the heat at the beach or at the pool or running errands you're going to encounter a lot of them.]

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	thisiscalm 2015-07-26 01:55 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah... yes, of course. I'm fine. [ He clears his throat, straightening up a bit. ] Hopefully it'll be all over by morning. Something like this has happened before and it cleared up after a day. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	forceful 2015-07-26 05:16 pm UTC (link)
	[ her hands leave his arms, leia tugging the sheer fabric of her magenta cardigan back into place. ] Just like the flooding that was here one day, gone the next? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2015-07-28 08:10 am UTC (link)
	Exactly like that. Most of the things that happen here only last a day. [ Which is a blessing, usually. ] So... we just have to hold out for morning, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	forceful 2015-07-29 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose when they bleed over into the next is when we should start getting worried, hm? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2015-07-30 10:54 am UTC (link)
	That's usually not a good sign, no. [ He gives a little smile. ] Sad to say, but you kind of get used to the craziness after a while. Or numb, I suppose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	forceful 2015-07-30 11:16 am UTC (link)
	[ her expression fades into something grim rather quickly. ] I've been numb for years now. You'd think I'd have built up a tolerance for things not going the way they should. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2015-07-31 01:32 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. [ He swallows. This took a turn. ] Yeah... I get that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	forceful 2015-08-01 03:02 pm UTC (link)
	Do you? [ almost imploring. leia's had moments where she's wanted desperately to feel alive again, but she's always recoiled from it out of some deep seeded sense of guilt and overwhelming commitment to a rebellion that doesn't exist within this habitat's dome. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2015-08-02 10:36 am UTC (link)
	I'm a criminal profiler. It's not a job you last in very long if you can't numb yourself off. [ Sad but true, and at the same time you can't completely close yourself off and lose your sense of empathy. It makes it harder, in some ways. Eventually you'll find your breaking point and what happens then is something he'd rather not think about. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

forceful
2015-08-04 11:10 pm UTC (link)

You don't last very long in my line of work, either.

[ not the princess part, but how deep she was embedded into the alliance military. high command had to make some difficult decisions at times, and there's no way leia could've made it through some of them without closing herself from the ability to feel anything about them.

nevermind alderaan. ]

I've been accused of being heartless and made of ice, but sometimes, that's really the only way to keep moving forward. You know?

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thisiscalm
2015-08-05 12:48 pm UTC (link)

[ Nodding — he knows. Their backgrounds are completely different but the end result is much the same. People outside of their worlds misinterpret survival as a lack of empathy, of not caring, of not valuing life. It's a hard critique to take and without his team, Reid isn't sure he'd ever last as long as he has. Even then, it's been tough. Tougher than anything. ]

I don't think people understand unless they've lived it. There's so much depending on keeping a clear head, on surviving... you can't let yourself feel too much. It makes the job impossible.

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forceful
2015-08-12 02:54 am UTC (link)

[ leia's nodding in agreement that's not so much sad as it is resolved. she came to terms with her lot in life years ago, and learning that she's anakin skywalker's daughter and has a jedi legacy to deal with on top of the weight that's already bearing down on her shoulders doesn't do anything to change that. ]

You know, there are some who'd think that being here would be something of a breather from the pressures of that life. I think I've forgotten how to -- breathe, that is. Breathe as someone other than a high ranking member of the Alliance.

[ maybe han and luke were helping her get back in touch with that side of herself that was lost along with alderaan, but they aren't here (and she doesn't wish them to be).

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thisiscalm
2015-08-12 08:58 am UTC (link)

[ That makes him smile, entirely humorless. Does he ever have a lot to say on what this place can offer, the pitfalls that exist for people like them (and that he can count himself in the same category as her will be a source of secret joys for some time). ]

It can be... sometimes it is. It doesn't last. [ Maybe he's too cynical. He's sure there are other people here who would disagree, people with similar experiences to them. ]

Sometimes I... I get more stressed out from it being quiet. There's hardly anything to do and as nice as it can be to get a break, the novelty is lost really quickly.

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forceful
2015-08-16 09:15 pm UTC (link)

I don't like silence. It gives you time to think about things that you don't want to. Alderaan--

[ this is one of those things leia's been afraid of: once she starts talking, she won't know how to stop -- but maybe letting some of that out will help her to feel less like she's about to explode. ]

There's been so much loss, so much pain. So many things that can't be fixed or made right again. So many lies that were told under the pretense that they were to protect that have arguably done more harm than good. I've given those things more thought over the past week than I have in the past four years.

[ she looks down at her feet, then back up at him. ] The novelty was never there.

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thisiscalm
2015-08-17 01:40 pm UTC (link)

[ He doesn't mind her talking, partially because it's her but just as much because he needs it too. He needs someone to vent to, who hasn't been intimately involved in the whole mess that's his life. It's strange that it's her and even stranger that what she says is so easily applicable to his own experiences. ]

I know what you mean. Not that we've had the same experiences in the least, but... I get it. It's the same for me — so much that should've been done different and maybe then-

There's nothing we can do about that. Maybe that's just life, making more and more of a mess the older we get.

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forceful
2015-08-20 12:06 pm UTC (link)

[ and while (unbeknown to her) reid may be well aware of who she is and what she does, he's not someone who looks up to her as the symbolic leader of the rebellion, the last daughter of alderaan, a victim, a survivor -- or vader's daughter. maybe only a small handful knew that she was, but as much as she loathed being this perfect shining symbol and figurehead, she feared that image getting tarnished once that truth came out. ]

It definitely keeps getting messier. You think you know who you are, and then--

[ no. vader's not a subject she's ready to broach. if she couldn't handle discussing her biological father with her twin brother, it's doubtful she'd be able to keep her emotions in check when bringing it up with someone else. ]

If I joined the Defense Force, I'd be good at it. More than good at it -- it's what I did, what I do. But, I wonder if joining would just put me back in the same unbreakable cycle I was in before.

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thisiscalm
2015-08-21 08:19 am UTC (link)

[ He's not a physical person in the least, but he can't even blame the fanboy in him for the desire to hug her. Sure, it helps that it feels like he knows her already, makes her closer to a teammate than a stranger. The urge is there, even if he doesn't act on it.

Instead, he latches on to the subject change. ]

I joined the Defence Force a couple of days after I arrived. Back then... it was different. Only way to get a weapon, only way to get any kind of real information about what was going on in the dome. That's not the case anymore.

I left not long ago because it felt like it wasn't a purpose so much as a distraction. Whether that's the same for you... I don't know. Don't let anyone strongarm you into joining, though. Give it some thought. There are other ways to work.

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forceful
2015-08-22 04:17 pm UTC (link)

A lot of people joined our rebellion [ she speaks as if he doesn't know much about her life and the position she was in back home, blissfully unaware of her fame ] for that very reason. We had weapons, resources, information -- a way to do something, even if it didn't always accomplish much. I can't lie. I probably would've joined without hesitation were that still the case, but I'm not sure the Defense Force would be a good fit for me.

[ even if she'd be good at it, could do any task assigned to her in her sleep. and even though she doesn't have any personal quarrels with kitty pryde, from what leia has silently observed -- she's not sure she would be content under the young woman's leadership. leia's a leader herself, but it has nothing to do with being used to answering to the likes of ackbar and mon mothma, and everything to do with disagreeing in a purely professional sense with the way things appear to be run.

and the princess was not the type to refrain from speaking her mind, especially if she felt things needed to be said (more so if nobody else would say them). ]

Are you suggesting I put on an apron and go into waitressing? [ that curl of her lips shows that she's joking, teasing. not at all offended by the suggestion that she do something else with her time. in fact, she's curious to see if he has any worthwhile suggestions for her. ]

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thisiscalm
2015-08-24 03:04 pm UTC (link)

[ He's not sure the Defense Force is a great fit for the prison anymore. Their numbers have dwindled, the threats have lessened and with how open they are with information (at least he was, during his time there) perhaps it's outlived its usefulness. He's certainly not recruiting as hard as he did a while back. IN fact, he's not recruiting at all. ]

No, I didn't mean that. [ Good job on making him smile though. That's a rare thing lately. ] I meant more... individual efforts can be just as good as joining the Force. There are a few of us that work outside of the confines of the group, while still helping each other out.

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forceful
2015-08-24 03:59 pm UTC (link)

[ having a defense force within a prison does sound a little strange in general, but this wasn't your ordinary prison. maybe something like that was necessary, but she'd yet to see an instance where it was. even the flooding was less of a defense problem and more the population's inability to work as a cohesive unit towards a common goal as basic as survival. ]

And you're one of those people?

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thisiscalm
2015-08-25 08:15 am UTC (link)

[ It probably made more sense back in the day when there were raptors prowling the night. He's questioned it more than once since arriving and the shift in attention from protection to finding a way back was partially his initiative. There would be no Investigation Team if he hadn't started it and now it'll just have to exist without him. Or not. It doesn't matter much either way. ]

I am. It seemed... neater. Less restrictive.

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forceful
2015-08-26 04:03 pm UTC (link)

[ in all honesty, were leia to join the defense force, she'd inevitably clash with current leadership. she had no qualms making waves within organizations that were in need of reform, but she was hesitant to do so within a facility she had only been in for a handful of weeks vs the time other residents have spent within the domed structure. this wasn't her galaxy, and she would feel like something of a fraud -- even with her experience with government and military -- if she were to throw her weight around when the ground beneath her feet still felt unstable. ]

Sometimes it's best to have the freedom to operate without them. Restrictions can get messy, especially in unorthodox situations which call for unorthodox solutions. Trust me, I've spent enough of my time bac home defending those who took matters into their own hands.

I'd like to help, if you and whoever you're working with need it.

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	thisiscalm 2015-08-27 09:17 am UTC (link)
	[ Getting approval for his less than kosher ideas from Leia-frickin-Organa is more of a confidence boost than she will ever know. Hopefully this won't backfire horribly. ] Pretty sure we could use all the help we can get. It's, ah... still in an experimental phase, but I'll let you in on the details when I have more to say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

forceful
2015-08-30 01:59 am UTC (link)

I appreciate it. I'm not exactly comfortable with the idea of my body being housed in a box somewhere, and would like to do whatever it is I can to help us regain control over our physical forms and hopefully get out from under this kriffing ocean.

[ swearing is a thing she does more regularly than people think, but she has to feel some semblance of comfort in a person's presence before she allows her vocabulary to get colorful. ]

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	thisiscalm 2015-08-30 10:08 am UTC (link)
	I don't think any of us are. [ He smiles a little, at her cursing and at their potential partnership. It's been a really frickin' awful time in prison lately, more than it's been since he arrived and it's little moments like these that give him the energy to keep at it. ] I'll get in touch. Probably on a day with less rubber ducks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)