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Tweak says, "Fall of a bridge!"

Aidan J. Reilly (redclayheroics) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-11-01 19:35:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, euphemia li britannia, hei, kitty pryde (aoa), lacus clyne, malcolm reynolds, piter de vries, sougo okita, tear grants, zelgadis greywars

243 // audio + action
[ It's been a long day. An eternity or perhaps just a few minutes, seconds, heartbeats since he woke up to an empty bed and an even emptier apartment. It wasn't too hard to swallow back the panic at first, keep it at bay with positive thinking and the stubborn task of looking in every nook and cranny, of testing the line over and over and over again because sooner or later he would turn up. He'd pick up the call. He was probably just busy, or out in Sector 6 or taking a bath.

He'd show up, sooner or later.

Morning turns to day turns to evening and he's still alone. By now the panic is all-consuming, squeezing at his heart until he can't even breathe. Fingers shaking, Aidan flicks on the audio feed. One last ditch effort. ]

Has anyone- [ But he stops himself there. Sometimes you know the answer all too well. So well that you don't want it confirmed more than you've already done yourself. He draws a deep breath, steadies himself for another short minute. ]

If anyone wants t' know... I know he had a few friends here. Probably more than he knew. Helix is...

Helix is gone.

[ With that he cuts the feed, abruptly, tugs the headpiece off just as frantically before heading down to the beach. He can't think of any other place to go. ]

((ooc: Anyone is welcome to find him down at the beach! Audio responses will be icly delayed seeing as he's pretty damn heartbroken, but they will be responded to eventually. ))

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	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 04:26 pm UTC (link)
	[ He gives a nod in response, short and tense. A part of him wants to cry his eyes out but that hasn't been possible for a while now so instead he just swallows and tries to feel through the crippling pain in his chest. ] ...He was always here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-01 04:39 pm UTC (link)
	[A nod as she listens, not only to the words but to how he says them. She won't believe Aidan can't recover from this, though it may take some time.] He was. [It's difficult, trying to imagine one of them without the other. Lacus almost says more, but waits to see if Aidan needs to just talk without being interrupted.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 05:37 pm UTC (link)
	[ It's a clever tactic, one that actually prompts him to continue. It's not much, but it's something. ] I don't know what to do now. I got nowhere to go. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-01 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	You always have somewhere to go, as long as I'm here. It's not the same, but it's a place you are welcome and wanted. [Is that an offer? Yes. She doesn't even think about it. Sougo wouldn't mind.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:01 pm UTC (link)
	[ He finally looks up at that, jaw set and eyes wide. ] I can't go back there. To th' apartment. I can't. [ But he has things there. His plants. Clothes. Bits and pieces that Helix gave him and oh god what is he supposed to do with Helix's stuff? What if he comes back and he didn't take care of them? What if he should stay home and wait? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-01 06:05 pm UTC (link)
	[Another nod.] Sougo and I have plenty of space. Or, there's an apartment beside ours that's empty. And I'd manage the apartment for you, keep it up for if he comes back. Maybe it would be best for you to be with people who care about you, at least for a little while. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

redclayheroics
2013-11-01 06:30 pm UTC (link)

[ For a moment, he feels like he should protest but he can't bring himself to do it. Finding a place on his own seems impossible. Doing anything on his own aside from possibly drinking himself into oblivion feels like climbing the tallest mountain so having some support and someone to crumble against might just be exactly what he needs to even survive this.

He shifts his weight, turns to wrap his arms properly around her. Still no tears. He's starting to doubt that part of him still works. ]

Thank you.

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	fields_of_hope 2013-11-01 06:35 pm UTC (link)
	[Returning the embrace, Lacus fights her own tears. She's always been one to cry when someone else can't.] Of course. Anything I can do, and I know Sougo will agree with me. We'll just take things one day at a time, or an hour. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods against her, burying his face against her shoulder. ] That sounds good. I can do that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-01 06:46 pm UTC (link)
	[Instinct has her stroking the back of his head, a very mothering pose.] I know you can. And if you're struggling, we'll always help you. Sougo and I both know what it's like, so you can tell us anything you want to say, and if you want to say nothing we'll still understand you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	[ Wow that feels nice. Too nice, almost. So much so that he needs to duck out and make a little distance — the heartbreak is enough, he can't add missing his mom on top of it. ] Where do you guys live? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-03 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	[She briefly describes the location which I believe is in Sector 4 but would not swear on it] It's not exactly like home, but it's comfortable and I feel safer there than anywhere else in the dome. Sougo always makes sure we have plenty of movies around. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

redclayheroics
2013-11-04 08:11 am UTC (link)

[ Let's assume it is for now and possibly retcon if it isn't! He nods a little. ]

Me an' Helix talked 'bout movin' into that Sector, but we ended up over in 2 instead. More his style, y'know? [ And that's one reason why he can't bring himself to go back. It was more Helix's home than his own. Had been since he first arrived in Marina — he moved in with the younger boy. Helix called the shots, even if he may not have been aware of it. Aidan always followed and now he's all out of leaders. ]

Sounds nice, livin' with you guys... you sure it's okay?

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fields_of_hope
2013-11-04 04:57 pm UTC (link)

Of course. Sougo and I both love you. We'd be happy to have you there. [Lacus doesn't always feel confident speaking for Sougo, but in this case she can't imagine he'd feel otherwise. The only worry she has is not letting Sougo feel neglected as she inevitably fusses over Aidan while he's grieving. It's probably best that she not be quite so openly affectionate with Sougo for a while lest they inadvertently remind Aidan of what he's missing.]

We can all help each other. [Yes, right now Aidan needs the most help, but she wants him to know that his presence will be as soothing to herself and Sougo as she hopes theirs will be to Aidan. To make it clear he's not even a little bit a burden.] Whenever you'd like to come and see it, I'll get you a key and anything else you need. [Like a lot of post-drinking aspirin and a cold compress...]

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	redclayheroics 2013-11-05 05:09 am UTC (link)
	[ It's an excellent tactic — not being useful at all has always been among Aidan's top ten fears and hearing that he can provide with something in the not to distant future is oddly comforting. So much so that he's able to muster up a weak little smile. ] Maybe a little later... I'd like to just be here for a while. [ Let things sink in. Land. ] Thanks, Lacus. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fields_of_hope
2013-11-05 06:35 pm UTC (link)

There's no hurry. [Logistics relatively settled, Lacus falls silent as she looks at the rolling waves. Nothing close to the real sea she'd lived beside during her too-brief time on Earth and yet it's impossible not to associate with that time. She wants to be there for Aidan and hopes she has been, a little, despite her own grief which is only slightly less fresh.]

May I stay a while? [Something in her tone says she's done talking unless he's not. She just doesn't want to leave him alone.]

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	redclayheroics 2013-11-06 05:42 am UTC (link)
	[ He hesitates for just a moment, contemplates asking her to leave him alone... but being alone was never a good thing and he has plenty of time to do that later. Instead he nods, slowly. ] Yeah... I'd like that. Th' beach ain't much fun when you're on your own. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fields_of_hope 2013-11-07 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	[She nods and pulls her knees to her chest, chin settling on her folded arms. If Aidan wants to talk she'll listen and do her best to help; if not, she's content for each of them to sit with their own thoughts. Grief is a tough thing, and she would much rather both of them had someone beside them, just in case.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Wrap up? redclayheroics 2013-11-08 10:55 am UTC (link)
	[ It's surprisingly nice, having someone to sit in silence with. He doesn't say anything else, just lets his thoughts wander with the rolling waves, allows himself to get lost in the rhythmic noise and the presence of one of his best friends in this godforsaken place. So many lost already. He'll need to keep the ones he's got left even closer. ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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