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Tweak says, "Don't blame the chups"

ѕooĸιe ѕтacĸнouѕe (thoughts) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-27 22:26:00

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:mingle, aidan reilly, asami sato, betty mcrae, calliope-caliborn, caroline forbes, damon salvatore, duo maxwell, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, ianto jones, kitty pryde (aoa), kitty pryde (evolution), lacus clyne, laura kinney, matt donovan, miranda lotto, nikola tesla, penelope garcia, phoebe halliwell, piper halliwell, rebekah mikealson, richie foley, shining armor, sookie stackhouse, stefan salvatore, yuuki kuran, yvaine, zatanna zatara, zelgadis greywars, zero kiryuu

day 225 | xiii ❧ potluck mingle!

[ this is her first time doing one of these without gran, and something she thought was going to be difficult for those very reasons is actually rather therapeutic, heartwarming -- a glance back at her roots, back when she was just adele stackhouse's weird granddaughter and not that fae who mingles with vampires. sookie contributes a few dishes from her gran's old recipes, along with something lafayette taught her to make. she's got all the tables in this part of trois park covered with checkered table clothes of varying colors, lots of plastic silverware, paper plates, cups, and napkins at the ready, and a stack of picnic blankets folded up on one of the benches for those who wish to sit on the grass instead of at a table. sookie even brought a long a mesh bag full of sports equipment -- or rather, a couple frisbees, a football, soccer ball, basketball, and even some hacky sacks. (she's not the sports type, but jason would always be off playing something with the other guys.)

hopefully she didn't leave anything out. hopefully this will help cheer everyone up some, both the new arrivals and those still dealing with the days they spent in that other prison. ]

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amplified
2013-06-29 10:39 am UTC (link)

[ wellllll this is awkward. she spots him from across the party but she's not sure he even wants to talk to her, let alone see her. it kinda hurts to see him right there and not be able to talk to him. it's like last summer all over again. she leans against one of the tables, glancing at him as she worries her lip a little.

ugh, fine, she's going to go talk to him because this sucks. she doesn't want to fight with matt anymore. been there done that.] Hey.

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stuck
2013-06-29 10:47 am UTC (link)

[ he really doesn't want to keep fighting with her, either. they've done that, he got his fill of doing that. matt would love nothing more than to sweep everything under the rug and just try to be friends again, but she's the one who kept bring up rebekah (which, considering what happened last night, was something of a valid concern, although none of her business) and the fact that he was hiding things. yeah, he was and yeah, it really sucked, but it was unavoidable. he didn't want her to know about tyler, about what happened to mrs. lockwood... especially now that she's slept with stefan. that would only make her feel ten times more guilty for doing so, and no matter what kind of outrage he may feel after seeing that news plastered to the morning announcements, he doesn't want to see her hurt like that.

or be the one to do it. he's hurt her enough already. ] Hey. Let me guess; chili?

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amplified
2013-06-29 10:58 am UTC (link)

[ caroline would argue that matt's not allowed to be mad she's moving on, he's the one who broke up with her, who said he couldn't deal with her and her life. and here he was deep in it and keeping secrets and defending rebekah. caroline isn't happy about it. and his words still sting, he called her shallow and coming from him, someone who might know her better than almost anyone, knows that's her fear because she'd drunkenly told him, it hurt.

she fights to keep the tension and hurt out of her voice because she doesn't want to hurt him either, even if she feels like rehashing it all over again. she wants answers, she needs them. so she tries for perky and falls flat.] Of course. No one here's gotten to try it.

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	stuck 2013-06-30 05:53 am UTC (link)
	[ and matt would argue back that it's not about her. it's the fact that it's stefan. that's the part that bothers him. speaking of-- ] So. You and Stefan. Never saw that one coming. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

amplified
2013-06-30 05:56 am UTC (link)

[ of course, he goes for the low blow (or what she sees as the low blow) immediately. her expression falters and she looks at him simply.]

It's not like it just happened. [ she's defensive because she feels a guilty about it. about hurting elena and hurting tyler if he should ever find out.]

It's kind of just been happening. [ oh, it's so hard to bite back the 'i could say the same about you and impostor vampire barbie' but she does. she's trying to end this.]

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	stuck 2013-06-30 06:53 am UTC (link)
	Well, I just got here, so it's news to me. [ and it wasn't going on back home, either. stefan was still hovering around elena and caroline was still upset over tyler being run out of town. ] Is Elena okay with this? Are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

amplified
2013-06-30 07:03 am UTC (link)

Elena and I talked about it. [ and that's all she's going to say about it. ~~mostly because the muns haven't finished the log~~.] It's not like he forced me. [ that's a touchy subject with her too, considering the other salvatore had.]

I care about Stefan. We kinda even each other out. And he sees me for me, not as what I am or who he thinks I should be. [ which might be an allusion to how matt doesn't see her. and yeah, she's still holding onto that fight, the shallow comment. it hurts, okay? and caroline's good at holding onto things.

she runs her hand through her hair before she glances at him, hurt still clear in her eyes.] So where are you staying, since you're not staying with us? Did you get your own place?

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stuck
2013-06-30 07:14 am UTC (link)

[ ...ouch. low blow, but he deserves it. especially with how hypocritical he's being that regard, albeit unbeknownst to her. matt doesn't know what he's doing with rebekah, but he knows that in doing whatever the hell he thinks he's doing, he's going against those very ethics that made him walk away from caroline. (maybe he's just grown as a person, maybe he just needed time to deal with everything and let it all soak in, but he still feels like an ass for it.) ]

Not yet. Haven't really had a chance to look around and figure out that out just yet.

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amplified
2013-06-30 07:18 am UTC (link)

[ normally caroline's over it. but right now, she's angry with matt, with the way he's acting, the way he's team rebekah when it was so hard for him to be team caroline even though she loved him. he damned her for things she hadn't done but what other vampires had done. and yet now he's defending rebekah, someone who almost killed him, who did kill their best friend, who was klaus's sister.

she was over matt, she didn't love him, but she still resented this new matt, the one who defended the bad guy because she didn't get that maybe rebekah might have the capacity to change. she'd just never seen it, rebekah had only ever reverted back to her pouty, scary temper tantrum-y self.]

Then where are you staying? [ because as mad as she is at you, matt, she still cares.] Please don't say a park bench.

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stuck
2013-06-30 08:42 am UTC (link)

[ he's aware. he's more than aware of how this must look -- how it's going to look if he sorts out the mess in his head and it points him in a direction that involves something a little bit more solid and real with rebekah, not just getting wasted and making out with her. or her kissing him in desperation while standing atop a bomb. he had time to think about all that, about rebekah and why he walked away from caroline, in the aftermath of graduation and the ghostly chaos that proceeded and surrounded it. he'd be lying if he said it didn't influence his decision to tell her they wouldn't work, to hold steadfast to the decision to keep his life low vampire zone. he'd look like a dick if he actually got involved with rebekah, an original who's done horrible things, when he couldn't handle a girl he's known his whole life, who he loved and loved him back, being a vampire. ]

Okay, tree house. [ matt's willing to bet she'll consider a park bench a better alternative to staying with rebekah until he gets settled. ]

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amplified
2013-06-30 08:53 am UTC (link)

[ she tilts her head in annoyance when he doesn't tell her and this whole avoiding the truth thing is getting tiring to her.] I know there's no treehouses here. [ she figures it's a joke and she tries to sound amused but she's not, she studies him for a second before letting a breath.]

Since when did the truth become so hard for you, Matt? I mean, you used to be, like, the only person I could trust to honest. [ besides stupid damon but he doesn't count. matt never seemed to lie unless he had a good reason.] I mean, I'm just asking where you're staying and you're being all avoid-y so unless you're shacking up with Rebekah or something, I don't see why it's a big deal. It's not like I'm going stalk you, if you're worried about that. I just want to where you're staying so I know you're okay. [ and maybe she'd drop off casseroles. the truth, however, will earn him no delicious foods. not when she finds out he's with rebekah in any way. it'll be a slap in the face to caroline, even if she'd moved on. the sting was still there, it'd barely been a year, and his rejection affected her more than anything, it'd been the basis of everything because caroline forbes had believed in happy endings or really, that love would conquer all.

matt's rejection, while completely understandable to her now, shattered that perception. maybe it's for the best but that didn't mean it didn't hurt like hell. and if he shacked up, hooked up with rebekah, what did that say about caroline? caroline who never wanted any of this to begin with, caroline who just wanted to love the quarterback and be miss mystic falls, caroline who feared the monster within and battled it instead of embraced like certain other blond vampires.]

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stuck
2013-06-30 09:36 am UTC (link)

[ since the truth had the power to really hurt the people he cared about. matt wasn't a supernatural being like them. he wasn't powerful or strong, he couldn't compel people, break down doors, or run at flash-like speeds. he couldn't do magic, had only succeeded in talking to the ghost of his dead sister, and that had been a mess in and of itself. he was just a guy -- a guy wearing a magic ring that wasn't even his. all he could do to protect his friends was lie and withhold the truth. it sucked, but it was all someone who often felt so utterly powerless in the face of everything that's been thrown their way thus far could do. ]

Fine. It's only temporary, but... [ he hangs his head in shame, unable to add another lie to his growing list. ] I'm staying with Rebekah.

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amplified
2013-06-30 09:41 am UTC (link)

[ matt's life was even more difficult than caroline knew but of course, he was the one keeping that from her. and maybe what she says is unfair but how can she know that? she wants her friend back, not this guy who insists on keeping secrets and is---]

You're staying with her? [ yeah, you weren't expecting a good reaction to this, were you matt?] Are you serious? Why? Matt, you can't! It's not safe, you're not even on vervain yet, are you?

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stuck
2013-06-30 09:49 am UTC (link)

Because I'm tired of being in empty houses! [ which is the truth. first his house, then elena's, and now the lockwood mansion, big enough to house half the town and way too spacious and empty for a guy who wasn't born into the sort of life that came with a gardener and a housekeeper. ] And you and Elena keep asking me questions about things I already told you I can't talk about. It just seemed easier this way.

[ it's the truth, but only partially. matt's drawn to rebekah and it's driving him crazy that he is. he's having a hard time with it, with both the attraction to her and the realization that all of a sudden, even before prison, rebekah became the easiest person to talk to. the one he could count on to be there when everyone else was off running around dealing with drama that he wasn't really involved in. ]

And it's just until this place stops freaking me out, Care. I'm not exactly good with this kind of stuff. You should know that.

[ low blow for an earlier low blow, though that blow's partial swung back at himself. ]

Yeah, I am. She gave it to me, and besides, I've got the in-case-of-emergency ring. [ he holds up his hand, reminding her of the fact that he's wearing jeremy's ring. ]

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amplified
2013-06-30 09:57 am UTC (link)

You could've come stayed with us. [ because them asking questions isn't annoying to her, of course. his answers are not acceptable to her, honestly. she's still on the whole 'rebekah's a killer' aspect of things.]

And you think I am? [ yeah, that was low and she's not okay with it.] You think I'm good with being kidnapped all the freaking time, that I'm good with being sent to this prison away from my friends, my boyfriend, and my mom? You've been here two days. I've been here for over a month. No, I'm not good with this stuff either. [ yeah, she's annoyed now.]

I wasn't worried about her killing you, Matt. This place is harsh on that kind of stuff. And she's not that stupid. [ she'd find herself with a whole lot of more angry enemies than just caroline if she hurt matt] I didn't want her compelling you.

[ she throws her hands up for a moment.] I'm so tired of fighting with you. I don't want to fight with you but you keep staying stuff and you keep lying. What happened to you, Matt? I don't get it. [ she thought they were okay.]

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stuck
2013-06-30 10:42 am UTC (link)

This happened to me. All of this. This world. I lost my sister to it and for the longest time, I didn't even know it. I nearly drowned at the bottom of a river and have to live with the knowledge that the girl I've loved longer than I can remembered did die down there, because she wanted me to live. Do you know how hard it is to get out of bed knowing that, knowing-- [ that jeremy's dead. that tyler's gone. that tyler's mom, a woman who was kind to him even when she clashed with his mom, is dead, too. ] Knowing the things I now know.

Things get bad, Care. Worse than they've ever been. I've been through things, I've done things -- things I didn't really have much time to process before a bunch of robots decided they needed to add to their Mystic Falls collection.

[ none of which is her fault, and he sees where she's coming from. he understands, empathizes. he knows her, and maybe that's why it hurts so much to keep everything bottled up. especially when she was the first on his list of people to call when shit started going down. now he can't, because she doesn't know and he doesn't want her to know. ]

Your mom's fine. So's Tyler and everyone else. Things [ ~~got better~~ ] calmed down.

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amplified
2013-06-30 09:58 pm UTC (link)

[ despite them being over and done with, it still stings to hear him say that he still loves elena, knowing that means he loved her while they were together. but she picks up on what he says and straightens.] No, I don't know because you won't tell us, you have some weird idea that we can't handle what you know but Matt, we've been through just as much as you. And whatever's happened? You don't need to keep it bottled up. I'd rather you be the one to tell us what's happened then Rebekah or someone else that shows up.

[ she pauses.] It's unfair to keep it from Elena, at least. [ she knows how to play to her audience.] And if things have 'calmed down' then it can't hurt to tell us. You can't just keep it from us, Matt. It's not fair.

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stuck
2013-07-01 08:09 pm UTC (link)

[ oh yes it is. it is, because he doesn't want to be the one to tell elena that her brother is dead. he was barely able to keep it together while standing in the same room as jeremy's body, he'd completely break down and lose it if he had to say it to elena's face, if the delivering of that news fell on his shoulders. and yeah, he'd rather it be him instead of someone else, but he'd rather not do it at all. besides, to the elena that's here, jeremy's still alive and well back home in mystic falls. not ash in a house she burnt down in a fit of emotionless in order to be free of her old life. ]

Yeah, I can. And I will. [ sorry care, he's not going to budge on that. ]

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amplified
2013-07-04 06:01 am UTC (link)

[ she lets out a frustrated huff, her eyes narrowing for a moment.] You're being impossible, Matt. And we're going to find out eventually and it's worse that it's not from someone we care about. [ she doesn't want klaus to come back and blab it or have rebekah say it to elena when she gets mad about something and rub it in elena's face. caroline dreads that day. caroline already dreads the truth, the fact that matt is wearing jeremy's ring, every excuse he makes sounds lamer each time.]

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