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Bak ([info]punching_bag) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2013-04-01 11:48:00

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Entry tags::mingle, aidan reilly, aradia megido, artemis crock, asami sato, bak chang, calliope-caliborn, dawn summers, derek morgan, dick grayson (all-star), elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, hei, helix wamtani, jean-luc picard, kitty pryde (aoa), kitty pryde (evolution), klara guildsen, lacus clyne, penelope garcia, piter de vries, rebecca crane, richie foley, roxy lalonde, sam winchester, sougo okita, spencer reid, spike, tear grants, terry mcginnis, xander harris, yuuki kuran, yuuri shibuya, yvaine, zero kiryuu

Mingle: Event Kick-Off
[ It was mid-morning. The sky was clear and it was a (not so) very blustery day. It was cool but it was always cool. It was neither too warm nor too hot.

Lukewarm.

And that was just how Bak preferred it. Especially since he had in hand his very important, extra special concoction of wonderful forgetfulness on hand! Bak could stand teasing, but even this was getting ridiculous.

Hefting the bag a little higher so it fit snug into the crook between elbow and shoulder, he stepped off into wild world of Marinanova and promptly had to grab onto his hat.

Opps. He always forgot about that step down.

Taking another step, he nearly tripped again, this time on a rock. Frowning, Bak starred at the offending piece of debris and then he kicked it.

And yelped.

And then held his foot, dropping his bag in a near blinding rush of ”Eeeek!” as he dived for the paper bag, watching as with a POOF half of the contents disappeared into the wind, leaving him sneezing and dazed on the ground wondering what the heck had just happened. Clearly, his own formula had been getting the best of him. It happens when one sneaky scientist messes with the formula and Bak spent the better part of the morning putting the final touches of the mixture together.

Heightened emotions indeed.

Bak will rue this day assuming he survived it. ]


((ooc: Consider this post an open mingle and the start of the Marina Feelings Roulette Event! Creating your own posts is, as always, highly encouraged. And, unless you got an extra hefty dose of it right off the bat (re: by being in proximity to Bak when it happened) feelings should gradually start to go haywire later in the day with strongest feelings in the afternoon and tapering off again as evening descends. For more info on the details, please go here. Have fun!))



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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-05 10:25 pm UTC (link)
[Garcia is ever-perceptive and has of course noticed that things are not A-OK with her beau lately. And that never deters her from checking in -- in fact, she has about fifty times more need to do so. Which is why she makes time to catch up with him in his patrols.]

Hey, babycakes. Think we could pow-wow a sec? <smalL.[She's ginger about it, since she knows how closed off Derek gets when he's not happy.]

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 12:20 am UTC (link)
[He thinks about pretending he didn't hear that familiar voice. She usually brings him peace of mind. But he isn't sure he's ready for peace of mind yet. However, the idea of pretending he didn't hear his baby girl is only a fleeting one because he could never ignore her, especially when there's a chance she could actually need something from him.

After taking a few more steps away from her, he shoves his hands into his pockets, slowly turns around and faces her. His chin is raised a bit defiantly, masking whatever it is that's underneath the exterior.
] What do you need, Garcia.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 12:22 am UTC (link)
[Oh, no no no this will not do at all.] What I need, darling, is for you to tell me what's up with you. I can't stand to see you like this and not be able to help.

[She tries to match his stubbornness, but as ever it comes out pleading. The one thing she can't stand is seeing her loved ones hurting.]

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 12:29 am UTC (link)
[He waffles back and forth for a moment, deciding whether to tell her the truth or fudge it a little. He wonders if just saying one of the things that's eating at him will sate his best friend's need to help. He doesn't have to get right in to the heart of it all yet, does he? We'll see.]

Hotch is gone. [He looks down at the ground feigning loss of eye contact for sadness. Yes, he's upset that Hotch is gone, but he also can't look her in the eye and not be completely honest with her.] Reid says we don't go home.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 12:32 am UTC (link)
[She knew that Hotch was gone, but she'd been slow to accept it. Still, she's not as shocked as she should be, by all rights... until that second thing.]

What do you mean we don't go home? Where did he go, then? [Garcia can feel herself wanting to get hysterical, but Derek's behavior is concerning enough to hold her together. Barely.]

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 12:39 am UTC (link)
According to the Wardens there's a place called the dimensional stabilizer where we go. Some kind of... computerized purgatory from what I can tell. An in-between kind of place.

[He shakes his head and looks away to the side, his brow furrowed with all the frustration and other emotions he's trying to keep at bay.] They won't let me in to see him. They won't answer any questions about it. I don't know if he's awake or in some kind of stasis.

[And he's probably gonna get in trouble for the damage he did to their precious door at the kiosk. Two dents. And they had to use a taser on him. This is more than enough unhappiness to cover up what he's really unhappy about.] I don't know what to believe. Everyone lies. Even bots.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 12:42 am UTC (link)
Computerize purgatory? Oh my God. [This is -- that's way worse than being here! What the hell?!] Derek... I know I can't promise anything here, but I will focus all my energy on finding Hotch wherever he is and sending him home or getting him back here. I mean, if I just find the right thread to pull...

[...Wait.] What do you mean "everyone lies"?

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 12:54 am UTC (link)
I mean I don't know how much of what the Wardens say is truth. It's like walking around in circles trying to get an answer from them. You never get anywhere.

[He sounds very snappish in the way he says all of that. And he almost never snaps at Garcia unless he's in this kind of upset. He draws a deep breath and nods.] I know you'll do what you can.

[He pauses, his voice quieter when he speaks again.] I'm worried that in the mindset I'm in, that I'm gonna mess this up with you. [At the word 'this' he waves his hand back and forth between the two of them. When Derek's trust is broken, his reaction is to close off and back away from everyone.]

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 01:04 am UTC (link)
Oh. Well I'd say that's understandable. Why should we trust anything they say? [Somehow she got a different feeling from what he said, but she's not going to think he's lying to her unless she has a reason to.]

Derek... [Garcia steps closer, arm out.] The only way you can mess this up is to not tell me what's going on. I'm here for you, just like you would be for me if I wasn't okay. Just let me help.

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 01:26 am UTC (link)
[Derek looks down at that hand for a moment, hesitating, and then putting his hand with the bruised and cracked skin knuckles in her hand. Yeah, he's been hitting things again. Nevertheless, his fingers curl around her hand and he pulls her close, his arm going around her shoulders as he holds her close against him. It's the first truly gentle thing he's done all day... or even since Reid blew his mind the other day.

He dips his head, burying his face in her hair and inhaling a deep breath of her. He stays quiet for the moment, just because if he says anything it's going to be that he doesn't deserve her. And a part of him worries that she'll agree with him if he says those words out loud.
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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 01:37 am UTC (link)
[Embracing her Derek is the easiest thing in the world to Garcia. No matter what else is happening in the universe, this is something she can do, something they can have, that no one can ever take away -- not even his sour mood or potentially snappish comments. She'd never let something like that rip them apart.]

[Something about this, maybe his beaten-up hand or the way he just can't seem to talk, something has her crying enough for both of them.]
Whatever it is, I promise we'll be okay.

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 01:51 am UTC (link)
[Her reassurances go a long way with him. Anything having to do with Penelope Garcia has a lot of pull with him just because of who she is to him. But he soaks that reassurance up like a dry sponge plunged into a vat of water. She feels good. She always feels good to him.

Somewhere in the back of his mind it dawns on him that she's crying. He hates having anything to do with that. But he also knows that she wouldn't be his baby girl if she didn't feel everything at a hundred and ten percent. His grip on her hand tightens and he kisses the top of her head, down at her brow. He dips his head and brushes his lips, feather-light over one damp eyelid and then lower over her tear soaked cheek, metaphorically taking back the emotions he just gave to her to keep the weight of them on his own shoulders. Then his lips find hers for a soft, salt-laced kiss.
]

You can't break that promise, Penelope. I need us to be okay. [His own words mock him in his own mind: everyone lies.]

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-06 01:59 am UTC (link)
[Her fingers clutch him just a little tighter with each of those kisses, and she smiles through those tears.] I wouldn't dream of it. No matter what, we'll handle it together. [Her hands lift to cup his cheeks, or at least the free one if he won't release her hand which is fine by her.]

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-06 02:33 am UTC (link)
[He closes his eyes, just letting her hold his face in her hands. His own hands rest lightly at either side of her waist. For this brief moment, everything else goes away except her and the way her touch feels and the words she's saying. It's a heady combination of positive morphine in an otherwise hurtful and negative space he's dwelling in right now.

Back home he would have tried to drown in this momentary forgetfulness. A pretty girl, nameless, faceless, taking his mind off all the dark and twisted things that run through his mind after some cases. But Garcia isn't nameless or faceless. She isn't just any pretty girl. She's
the girl in his book. And whatever happens between them doesn't get forgotten the next morning or even a few weeks later. She goes beyond that with him.

His hands curl to fist the material of her clothing at her sides as if he might push it up or down to feel the skin underneath, or maybe to keep his hands where they are. But after a moment, he lets go and he reaches up and laces his fingers with that hand he'd been holding moments ago at his cheek. He turns his head and kisses her palm.
]

Reid's pretty upset about Hotch too. [A diversion to take the attention away from himself just like he'd done with Kitty to keep from talking about things. Only right now it both kept him safe from talking and kept her safe from him trying to push things further before she's ready just to make himself feel something good.]

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-09 08:30 pm UTC (link)
[They've never really talked about it, but Garcia's not entirely ignorant of how Derek chooses to decompress. That's why she was so insecure around all those beach bunnies the other night, and why she's desperate to calm him down before he does something that will be hard for them to handle -- not impossible, never that, but hard.]

[It would be simple to let Derek do this thing, change the subject, but no. He doesn't need to be alone with this, no matter what he thinks. But... she's not about to just let that about Reid go by either.]


I'm sure he is. I'll talk to him. But right now all I'm worried about is you, Mister. [She leans forward to put her forehead against his.] Just tell me what I can do. There has to be something okay, because you're the only thing holding me together and when you get all quiet and distant it's like I can feel my seams pulling apart.

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-11 03:02 pm UTC (link)
[He's pretty sure he should be alone with this. Unless Penelope's from before Hotch's and J.J.'s lie came out too. And for a brief moment he thinks to ask her, but a part of him doesn't want to know yet. He doesn't know if he can handle anyone else's disappointment but his own at the moment and if she were feeling what he's feeling, he'd push his own emotions down inside to help her and everything would just fester. That's how he worked.

Their brows resting together, Derek closes his eyes and draws in a deep breath. He should have known that Penelope wouldn't be so easily distracted. He knew he was being just that, quiet and distant. But inside he was like a trip wire of electricity, on edge, ready to light up at the slightest provocation, just a step away from free-falling off the ledge of an emotional cliff.

Instead of answering her with words, he brushed his lips against hers again. The kiss was careful and yet intense with the way it was forcibly reigned in and controlled. His palm slid from the side of her neck to the back and his lips parted, his tongue gliding lightly against her bottom lip in attempt to coax her lips apart.
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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-15 10:52 pm UTC (link)
[And this right here would be the first time Derek's kissed her when she's not over the moon about it. Not that she objects or anything, she mentally corrects! It's just that she's worried, crying, and not in kissing mode. But if... this is the sort of comfort he needs...]

[So she relaxes and lets him kiss her, and kisses back a little bit, as much as she can in the weird numb terror of all this. And her hands, they just hold onto him for dear life.]

[It'll be okay, it'll be okay...]

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[info]bloodcakedarmor
2013-04-16 03:40 pm UTC (link)
[No matter his state of mind, he's still been trained to read people. And while his Penelope is compliant in the kiss, it's also clear that she's uncomfortable with it. That's the last thing he wants, to make her uncomfortable just because he's going through a rough patch of emotions and betrayal right now.

Still holding her face between his hands, he breaks the kiss and rests his brow against hers. He takes several deep breaths and then nods, letting go and taking two steps backward. His eyes, pooled with a thunderstorm of emotions, look up into hers. He offers a small smile that doesn't match his eyes but is there anyway with some effort.
] I love you, Penelope Garcia.

[He juts a thumb out in a random direction that's anywhere but here.] I'm gonna... go for a walk.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-04-25 03:51 pm UTC (link)
[God, that smile is just painful. Why can't he just tell her what's going on? Part of Garcia wants to push it, but another part of her is very scared of making things worse. So she says the only thing she's sure of at the moment.]

I love you, too. And... don't be too long, 'kay? I'm whipping up some veggie lasagna for dinner and it just won't taste the same without my sweetness there to eat it with.

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