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Obi-Wan Kenobi (master_kenobi) wrote in makebelievelog,
@ 2013-08-12 22:36:00

Entry tags:

anakin skywalker, obi-wan kenobi, siri tachi

The Case Of The Disappearing Jedi In The Land Of Attachments
Who: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Siri Tachi and Anakin Skywalker
What: Anakin has taught Siri to silence her presence in the Force. Unfortunately nobody has told Obi-Wan that this can be done.
When: Tuesday, August 13, approx 2am.
Where: Obi-Wan's room, Siri's room and all over the place.
Rating/Warnings: PG with Jedi angst and inappropriate attachments
Status: Closed; Incomplete

Obi-Wan woke suddenly, sitting bolt upright, Siri's name on his lips before he consciously realized what his deeper subconscious had felt in the Force. Siri was gone. He frowned, closing his eyes again to reach out, intentionally looking for her presence in the Force, but it wasn't there. He got out of bed. He didn't even bother pulling on a housecoat or boots over his pyjamas. He went out into the hall, to her room, and banged on the door. When no answer came, he used the Force to push it open, stepping inside with a franticness that was barely hidden under his mildly uneasy exterior. She wasn't there.

Feeling extremely agitated at that point, he hurried out of Siri's room and headed for Anakin's. He banged on the door without any regard for the hour. He'd probably wake Padme, it occurred to him after he'd done it, but it also occurred to him that she'd survive.

Anakin, he projected forcefully. Come out here.

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 09:24 am UTC (link)
	Oh. He frowned, but lowered his voice. "How did Siri know you could do it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darkforcerising 2013-08-14 09:38 am UTC (link)
	“When she spoke to me after learning about our future back home, I offered to do it if it would make her more comfortable while sharing the same residence with me.” (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 09:54 am UTC (link)
	But that didn't make sense! Siri was fond of Anakin; she'd always been fond of Anakin. There were times when Obi-Wan had been sure she and Anakin were closer than he and Anakin were. He brought a hand up to his mouth as he realized how the conversation must have gone if he had offered. If she had accepted. "Anakin..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darkforcerising 2013-08-14 10:14 am UTC (link)
	Anakin was suddenly confused, to him explaining the origin of Siri’s new training shouldn’t elicit that kind of sympathetic tone. Had he missed something? He was missing the conclusion Obi-Wan was making. “Master…? Well… she wanted to learn how to do it, so I agreed to teach her.” (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 10:19 am UTC (link)
	"She doesn't... Last week, you were thinking you weren't her favourite person. I told you that was nonsense. ...But it wasn't, was it? She's upset with you about the things Vader will do." Why hadn't he picked up on that? Too clouded by his own feelings. By his own attachments. "I told her not to take it out on you. You didn't do it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

darkforcerising
2013-08-14 11:04 am UTC (link)

They were, of course, now having two conversations, and Anakin was vaguely aware of that, because the responses he was getting didn’t quite match.

“I know I haven’t done them yet.” It seemed Obi-Wan was in need of some reassurances. Perhaps he was experiencing too many emotions at once? That, Anakin could understand.

Anakin reached a hand out to Obi-Wan’s arm. “And you have no need to worry, Master, she’s not taking anything out on me.”

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 11:11 am UTC (link)
	"Then why did she take up your offer?" Obi-Wan asked, not really aware of the hand on his arm except as a vague comfort. "You said you didn't think she was hiding from me, you don't think she's hiding from you. ...What is she hiding from?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

darkforcerising
2013-08-14 11:20 am UTC (link)

“She didn’t,” Anakin tipped his head so he was looking at Obi-Wan from the corner of his eye. “She didn’t want me to silence my presence in the Force for her, but she wanted to learn how to do it…”

He shrugged. “I don’t know what she’s hiding from, your guess is as good as mine- wait, not any guesses including you. I'm still sure she's not doing this to hide from you.”

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 12:07 pm UTC (link)
	"How do you know that?" Obi-Wan asked. "I don't have proper control of my emotions here; maybe my presence is noisy. Disturbing." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

darkforcerising
2013-08-14 12:37 pm UTC (link)

"No, it's not your presence or emotions that are disrupting, it's your reaction to them. Focus, Obi-Wan, we should be walking. Towards the lake."

Anakin turned before Obi-Wan could stall further, if the man had more protest he could lodge them on the way. And as they walked he realized he was gaining a new perspective - was this how trying he was to everyone around him?

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 01:50 pm UTC (link)
	Focus. Focus. He was usually the one saying that. And yes, Anakin. Yes it was. He started walking, thoughts swirling through his mind as he followed Anakin out of the castle. "What if she is... hurt? What sort of medical facilities do we have access to?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

darkforcerising
2013-08-14 09:10 pm UTC (link)

Anakin was grateful they’d finally made it out of the building and into the balmy, summer night.

“If she is, we will administer first aid,” he said matter of factly – this was basic training all initiates were taught for emergency situations. Focus, Obi-wan. “If she needs it, and is conscious enough, you’ll help her into a healing trance, and then we will get her to a hospital." he didn't mention that the medical technology of this world was not as advanced as they were used to, not need to worry Obi-Wan more.

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-14 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	"I'm asking about the hospital, Anakin," he replied testily. "I know my role." He glanced over, remarking dryly "It's that bad, is it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

darkforcerising
2013-08-14 11:15 pm UTC (link)

Anakin did not appreciate that tone, he was doing his best.

"They can handle a fair amount. Some infections. Blood loss if caught in time. Sutures. But they don't have Bacta. And it's no where near what we have at the Temple. At least it's better than field triage."

"Master, you are getting ahead of yourself," he called Obi-Wan back to the present. "Does Siri have a preferred spot out here?"

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master_kenobi
2013-08-15 09:21 am UTC (link)

And Obi-Wan didn't appreciate being treated like a Padawan on his first mission. How to field triage. Really, Anakin? He taught you that.

He glanced around and jogged down to the edge of the lake, but nobody was swimming. He turned and looked around, then remembered her mentioning a place she liked to sit. He looked up. He could just spot blonde hair in the moonlight at the top of the rock outcropping. He pointed and looked at Anakin.

"Up there."

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darkforcerising
2013-08-15 10:18 am UTC (link)

Anakin looked and was so relieved to see Siri sitting atop an out cropping of rocks. Just barely visible in the half moonlight, but the sight of her still a clear source of tension release. Not dead, just sitting out in the open, playing with the Force.

"Great," he couldn't hide the irritation from his voice - it was 2 am after all, and he'd just taken a moonlit stroll with a Jedi who seemed to have forgotten the meaning of 'emotional control'. "Well she's not dead. Do you want to get her attention?" And then maybe Anakin could return swiftly to bed.

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-15 10:52 am UTC (link)
	"Don't get irritable," Obi-Wan told him. "You taught her how to do it." He headed for the path up. "Let's go." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darkforcerising 2013-08-15 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	It didn't seem as if Anakin would be returning to sleep anytime soon after all. "You're right' I did teach her this," he said falling in step behind Obi-Wan. But what did he need to be here for? He suspected there was a lecture dipped in a scolding waiting at the top for him. And Siri, she was probably in for it, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

neverlosefocus
2013-08-15 11:05 pm UTC (link)

Siri’s eyes flew open, her gaze drawn in the direction of the two Jedi who were making their way up to where she sat. Their emotions were almost a beacon. Anakin was frustrated to a surprising degree for the time of night it was. And Obi-Wan... was both agitated and relieved. The intensity of both was almost breath-taking.

What could have possibly have happened to make him feel such things so very strongly?

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master_kenobi
2013-08-15 11:24 pm UTC (link)

It occurred to him on the way up, as her presence returned to the Force and quickly filled with curious concern, that maybe he should have been reassured she was okay and gone back to his room. But she was aware of their approach at that point and going back would only look strange.

More strange. Than two Jedi hiking up to an overlook in the middle of the night in their pyjamas.

"Siri," he said as they reached the top. He stopped a short distance from her awkwardly. "Here you are." He hesitated. "We were just... checking on you." The truth. She'd know if it wasn't anyway.

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	darkforcerising 2013-08-16 12:10 am UTC (link)
	Standing behind Obi-Wan, Anakin rolled his eyes. He wanted to go back to sleep, next to his wife, not stand around dealing with not saying what should be said. "You silenced yourself in the Force," he explained more clearly. "Master Obi-Wan was concerned that meant you'd returned home. We came out here to confirm you were still with us." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

neverlosefocus
2013-08-16 12:47 am UTC (link)

Her gaze lingered on Obi-Wan for a moment. He’d closed off the emotions he was feeling, but he was leaking them around the edges. The same agitation, the same intense relief... but there was hurt now, too, mingling with all the rest. She never liked it when she sensed that from him; made a part of her want to do something to fix it. Which was the wrong sort of response for a Jedi to have, but there was that part of her that had it anyway, deep enough down that she could keep it to herself. And she never acted on it. Which was the important thing.

Oh.

That explained the pyjamas and the bare feet. She looked between the two of them. “I wanted to put what Anakin has been teaching into practice.” And make use of her inability to sleep, but that didn’t need mentioning. “I didn’t think...” She frowned. Shouldn’t they have both been asleep? Would her silencing her presence in the Force been enough to wake both Anakin and Obi-Wan from sound sleep? And why hadn’t Anakin simply told Obi-Wan what she was doing instead of trekking all the way up there? The questions only led to more confusion. “I didn’t think it would wake anyone.”

He was concerned. Because he thought she’d been returned home. That was... that wasn’t a surprise. But it caught her by it none-the-less. Even though it shouldn’t. They were friends. They’d been friends a very long time. And he knew what she would be going back to. But his concern sent him out in his pyjamas in the middle of the night to find her. That was...

There was the quietest flutter of some nameless emotion in her chest, quickly kept silent in the Force.

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master_kenobi
2013-08-16 12:56 am UTC (link)

She didn't think it would wake anyone?

"Siri, you disappeared in the middle of the night. How was I supposed to know Anakin was teaching you some sort of... of dubious future technique? I've never heard of such a thing! You were just gone."

Oh, stars. He was getting agitated again. He took a breath, but Anakin was annoyed with him on one side and Siri was standing there on the other so obviously fine... He realized what an enormous fool he must look like.

He gave her a curt nod. "I'm glad you're well. Sorry to interrupt your meditations," he told her, his voice all studied calm swimming on top of the overwhelming emotions he barely kept pressed down inside. He turned. "Thank you for your help," he told Anakin as he moved to slip past him. "Sorry to wake you for nothing."

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darkforcerising
2013-08-16 01:26 am UTC (link)

Anakin wanted to refute that 'dubious' remark, but Obi-Wan's demeanor change stilled the fight in him.

He reached for Obi-Wan as the man moved past, his hand coming to rest on the man's shoulder. He wanted to say he understood - oh, did he understand how emotions could stir a person to action in ways that made one feel foolish later. That was a theme Anakin played all his life.

You had to confirm it, I would have done the same with Padme. He projected it, not wanting to expose Obi-Wan to more embarrassment in front of Siri.

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neverlosefocus
2013-08-16 02:44 am UTC (link)

I didn’t KNOW.

That he would sense the sudden removal of her presence in the Force. That it would worry him enough to come searching for her. He noticed the absence of her presence in the Force. Enough that it woke him.

Her mind raced, going through all the possibilities. But she was wrong. She had to be wrong. The conclusion she was coming to had to be wrong. It wasn’t possible that... She thought...

For a moment hope fluttered in her chest so hard it caught her off-guard. She should have put away her feelings for Obi-Wan long ago. But she’d failed. She’d refused to dwell on the memories that led to the decision they’d made so long ago, yes. She didn’t regret the decision that they’d made. But she hadn’t let go of her feelings the way that she should have. She’d buried them. Ignored them. Hidden them away so deep that no one else could possibly have sensed them. Played the part of someone who was obviously a better Jedi than she was.

But she wasn’t. And she hadn’t.

And now he was leaving, still leaking the same emotions as before. Siri was on her feet and closing the distance between almost before she’d consciously chosen to do so, her hand curling gently around his arm. She wanted him to stop, but she would not force him to stay. I’m sorry. Her projection was hasty, but she meant her apology with all her heart. He knew her, knew how much she hated saying those words. But she said them to him without effort, without conscious thought or hesitation. She hadn’t meant to worry him.