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Tweak says, "So you sacrifice everything?"

Obi-Wan Kenobi (master_kenobi) wrote in makebelievelog,
@ 2013-08-12 22:36:00

Entry tags:

anakin skywalker, obi-wan kenobi, siri tachi

The Case Of The Disappearing Jedi In The Land Of Attachments
Who: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Siri Tachi and Anakin Skywalker
What: Anakin has taught Siri to silence her presence in the Force. Unfortunately nobody has told Obi-Wan that this can be done.
When: Tuesday, August 13, approx 2am.
Where: Obi-Wan's room, Siri's room and all over the place.
Rating/Warnings: PG with Jedi angst and inappropriate attachments
Status: Closed; Incomplete

Obi-Wan woke suddenly, sitting bolt upright, Siri's name on his lips before he consciously realized what his deeper subconscious had felt in the Force. Siri was gone. He frowned, closing his eyes again to reach out, intentionally looking for her presence in the Force, but it wasn't there. He got out of bed. He didn't even bother pulling on a housecoat or boots over his pyjamas. He went out into the hall, to her room, and banged on the door. When no answer came, he used the Force to push it open, stepping inside with a franticness that was barely hidden under his mildly uneasy exterior. She wasn't there.

Feeling extremely agitated at that point, he hurried out of Siri's room and headed for Anakin's. He banged on the door without any regard for the hour. He'd probably wake Padme, it occurred to him after he'd done it, but it also occurred to him that she'd survive.

Anakin, he projected forcefully. Come out here.

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	neverlosefocus 2013-08-22 01:42 am UTC (link)
	So business-like. It was such a very Obi-Wan approach to things. And it made her smile, lighting up her face, her blue eyes sparkling in the moonlight. She nodded. “Agreed.” (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	master_kenobi 2013-08-22 08:54 am UTC (link)
	Why did she have to smile like that when he was trying to think? He nodded too, mostly because he was trying to reorder his words again. This time he did stand, offering her a hand up. "Then we'll reconvene... at some point that isn't the middle of the night. Once we've had a chance to consider the issue." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neverlosefocus 2013-08-23 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	She took his hand and rose to her feet. This was... not anything she could have expected when he’d first made his way up the outcropping with Anakin. There was a touch of playfulness to her smile, now. “Well, you know where to find me.” (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

master_kenobi
2013-08-23 08:40 pm UTC (link)

Which was extremely endearing on the one hand, but too difficult to process on the other. In the midst of his internal chaos, he managed a small smile and gestured for her to go first.

He'd almost added 'Unless you desappear for real', but stopped himself in time.

"We need to give this very serious thought, Siri. It's not something we can decide lightly. Once we choose a path, it will be very hard to turn back."

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neverlosefocus
2013-08-23 10:18 pm UTC (link)

She sighed, giving him a look that he’d seen often enough; a particular combination of exasperation and fondness underlying the general seriousness of her expression. “Do you think anything about this would be done lightly?”

Shaking her head slightly, she slid her hand free of his, and took a step back. “You should go ahead. I think I’m going to stay here. Go for a swim.”

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master_kenobi
2013-08-23 11:33 pm UTC (link)

He glanced at her and at the lake. It was 3am. She was going for a swim? But he wasn't dressed for swimming. This wasn't ideal. Obviously they were going their separate ways for the night, but he thought he had the whole walk back to get used to the idea.

And maybe for casual conversation to make what just happened seem less... daunting.

"Oh. Oh, I see." He hesitated, like he was going to take a step, but was rooted to the spot. "You're...going to swim just now? When are you going to get some sleep?"

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neverlosefocus
2013-08-24 12:37 am UTC (link)

She hesitated before answering his question. She wasn’t sure how he’d take the fact that she still wasn’t sleeping. And that she hadn’t woken him. On purpose, anyway. “There isn’t going to be much sleep for me tonight. That was part of the reason why I thought to put what Anakin has been teaching me into practice. Because it seemed like a good time to do it.”

Sighing and smiling fondly, Siri closed the gap between them, curling her hand around his and giving a gentle tug. “Come on, Obi-Wan. I’ll walk to the castle with you.” She would just... come back. Afterwards.

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-24 09:21 am UTC (link)
	He looked at her with open concern as he allowed her to tug him along. "Is this happening every night?" he asked. "Are you getting any sleep at all?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

neverlosefocus
2013-08-24 02:29 pm UTC (link)

She shook her head. “Not every night, no.” There was a pause before she amended that statement slightly. “Not always every night. It changes. I can go for weeks without a problem, where I sleep soundly. And then I can go days where I hardly sleep at all.”

It was getting better, though. But she suspected she was going to be sleepless for entirely different reasons, now.

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-24 05:34 pm UTC (link)
	"I'm sorry," Obi-Wan told her. "Is there anything I can do?" He hesitated. "You didn't call when you couldn't sleep." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

neverlosefocus
2013-08-24 06:55 pm UTC (link)

“Your presence is...” she trailed off for a moment, searching for words. “Enough.” After everything they’d spoken of, it was unnecessary for her to tell him that his presence was warm and familiar and... a little bit like home. It would only make things more complicated. “No, I...” She sighed. “Sometimes doing something is the only thing that will help; I didn’t think to wake you and see if you would like to accompany me to the lake. I’m sorry.”

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	master_kenobi 2013-08-24 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	"No, I... I didn't mean that you should be obliged to call me. I... I only wish I could do something that would be of some use." He looked at her. "I would if I could. I think you know that. Siri...are you certain that you don't want to talk to me about...what happened? I know you're reluctant, but if it would lighten your burden..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

neverlosefocus
2013-08-24 07:44 pm UTC (link)

"You are. Having you here..." She smiled. "As I told you, your presence is enough.

She looked up at him, blue eyes dark. “I can’t. There’s nothing I can do to stop you from living through... everything when you go back. But I can at least do this. Keep you from carrying the burden until you have no other choice to. You don’t need to know all the details,” or any details at all beyond the ones he already knew. “It’s bad enough...”

It was bad enough he would have to at all.

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master_kenobi
2013-08-24 08:01 pm UTC (link)

"Many unpleasant things are waiting for me there," he told her. "I appreciate the sentiment, though. I do. And if you change your mind... I would listen."

He looked up at the house as they approached.

"If the rules are different here..." He looked at her. "I'll have to think about what that means. But nothing feels the same. Except one thing." He glanced up again. "And maybe that means something too."

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	neverlosefocus 2013-08-24 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	“I know.” His words made her heart skip a beat. She pulled him to a stop, and maybe it was all that had been said, or maybe it was the lack of sleep, but she leaned forward and pressed her lips lightly to his cheek once more. “Take as long as you need.” She knew him; he would need time to consider (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	master_kenobi 2013-08-24 11:37 pm UTC (link)
	"Get some sleep," he told her as she pulled back. It made him a little dizzy when she did that, but he soldiered through. He pushed the door open, glancing back at her only one brief time before slipping through it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neverlosefocus 2013-08-30 02:53 am UTC (link)
	“I will,” she said with a smile. She waited until he stepped through and shut the door behind him before turning away and beginning the walk back to the lake. That he glanced back at all made her smile, and not for the first time she found herself glad that he was there with her. With them. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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