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Tweak says, "It's the night of the chicken!"

granт ward (comeuppance) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2017-04-11 10:05:00

Entry tags:

clint barton / hawkeye (616), gabriel gray / sylar, grant ward (616), grant ward (mcu), jessica drew / spider-woman, lance hunter, lucifer, phil coulson (616), phil coulson (mcu), will daniels

So I'm coming to terms with the fact that my mind was manipulated. And also with the fact that the situation was such that my friends would have expected betrayal over mind control. Perils of deep cover operations. But I can also acknowledge the manipulation doesn't excuse my actions. My loyalties were altered, but the choices I made in the service of those loyalties were mine. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm sorry for the shit I did, especially trying to murder powered heroes and actually murdering some of them. And for definitely killing your girlfriend, Phil. And for being a dick, well more of one than I usually am, here.

Except the part where I was a dick to other me. He can choke. Also I genuinely think his girlfriend is awful.

jess.

I know you have no reason to like me or help me. But you seem to have your shit together the most out of Phil's family. So...help? I think I've caught feelings.

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	Re: other me. comeuppance 2017-04-11 04:31 pm UTC (link)
	Oh my god. You're "not all men"-ing me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-11 04:38 pm UTC (link)
	I'm what? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

other me.

comeuppance
2017-04-11 04:42 pm UTC (link)

Not all men. All lives matter. That kind of thing.

Derailing the argument by pointing out it isn't universal. As if that's the point.

Maybe you don't do it all the time. But you do it often enough it's a problem. Focus on fixing your own shit instead of attacking other people.

You want to know why I don't think we would get along? Because I'm trying to make emotionally healthy choices and right now you aren't one. Because right now you'll feed into every unhealthy impulse in my brain and I don't need that.

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	other me. survives 2017-04-11 04:47 pm UTC (link)
	I think every impulse might be a bit of a stretch... but I get what you're saying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. comeuppance 2017-04-11 05:33 pm UTC (link)
	Good. Sometimes you need to distance yourself from people who would get in the way of your recovery. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-12 09:31 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Well. It's easier for some people than it is for others. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: other me. comeuppance 2017-04-12 04:29 pm UTC (link)
	And it's incredibly easy to not even try to improve your situation. But that doesn't make it the right choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-12 04:32 pm UTC (link)
	No. It doesn't. It tends to fuck you over pretty royally in the worst cases, just letting things be the way they've always been. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. comeuppance 2017-04-12 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe you should change things for yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-12 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	Never been really great about changing things in a positive way. Every step I've tried to take towards that ended up being the wrong one. I'm not sure I trust myself to make right decisions anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. comeuppance 2017-04-12 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	You can't hide behind that as an excuse to keep making shitty choices. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-12 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I haven't made any choices recently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. comeuppance 2017-04-12 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	So make choices now. Stop being passive about your life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	other me. survives 2017-04-13 08:04 am UTC (link)
	I'll probably make it worse if I do. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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