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Tweak says, "This isn't real, he isn't real"

xy_pnuuwhmfua (xy_pnuuwhmfua) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2017-02-21 00:37:00

Entry tags:

grog strongjaw, may parker / spider-woman (earth-982), percy de rolo, scanlan shorthalt, vax'ildan, vex'ahlia

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What the- Kaylie! FUCK. KAYLIE! [ a string of slightly unintelligible cursing ] This shit was supposed to stop happening.

[ a sudden and intense crash of thunder followed by the sound of doors falling off hinges ] Oh. SHIT. They were already unlocked. Well... That's one door solidly defeated, at least. [ slight humourless laugh, muttering ] God, inside jokes are a lot less fun without people around who appreciate them.

Kaylie? If you can hear me in whatever weird random room you're stuck in, the doors are unlocked! I repeated, the doors are unlocked, you do not have to attack them.

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xy_pnuuwhmfua
2017-02-22 05:15 am UTC (link)

Oh, yes, and who decided it would be absolutely hilarious to mess with my dead body so that I would wake up incapacitated and confused? I may have woken up in worst positions at the brothels, but-- That's not the point. The POINT is that that just screams caring compassionate friend right there.

Look. I'm a fucking idiot. I'm a useless fucking idiot. I know that. Okay? I'm a hopeless excuse for a father. Don't you think I know that already? Why the hell do you think I--

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pepperbox
2017-02-22 05:28 am UTC (link)

I did. Because I was drunk and exhausted and coming off a resurrection of my own and I make shit choices on the best of days. And you died and I didn't know any other way to deal with it. Because it seemed like a fucking fitting tribute. Something you would enjoy. Because that's what we do. We come up with the horrible ideas and say the fucked up things nobody else will. Because you're the only one who comes close to understanding that part of me.

And it's not like you haven't done just as shit things. You fucked with my memory as a joke, knowing it wouldn't just mess with me but Vex too.

No. You don't get to hide behind that. You left us. You decided to do that. And you know what, fine. But don't pretend you left us for our own good. Because you know us. And you knew what that would do to us. Vex and Vax have already been abandoned by one father. Grog offered his fucking vestige to get you back and you spit in his face. Keyleth only sees family as something that leaves now. You broke Pike's heart. And I will fucking fight you before I let you act like you did it to help us. You did it because you were scared. Well newsflash, we're all scared. We're terrified.

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xy_pnuuwhmfua
2017-02-22 05:36 am UTC (link)

[ extended silence before Scanlan responses with a sputtering of words ] You? Again? I- When did it... Was it- Of course it was after me. That's the only way I wouldn't have... I- Fucking shit.

I tried to fix it! It was only after I realized I couldn't do that that I- I had to do something. I fucked up. I know I- But I-

I can't protect any of you anymore! I'm too small and I'm too weak and I'm not fast enough. And when I tried, I just fail, and I have to watch you die again and again when I can't...

You are all better off without me.

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	voice response. pepperbox 2017-02-22 05:40 am UTC (link)
	I stabbed a Feebleminded dragon and it became fixated. I don't give a shit. Fuck you. We don't need you to protect us. It's not your job to single-handedly keep us alive. We're a fucking family and you just- Fucking fight me, Shorthalt! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice response. xy_pnuuwhmfua 2017-02-22 05:45 am UTC (link)
	It is my fucking job, Percival Frederickstein Von Dickhead. It's always been my job. You can't be serious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice response. pepperbox 2017-02-22 05:49 am UTC (link)
	No. It isn't. We all keep each other alive. It isn't just you. But in that case, good job leaving us without you. We're worse off for it. I'm absolutely serious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice response. xy_pnuuwhmfua 2017-02-22 05:53 am UTC (link)
	I'd have to figure out how to leave this room without searing pain radiating through my entire body. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice response. huntersmark 2017-02-22 12:01 pm UTC (link)
	Would you two cut it out? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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pepperbox
2017-02-22 01:46 pm UTC (link)

Apologies, Vex'ahlia.

vex'ahlia.

I am just so angry with him.

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huntersmark
2017-02-22 10:40 pm UTC (link)

It's all right.

percy

I know. So am I. Arguing is only going to lead to something far worse.

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	voice response - perc'ahlia. pepperbox 2017-02-22 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not going to argue with him. I'm going to punch him in the face. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)