I did. Because I was drunk and exhausted and coming off a resurrection of my own and I make shit choices on the best of days. And you died and I didn't know any other way to deal with it. Because it seemed like a fucking fitting tribute. Something you would enjoy. Because that's what we do. We come up with the horrible ideas and say the fucked up things nobody else will. Because you're the only one who comes close to understanding that part of me.
And it's not like you haven't done just as shit things. You fucked with my memory as a joke, knowing it wouldn't just mess with me but Vex too.
No. You don't get to hide behind that. You left us. You decided to do that. And you know what, fine. But don't pretend you left us for our own good. Because you know us. And you knew what that would do to us. Vex and Vax have already been abandoned by one father. Grog offered his fucking vestige to get you back and you spit in his face. Keyleth only sees family as something that leaves now. You broke Pike's heart. And I will fucking fight you before I let you act like you did it to help us. You did it because you were scared. Well newsflash, we're all scared. We're terrified.