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Tweak says, "Squirrel!"

xy_pnuuwhmfua (xy_pnuuwhmfua) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2017-02-21 00:37:00

Entry tags:

grog strongjaw, may parker / spider-woman (earth-982), percy de rolo, scanlan shorthalt, vax'ildan, vex'ahlia

voice post.
What the- Kaylie! FUCK. KAYLIE! [ a string of slightly unintelligible cursing ] This shit was supposed to stop happening.

[ a sudden and intense crash of thunder followed by the sound of doors falling off hinges ] Oh. SHIT. They were already unlocked. Well... That's one door solidly defeated, at least. [ slight humourless laugh, muttering ] God, inside jokes are a lot less fun without people around who appreciate them.

Kaylie? If you can hear me in whatever weird random room you're stuck in, the doors are unlocked! I repeated, the doors are unlocked, you do not have to attack them.

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	percy \| scanlan. xy_pnuuwhmfua 2017-02-23 08:02 am UTC (link)
	I really wasn't. I don't have it in me to be more. Too many reasons. Things that I've been... thinking about for months. And I don't hate you. I was... angry. I was angry and I was tired, and I was maybe a little too harsh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

percy | scanlan.

pepperbox
2017-02-23 08:17 am UTC (link)

Yes, you fucking do.

You weren't though. Not with me. With Vex, yes. She deserved better than that. But you were right about me. I'm selfish. I'm self-centered. I constantly do things that hurt you all. I never think. I just do these things. I dragged you all into a fight that could have killed you, and it wasn't your responsibility to fix my messes. Not with the Briarwoods and not with Ripley. I stabbed Raishan in the fucking council room because I have no ability to keep myself in check. I fucking killed Vex and Grog. And it will keep happening because I can't fucking stay dead like I should. And I'm just going to keep hurting people. And I know I'm the reason you left. You said so. But the others don't deserve that.

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percy | scanlan.

xy_pnuuwhmfua
2017-02-23 08:31 am UTC (link)

[ sharp, intense yelp of pain ] Nope. Nope, still can't leave the room.

I was. I was trying to hurt all of you. When I said all of that, it was... bitterness and exhaustion and frustration that none of you had seemed to notice that I was struggling as much as I was.

And that's why I left. I've been having a really hard time of it lately, Percy. For awhile, really. And there was a time I could do something to make it less difficult, easier to get through, but with the Conclave dead, I couldn't just... throw myself into something else and expect to come out the other side mentally intact.

I've still got Pike's nightgown. It needs a good wash.

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