Hannah Banana (barelybreathe) wrote in journalwands, @ 2020-03-26 13:03:00 |
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I don't think I've ever felt more embarrassed than I do today. I owe so many people an apology right now. I don't know what got into me, other than the alcohol. I had a bad night and I am having an even worse day as I attempt to navigate through all of the mess that I not only placed myself in but also the people who care about me.
I'm absolutely mortified and I don't have the words to even begin to describe how I'm feeling about all of this right now but I have to go to work for my shift.
I heard about how big of a mess I was last night, and I know how big of a mess I am today in the aftermath of it but I can't really afford to miss work right now, especially since Megan is currently moving out of the flat to live with Zach and Ernie and it's just going to be me. I feel like it's always just me. I ruin everything. My own closest mates don't even want to be around me anymore.
I really just want to crawl into a hole right now and remain there.
[Justin]
I don't have words. You came over and took care of me last night without hesitation when the rest of our mates wouldn't. You mean the absolute world to me and I can't thank you enough. You're always there for me regardless of what I'm doing or dealing with. I love you and I owe you big time. I'm sorry that I'm not a good company today and I've been a sobbing, blubbering basketcase. I just feel like everything is falling apart right now.
[Morag]
Thank you for coming over and keeping me company. I wish I had been better company.
[Seamus]
I am so extremely sorry. I don't even know what to say to you right now because I feel so awful and ashamed of my behavior. I think we really need to talk though, but I would rather it be in person. Could you find the time to swing by the Leaky at some point during my shift?
[Ernie]
I'm sorry. I've gone and made things even weirder between us. I wish I knew how to be a better best mate to you. I'm not even sure if we're still best mates anymore given everything though. I just keep screwing up and dragging you along for the ride and I wish I could take it back. I wish I could take everything back.
[Megan]
I'm sorry that I drove you away. I love you and always will, you know that right? I'm sorry I took the news of your moving out so horribly. It's just that... it's always us and I feel like I have driven you away, just like I have driven Ernie away. You all moved in together just to get away from me and the trouble that I cause, and I don't know. It's just hard to think that I've done that to the people I care about most to the point where they don't even want to deal with me anymore.