banana
I think that's the problem though, that I'm considered a part of your family. It's obvious regardless of what state I am in that I don't want to be like a family member to you and want more than that. I think I've always wanted more from you than that. I see how happy Zach and Megan are and that was supposed to be us but I ruined that too.
I'm meeting up with Seamus tonight. I'm going to tell him that whatever is going on between us, I can't do it. It's not working. I can't stop thinking about you, even when I'm with him. I can't do that to him, it's not right.
And I know that you obviously don't share the feelings that I do for you. Regardless of how much I try to hide them, deny them or straight out ignore them. But I can't string him along hoping that I'll somehow just stop feeling this way.