Audrey Jensen (fknaudrey) wrote in incompletedata, @ 2017-10-24 07:06:00 |
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Entry tags: | marvel: mcu: bruce banner, marvel: mcu: darcy lewis, once upon a time: regina mills, riverdale: betty cooper, riverdale: jughead jones, scream: audrey jensen, supernatural: sam winchester |
[Creeps & Honorary Creeps* - Jughead Jones, Betty Cooper, Darcy Lewis, Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, Regina Mills, Bruce Banner (MCU), Gwenpool]
It's fucking stupid and I know it's stupid, but I'm beginning to think my brain is just conditioned to expect something bad to happen, especially this time of the year. Hypervigilance, some therapist or another called it. But it's more than that. You all know the major beats of what happened, the synopsis, there's no reason to rehash it, but the part I tend to leave out it that the original murders that sparked the whole shitshow happened on Halloween. And so, because vengeful psychos love anniversaries, the grand finale of our spectacular sequence of tragedies did too.
Funny enough, obsessed fans love anniversaries too. I know, big shocker. But two years in a row was enough to put an indelible stain on the entire week.
The calendar says it's been a year since the last one, but in my head, it's only been three months. That time fuck really doesn't help. I lost three-quarters of a year. Nine months I should have spent helping my dad with his sermons, going to movies with Emma, looking up old stories with Noah and Stavo for the next comic, shopping with Brooke, trying to decide between Columbia and Tisch and packing to leave for college. Gone.
It's another year of my life ripped away from me by fucking psychos and here were are again. Halloween. Bad things come in threes. Third time's a charm. Three crows a summons. Whatever.
I'm not saying I need you guys to keep an eye on me because I'm going to snap or go somewhere dark. I'm saying that I've been through enough of this shit to know that I can't always bottle everything up. As much as I would rather. My family isn't here, but you guys have become pretty fucking close in the short time we've all known each other so if you could maybe just be around a bit here and there this next week, that'd be cool.