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Finally heard back about a job. I'll be working a little out of the way book store, Crescent Books. The gentleman who owns it seems very nice and I imagine we'll get on all right. So that's at least one obstacle out of the way. I start next week.

I went shopping with Cas. Bought some more clothes for every day stuff and a couple of outfits for this weekend. One of them is ... well, indecent, really, but I thought I looked good in it. It doesn't matter, not really. We'll go, we'll have a couple of drinks, we'll dance. I'm not planning on any ... well, dating type activities. I just don't have it in me yet to court or be courted. Not by a stranger, anyway.

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Which brings me to my dream. I'm not completely sure what sparked it, but it was ... nice. Impossible, but nice. I knew it was going to be difficult, living with him. I just didn't expect the feelings to come back like this. I'd hoped they wouldn't come back at all. I will inevitably make some sort of off remark and make things horrifically awkward between us because he'll guess that I'm not being completely silly when ... if I were to say things like ...

Well, it doesn't matter. He's a grown man, and my friend. I'm sure he'll let me down gently if I do something foolish.

I just hope I don't make any inappropriate noises when I dream about him. Or call out his name. That would be embarrassing. To be all aroused and flushed and him rushing in to see if I was having a nightmare or something.
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