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Tweak says, "Put it on me."

Brynhild Ingouf (brynhild_ingouf) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2020-05-29 15:24:00

Entry tags:

!open, brynhild, dan foster, edward kenway, jacob frye, johnn redel, kelan, miguel o'hara, thor, zatanna

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I have an odd request: Many humans offered their blood to me last time and the response brought me to tears. Are there any nonhumans that would offer the same?

Here is why I ask: A friend brought up the idea that I do not have to outlive everyone, that my 'immortality' could go away, for the lack of better words. Another seems to think this may end my life, but brought up a loop hole when I told him of the way I know of to remove my vampirism, to stave off of human blood. And I hope my self-loathing will be enough to open a door close to the time before I killed my Master so that I might do it again.

The reason I need to feed, and can't just go without blood all together, is I will lose selfcontrol. I will be come a ravenous beast, and that is not something I ever want to be, let alone on a floating island.

For those of you that are finding out about my vampirism this way, I am sorry. I did intend to be more delicate with it but opportunity did not present itself.

I am tired of being repulsive. I'm tired of outliving everyone I love, but I am not ready for an unnatural death.

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	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 04:39 am UTC (link)
	I'm still a bit human but my blood might work. Kelan might still be a better choice though. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 05:12 am UTC (link)
	He's been through a lot though, so I don't know if I want to put that sort of strain on his system. Thank you for the offer, I may take you up on it. Is he mad? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 05:20 am UTC (link)
	He has. If you are worried about my human half, it is not that strong. Fenrir? Yeah... I have not given him his treat yet. But you probably don't mean Fenrir. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 05:35 am UTC (link)
	Would you be offended if I put you on the maybe list? But he is a good boy! You should give him treats always... But no I was not talking about Fenrir. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 05:48 am UTC (link)
	No, of course not. Not giving blood is not going to break my heart. Oh god, no. He'll grow fat real quick. But you need to help me along here because I'm not quite sure who you mean and I'd rather not go over every member of my family. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 06:10 am UTC (link)
	Okay I will let you know one way or another. Your father, it was his idea. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 06:20 am UTC (link)
	Thanks. Oh. ~~I didn't~~ Why would he be mad that you are taking him up on his idea? If he offered to help you defeat your Master, why do you think he would suddenly change his mind? Did he offer you his blood and you did not take it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 06:28 am UTC (link)
	He did not offer to help me defeat my Master. He offered to remove my immortality. Someone else thought of my Master. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 06:34 am UTC (link)
	And I am guessing this was your way of telling him that you don't like his plan? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 06:37 am UTC (link)
	I don't dislike his plan. It is his plan that has put this bug in my ear. But I didn't think about whether I would survive the removal of my immortality. I would like to try something else first, it is a long shot, because I've been feeding on humans or human kind for a very long time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 06:47 am UTC (link)
	Did you tell him that? If my guess about what it entails for him is correct, then it's a big offer. Before he'd do that, he would make sure it works and he can make sure it works. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 08:01 am UTC (link)
	No, it's only a newly thought up plan, I have to get the human blood out of my system, so I thought I'd ask about that first. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 08:09 am UTC (link)
	Knowing Dad, I don't think that comes across to him. Dad's brain likely went: "she does not even care to ask me about her concerns. Clearly, my offer is worth nothing to her and she has no faith in my abilities." He's quite agitated right now and even the possibility of having to talk to his father again brings out feeling unworthy and out of place in him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 09:21 am UTC (link)
	I'll have a talk with him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 11:30 am UTC (link)
	Okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-30 11:53 am UTC (link)
	The plus side, I have talked to Thor this time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-30 12:17 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you have. Zu will be very relieved. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 03:29 am UTC (link)
	I know she will be. So there will be no more avoiding Little Agard. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine daddyissues_ 2020-05-31 03:54 am UTC (link)
	It will be nice to see you around the house again. I've missed you. It's sad that you are not my aunt anymore. You were a good aunt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bryn/Katherine brynhild_ingouf 2020-05-31 04:36 am UTC (link)
	I've missed you too. And you are never not my favorite niece. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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