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Lila Barton ([info]aimattheheart) wrote in [info]chances_net,
@ 2025-05-25 22:54:00

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Entry tags:marvel: lila barton (mcu), marvel: molly hayes (comics), marvel: pepper potts-stark (mcu), umbrella academy: ben hargreeves

Filtered to Friends and Family Who Aren't Clint or Klaus
It isn't that I'm not grateful for how much Clint cares and all, and I do love him a lot. And Klaus, too, he's been a really great step-dad type.

But I really, really hate how many major moments my actual Dad and Mom are missing out on. And like...it's been years now. I have to face up to the fact that they're just not coming. Or Cooper or Nate, for that matter. They missed prom, they're missing graduation, they won't see me open a business or go to college, they haven't gotten to meet Ben and Molly and America and Kamala and all of you and it just kind of sucks if I think about it for too long.

I'll probably regret writing all of this out in approximately ten minutes but I just keep thinking it and, well, yeah.


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[info]quiethorror
2025-05-26 03:18 am UTC (link)
You don't need validation from anyone, but it's totally okay to miss them.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-26 03:27 am UTC (link)
I know. I do. And it isn't as bad as it was when I got here. And you know I love you, and I love my little family here. It'd just be nice to have more of my family is all.

I guess I just don't want Clint thinking he isn't enough, you know? He's busted his butt taking care of a kid he definitely never asked for.

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[info]quiethorror
2025-05-26 03:38 am UTC (link)
I love you, too, and I know you do, and I know it's not the same, but I kind of get where you're coming from in as much as I can. It's probably the height of stupidity to say, but the sentiment is genuine: it's not fair. For a lot of reasons, most of which you already laid out right up there. You have no idea how much I wish your Mom and Dad would show up, but it's not even an eighth as much as you want them here.

I'm not at all and never really want to be a mind reader, but I'm sure he knows what he is to you and you are to him. And I know he loves you because you're family.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-26 01:59 pm UTC (link)
No, I know you do. Most of us probably do. For you it may not be your dad but it'd probably be nice to have Viktor and Luther and Diego and Five all back. And I am happy here, I honestly am. But I'd love them to get to see how happy I am and why. I'd really really love for them to get to meet you.

What?? That's not one of your powers?!? I am shocked. Baffled, even.

I hope so, though.

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[info]quiethorror
2025-05-26 06:50 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, I'd really love to meet them, too. It's nice when this place gives us our wishes, but there are so many more it misses.

I know, I disappoint myself daily. 😂

I think any single hug you give him means he knows.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-27 02:20 am UTC (link)
So what you're saying is, randomly go tackle him with huge?

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[info]quiethorror
2025-05-27 11:51 pm UTC (link)
🎯🎯🎯🎯🎯

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[info]gotyoukid
2025-05-26 04:29 pm UTC (link)
Oh, honey, it is normal to miss your family. I wish there was a way to bring them here for you.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-27 02:21 am UTC (link)
I know. I do. I just don't ever want Clint thinking I'm not grateful or that I don't love him for him, you know? I just think it'd be really cool to have both sets of parents is all.

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[info]gotyoukid
2025-05-27 06:52 pm UTC (link)
He wouldn't think that, sweetheart.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-06-01 03:01 am UTC (link)
The logical part of me knows that.

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[info]princesspowrful
2025-05-26 05:11 pm UTC (link)
It's OK to miss them. i miss mine all the time. like the... before versions. but i dont think that ever goes away?

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-27 02:22 am UTC (link)
Probably not. It's easier sometimes, but when big, awesome, milestone stuff happens, it's a lot worse. Or really bad stuff, but i kinda think I'm glad my mom isn't around to see when I get involved with the bad things 😬

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[info]notright
2025-05-26 09:52 pm UTC (link)
I understand. I miss Simon the same way. I want to tell him about having friends, and teaching dance, but I can't even write him a letter about it. And it makes my stomach feel a little sick. Like that?

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-05-27 02:23 am UTC (link)
Very much like that.

Know what I've started to do? I write the letters anyway. I used to do it sometimes when I was little and my dad was fighting traveling, before I got my own phone. Then he could read them when I finally did see him again. Maybe you could write to your brother, even if it might be a long time before he gets here.

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[info]notright
2025-05-27 09:29 pm UTC (link)
I don't think Simon will ever get here. I can't see him. But maybe it's just... too far out? I think he'd like it here. He could be a doctor again. A real one, in a hospital.

What do you want to tell your family about your life here the most?

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-06-01 03:03 am UTC (link)
Did you see it when Inara or Wash was coming? It would be good for him to be able to work properly. Like he wanted to. But I still don't think he regrets saving you one bit.

I just want them to meet everyone. Mostly Ben and Molly and you and the others who aren't in our world. And I wish my dad could have this extra time with my aunt. He deserves it.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-05-27 10:09 pm UTC (link)
I feel the same way.

Not that May and Bruce aren't amazing. Just miss my family, you know?

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-06-01 03:01 am UTC (link)
Yeah, exactly. I love the little family we have here but that doesn't mean it couldn't stand to be bigger.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:03 am UTC (link)
Yeah.

But maybe yours will show up? At least your dad. Place seems to like superheros over regular people.

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[info]aimattheheart
2025-06-01 03:04 am UTC (link)
My mom was a hero, too, in her own right. Before she retired to have us. She tries to hide that but we know better. At least Coop and me. Nate is still a bit too little.

But also it's been years and he hasn't even shown up once when we've had some people come through lots of times.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:11 am UTC (link)
Yeah, but strange things happen all the time.

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[info]ahugedork
2025-06-01 03:05 am UTC (link)
Hey, you are absolutely still allowed to miss your actual family. It doesn't ever make you less family to us and you'll always have a place with us even if they were to come.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:10 am UTC (link)
I know. I would never want to seem ungrateful though.

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[info]ahugedork
2025-06-01 03:14 am UTC (link)
Ned, you couldn't seem ungrateful if you tried.

You're Peter's family and that makes you our family. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't get to have everyone else you love, too. I, for one, would love to meet them.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:18 am UTC (link)
They would like you a lot, Dr. B.

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[info]ahugedork
2025-06-01 03:23 am UTC (link)
I'm pretty sure I'd like them, too.

Even if your Lola would be ashamed of my tagalog.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:25 am UTC (link)
I think she would just be impressed that you try, honestly

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[info]ahugedork
2025-06-01 03:29 am UTC (link)
It was never my strongest language and I wasn't there long enough to pick up much. But I can say please and thank you and tell her "the meal is wonderful" so I feel like it's a start.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:30 am UTC (link)
As long as you helped set the table or clean up afterwards she would have been thrilled.

She made one of the Peters use his powers to get a spiderweb down off her wall.

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[info]thespiderchild
2025-06-01 03:44 am UTC (link)
It never gets less weird when you say that, dude.

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[info]alwaysthedecoy
2025-06-01 03:50 am UTC (link)
It's a funny story though.

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[info]thespiderchild
2025-06-01 03:54 am UTC (link)
You can say that when there's not two more of you running around!

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