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Jo Harvelle ([info]i_shoot) wrote in [info]we_coexist,
@ 2008-04-06 11:13:00

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Entry tags:hannibal lecter, joanna harvelle, zz:status complete

Southern Miss Nobody [OPEN]
Jo had no idea who she was or where she was, that somehow, that seemed ok. She wasn't sure how, or why, but it just seemed right not to know. The people at the Hospital had called her Jane Doe. She honestly liked the last name, although she had an icky feeling about the Jane part. They had showed her the stuff that had been in the car they had found her is, cracked glass at all. The truck hadn't done much to jumpstart Jo's memory, except for the feeling that she had been going somewhere important. The heavy feeling of something she needed to remember had been there, and then it had gone. Oh well.

So they had given back most of her stuff. Amidst all the IDs, fake and otherwise, they had found some kind of permit that allowed for her to have a gun, but they hadn't given that back yet. At least, not until Jo had taken it back personally. Most of her weaponry, including a knife had been buried in a place that she would struggle to remember until the day she got her memory back. If she indeed ever got it back. Part of her knew that part. The feelings that she got wouldn't go away though, such as how this place seemed familiar, or even some of the people. Of course, she could never work up the courage to go after those thoughts. She simply thought she wasn't ready yet.

So out on the streets of the City, Jo just stood there on a street corner, staring up at the sky and wondering if something had put her here completely by accident. Her hands fingered the worn jeans that had been found among a bag of clothing. That she had taken gratefully, because the plastic hospital clothes really hadn't been all the comfortable, even if they had the word 'cotton' or something in their label. Jo had just been grateful to get out of there. She had another strange feeling that she didn't like Hospitals too much.

"Don' suppose they got a map of a place like this," she said, Southern accent still the same. At least that was one clue to her identity.



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[info]i_consume
2008-04-07 04:15 am UTC (link)
"No." Hannibal said, as he passed by the girl. He was on his way back to the hospital, thoughts of Captain Jack Sparrow and his lovely ship on his mind. Thinking about the things that the pirate had said. What he was going to do with the monkey as soon as he got into the lab. "There are no maps of this place. Not anything that would help you in any case."

He stopped and lifted a brow at her, inviting her to go ahead and ask any other questions she might have. He was feeling rather generous. Perhaps it was the rum he'd had. Perhaps it was knowing that there was nothing in this world that he wanted that he couldn't find.

Whatever it was, Hannibal was quite at ease.

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-07 09:22 pm UTC (link)
Well. That certainly would be something Jo would have to think about. If she didn't even know her own name, would she be able to find her way around a place like this? She guessed that no one really had time to sit down and draw a map of this place. Maybe some things shouldn't have been mapped. Jo couldn't say she knew. She hummed out her response, not really sure what to say.

"Well, there's another mystery I may end up solvin', besides mine own story," she said with a sigh, clasping her hands in her lap. "Judgin' by the looks people givin' me, at least. Feels like I should be doin' something. Just not sure what. Wish I had a place to start." It was all a bit frustrating, although something told Jo that it was possibly good to take time and think about it. She wasn't sure what that was either. She still didn't know what she was doing. Was sitting around supposed to do something productive?

"Do people end up wanderin' 'round aimlessly then?" she asked him in reply. "Or rather, do they just walk 'round until they get where they need to go?" Her brown eyes were wide an inquisitive, open to almost anything. What choice did she have anyways, having no recollection of who she was or where she had come from?

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-07 09:59 pm UTC (link)
Curious.

Of all the sorts he'd met in The City so far, he'd not yet had a chance to meet an amnesiac. It was bound to happen, though. At some point, and this was that point.

"Aimlessly? Probably. But I'll give you a hint. If you think about where you're going, or think about whatever it is that you want most, the City will take you to where you need to go. It changes and it shifts, but it can be quite helpful at times. There are times, of course, when it seems like it would much rather make your journey harder."

Hannibal's doctor side had a desire to know how much it was that this girl remembered about herself and her time here. But it was likely that she'd already encountered a doctor, if not a full hospital staff, and wouldn't enjoy being prodded at even more.

"There are a few structures that never move, but they were few and far between. I can't really give you any other advice than to keep in mind the place you're seeking."

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-07 10:30 pm UTC (link)
Jo's face cleared up, becoming a blank slate of sorts. She considered what he had said, this stranger. The trouble was, Jo had absolutely no idea where to start. Was home an option? She wasn't even sure where home was at this point. She didn't know anyone else, so their place wasn't an option either. A place to get a new identity, or to find your old one? That might have been the greatest thing ever to grace the planet, that was for sure.

"Guess I wish I knew where exactly I wanted to go," she confessed with a shrug. "I suspect it'll come to me, one day if I ever remember. They really aren' that good at tellin' you anythin', those people back at that Hospital. Gave me a name and all, but I don' think it's mine. Doesn' sound right at all." She frowned. "Don' even know my real name, come to think of it. Suppose it'll all come back to me, if it ever does." The void in Jo's head was becoming really hard to fill. What was real for her? What wasn't? Some things made sense, others didn't.

"So where's a fella like you goin' then?" Jo asked. "Maybe if you gimme an example of what I should be lookin' for, maybe I can find somewhere too."

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-08 07:45 am UTC (link)
"Hm. Interesting." Hannibal looked her over. "I'm personally headed back in the direction you just came from. The hospital. I'm going to go ahead and presume that you have no desire at all to return there. I do have to inform you that I think that I can help you."

A broken mind. The perfect opportunity to practice.

"I think that through hypnosis, and maybe not even quite that extreme to be truthful, we could discover who it is you are, and what you should be looking for. I'll just put that out as an offer, no pressure. But if finding out who you are is something you feel you need to do, it could be quite easy."

Hannibal looked over her shoulder at the direction he'd been heading. "We don't even have to go to the hospital to do it. Unless that would make you more comfortable."

If he could break Aeon Flux, perhaps he could put this girl back to rights. Hannibal paused. Then broke into a bit of an abashed smile.

"I have to apologize. I didn't offer my name. Hannibal." A little bow of the head was given to her instead of the offer of a handshake.

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-08 03:54 pm UTC (link)
Jo looked perplexed. Could he help her? He certainly didn't look as out of it as the others had, and he did look sort of concerned. Jo wasn't too sure what to think at the moment, beyond what she had to lose. She doubted that the worst case scenario she had was that she would have to start over. All over, as in beyond childbirth, possibly. That thought was slightly disturbing. Blinking, she tried to focus on what had been told. He could help? Well, why not? He didn't look like a murderer........

"I don' know," she said hesitantly. "Someone, and I don' know quite who, said that once you open a door, you can' exactly close it that easy. Or somethin' like that. I can' remember. Which is why I wanna know too. I still don' know, but I figure, if anythin' else, I can try to forget again." She shrugged. "Why not?"

Jo shook her head. Something about her didn't like hospitals. People tended to ask too many questions, and Jo didn't like that at all. She didn't like questions unless they were important. Super important. And half the time they weren't.

"Nice to meet ya," she said politely. "The name they gave me back there was Jane. Jane Doe. I don' like it too much, but until I find mine, I guess it's okay." She scrunched up her face a bit before she relaxed and shrugged again. "Apparently I got a lot of names, judging by all the things they found when they found me."

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-09 12:34 am UTC (link)
"Jane Doe." Hannibal smirked. "Is the name that they give all unknown females. It's not your name. I doubt it actually belongs to anybody in reality. It's generic, and not fitting to anybody, certainly not somebody such as yourself who has so much potential to be anything."

He shook his head. It was a name for a corpse, in his opinion, and that was all. This girl was far from a corpse. She was just a little bit lost and broken.

"I have a few places that we can go. You may choose the place you are most comfortable with. I have a flat that belonged to a friend of mine, the hotel that I reside in, or the office of the psychologist that I have interned with. The prior two will be more private, if that's what you're looking for, the latter would be more professional, but I can't promise that he wouldn't have his own patients wandering in and out."

The most important factor was comfort. They would get nowhere if she wasn't comfortable.

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-09 01:43 am UTC (link)
"Guess they don' have any really good names left, huh?" she asked him after a thought. "I'll admit, it beats callin' 'em numbers. Or it. But still." She shrugged, not wanting to bother with the whole debate of 'what's a better name to call an unknown female'. "Had to belong to somebody. Kinda random if it ain', but who am I to say? I barely know mine."

She frowned. "Potential? Sometimes it sure doesn' feel that way." She was a bit hesitant about that part. "Kinda drags up that feelin' inside, which is sayin' yes or no at the same time. My head, if I ever get it back, must be some mixed up place or somethin'. Makes ya wonder what exactly goes on in there on a regular basis when I'm not blankin' out on everythin'."

She didn't like the idea of other people there. It just bothered her for some reason, and it bothered her enough to make her shift in her seat, glancing down at the wooden bench. "I'd much rather not go to the last one, thanks," she told him hesitantly. "Migh' be more professional, but it just don' sit well with me. Can' explain that one either." She shrugged.

"I guess I'm really not that picky. Never been to either place. 'Sides, didn' you say you had somewhere to be? Wouldn' want you to miss whatever it is you migh' be missin'."

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-10 05:46 am UTC (link)
"It's not a big thing." Hannibal assured her. "I was just returning to the hospital to tinker a bit in the lab. It can and will wait until I've managed to help you."

Hannibal extended his hand out to his side, in the direction of the flat. He decided there was no need to traumatize the poor girl even more than she already might be by showing her a place that existed in only black and white.

The walk to the flat was quicker than normal. Perhaps because he was so intent on getting this Jane Doe there and helping her recover herself. Perhaps because the City wanted the same thing. It wasn't really for Hannibal to question. He'd just be thankful and wonder later.

Inside the flat, everything was Japanese and French decor. And spotless, despite the fact that Hannibal hadn't been in here since... well, probably Aeon Flux. It pleased him to know that dust wasn't gathering in the corners during the times he couldn't bring himself to enter.

"Please sit." He directed the girl to the lush couch, moving to the kitchen to get them both glasses of water. When he returned, he sat on a nearby chair.

"I want to try this without any hypnosis first. And if it doesn't work, then we'll move along to that. If it still doesn't work, there are ways with certain chemicals that have been used successfully, but that will be our very very last option. I would much rather you remember things on your own, it's easier on your brain and your emotional aspects. It's easier to accept that they're your own memories as well, if there isn't any outside interference."

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-13 09:20 pm UTC (link)
"Well, I guess if it's okay......." She didn't need to finish that sentence. She didn't feel the need to, and she had no idea what she would have said if she had finished it at all.

She followed his hand with her eyes, and getting up off her bench, followed him. She had no idea where they were going, trusting Hannibal to help her along. She liked him for some reason, not really poking her with strange questions and objects to try and get her to remember. Or a truck that looked like it had been totaled and then brought in for scrap metal. That poked the edge of her mind though, and she made a note to try and remember why that was so important.

Entering the flat, Jo was a bit in awe. Everything was so clean, and at the same time, felt so foreign. She couldn't put her finger on why it would feel that way, but experiencing it all the same was something she was slightly proud of at the moment, as well as the fact that she was learning something new.

Nodding, she turned her sights onto the couch, sitting down as instructed while looking around some more. It was like stepping into a different world, something she wasn't used to but was slowly trying to adapt to. For a guy, he had very good taste, her mind decided. She caught movement out of the corner of her eye and followed him over to his seat, eying the glasses of water.

She nodded again, showing that she understood. And then she paused, a thought coming in as she pondered over the implications of what he was saying. She really didn't want to go the chemical route. Something inside of her didn't really like that idea, although at the same time, no one really wanted to go that way. At least, not willingly and on the first try.

"So should I just try to remember things randomly?" she asked him. "Talk about things that come to mind and try to work them out?" She had never tried anything like this before, and she was a bit apprehensive about it. Still, she was going to try, and that was all she could hope for.

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-14 02:07 am UTC (link)
"Something like that." Hannibal nodded. "I want you to lay back on the couch and close your eyes. You need to be comfortable and at ease. You need to not fight the memories that might come, either. Even if they don't make sense to you. They could be nothing, but they could be pieces to the puzzle that is you. Do you understand?"

Hannibal pulled a little recorder out of his pocket. It already had a new tape in it. He'd been prepping it for use withe undead monkey. But he could always get another new tape.

"We'll tape the session so that you can listen to it after. Repetition often helps to unlock the mind. Now, it's not particularly bright in here, but if you'd like it darker, I can close the curtains. If you like the light, I can turn on some more. Tell me whatever you need to feel comfortable and safe and I'll do my best to reconstruct it."

He placed one of the two glasses of water on the table right in front of the couch. Within easy reach for her. His own went on the chair side table. It was merely to keep his own throat dry. Hers could act as a crutch for her, if she needed it. Give her a moment to sort her thoughts when she was sure she couldn't just sit in silence.

"When you're ready, absolutely ready, we will begin. Not a moment sooner."

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[info]i_shoot
2008-04-14 09:18 pm UTC (link)
"It's fine," she was quick to say. Something about her didn't like the dark all that much. It made her feel uneasy, like there was something out to get her. And she didn't like that, although logically, who would? Settling down on the couch, her eyes instantly went toward the open window. She tried to keep her breathing even and calm, to try and relax just a little. Closing her eyes, she nodded to show that she understood and tried to breathe, swallowing as she went along. A singular spot on the ceiling caught her attention, and without even thinking, it was like everything evened out, even if it only felt like a few seconds to her.

"I woke up," she started out, going with the first thing that she remembered. "In a hospital bed, and the first thin' I felt was panic. I dunno wha' it was. I just didn' like it in there. It felt strange, like I would never get out. Or that they would ask too many questions. I don' like it when they do it. Feels like they ask for too much, and then some I don' wanna answer." She stopped. "Feels like I had been in a place like that before. I don' know where. I still didn' like it. It was just........too clean. Too white. Too everythin' I didn' like." She closed her eyes and tried to get the feeling of being so clean out of her head.

"Showed me a truck. Looked like it had been hit by train or somethin'. Dashboard had a huge hole in it. Said they found it with me. Or near me. I don' remember it too much. It did look familiar. The stuff inside it didn'. Found a whole bunch of weapons." She paused, unsure of whether or not she should continue. Was she a criminal or something? Oh dear Lord, please no.

"There were a whole bunch of IDs," she said slowly, the memory coming back to her. "Said they found it in the glove box. They all looked like me, but none of the names were mine. None of them felt right." And here she stopped, unsure of where else to go. It felt like something was coming.

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[info]i_consume
2008-04-15 02:46 am UTC (link)
Hannibal didn't need a notepad. Everything was carefully stored away. He sorted through what she had said so far, but nothing seemed to disturb her quite as much as the loss of her name.

"Let's focus on that last bit, shall we? Your name. None of the IDs felt right. So what I want you to do is set those names aside. Put them in column A in your mind. These are the names you know don't belong to you. When you've done that, I want you to start going through other names. Ones that you didn't see in that pile, names you have heard other people called. Maybe names from books or movies. If they stick, even just a little bit, you place them in column B. You don't need to write this down, but if you think it would help, you can. There's a notepad on the table by you."

Lady Murasaki always kept notepads handy. She liked to write down little poems and thoughts she had through the day.

"When you feel that you have a good amount of names, then I want you to start reciting them out loud. Hopefully, with repetition, we'll be able to narrow things down to your actual name. It's not a short process, but it's better, I think, than hypnotism. More reliable. You'll be more sure of yourself. Once we have your name established, I think a lot of the other things will come much easier to you."

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[info]i_shoot
2008-05-11 04:34 pm UTC (link)
She took the note pad. Quite frankly, the way her memory was going, if she forget where she was in the next two seconds, at least she would have something to go on. Besides, having something in her hands made her feel safer. Like she had to do something other than just think and function. It was strange, but it was something that Jo couldn't ignore.

She felt prickles on the edges of her consciousness as she wrote down names. She didn't say anything. She didn't feel that she needed to. It would all come together, somehow.

Jessica Shore
Tabitha McClean
Sam Walther
Annette Lilac
Annie Park
Joan D'arc


The pen stilled, stopping completely as she looked at all the ones she had. Some of them caused whispers. Indiana, said one. Minnesota, said another. Nebraska. Michigan. All of that made her stop. These places sounded important.

"Do you think the City's got a map of places outside?" she asked, her brow furrowing. "It might not, and that's fine. It's just.......I feel like I've been here before. Like I've been to plenty of places before. With people. And different names."

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[info]i_consume
2008-05-17 06:54 pm UTC (link)
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