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A Cattermole ([info]alfiecat) wrote in [info]wished,
@ 2009-10-28 18:51:00

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Entry tags:!1997: 10, !complete, alfred cattermole, audrey wadcock

Who: Alfie and Audrey
What: Audrey needsa shoulder
Where: Hufflepuff Common Room
When: Tonight
Warnings: TBA


Alfie hadn't done much since the disastrous night with Julien, waiting for news of his parents. They'd gotten owls the next morning - everyone was fine but the owl post office in Diagon had been clogged with a queue around the block, apparently, and his mum hadn't been able to owl until the next morning. Which made sense, but didn't make it any less terrifying the night before.

And that was only one of the problems - he'd been trying not to think about that night with Julien. About what had happened that had left him sobbing on the grounds with Julien just... staring. And trying not to think about it, of course, it was the only thing he'd really been able to focus on for days.

But his best friend had a problem, and Alfie was nothing if not a good friend, so he headed to the Common Room and settled into a couch by the fire where he had a view of the stairs so he could see Audrey when she came down.



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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 12:11 am UTC (link)
The day had been disgusting; chilly and wet and rainy, aside from the news she'd had confirmed from Sam. So when classes were over, Audrey didn't hesitate before changing into her comfiest pair of flannel pants with the little polar bears dancing across them. She knew she really shouldn't have written that journal entry, that it was melodramatic and pointless, but she was hurting and couldn't stop herself.

On the plus side though, it had drawn Alfie out of wherever he'd been hiding for the past week or so (not that she'd been any better at being available) and she'd jumped at the chance to see him again. Making her way downstairs, Audrey crossed the room and settled onto the couch next to her best friend, curling her feet under her, glad that the common room wasn't full up yet.

"Hey," she said after a moment. "I missed you."

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 12:15 am UTC (link)
It wasn't that he'd been trying to hide - except that for the first time in maybe his whole life he'd wanted some time alone to think. That, and he was in a lot of his classes, too, and Alfie had sat as close to the door as he could and rushed out as soon as it was over because he couldn't stop looking at him.

"Sorry," he mumbled, frowning and then giving her an awkward, one armed sort of hug. "My fault. I've been..." but he trailed off when he couldn't think of a word that really described it. "Are you okay?"

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 12:20 am UTC (link)
"'Salright," Aud leaned against him and shrugged. "It's not your fault, I've been all caught up in ..." Sam, the word died in her throat and Audrey coughed, then tried again. "Stuff."

At his question, she shrugged again. "I don't know." she said, honestly. "I guess it was a little more than nothing, but I didn't think it would hurt like this to be... not chosen." She was picking her words carefully, hesitant to be overheard.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 12:25 am UTC (link)
"Well, what happened, exactly?" Alfie wasn't usually up to date on any gossip, so he was sure he'd probably missed something. Still, it was Audrey, so he cared - and maybe thinking about her problems would take his mind of what had happened.

He kept an arm around her shoulders, relaxing back a little on the sofa and tucking her in against his side.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 12:32 am UTC (link)
Curling her feet to the side, Audrey snugged up against him. "We went out for a couple of walks and we snogged..." she trailed off and grinned to herself, remembering the feel of Sam against her. "A lot..."

She sighed a small sigh. "Then a few days ago, she stopped being all... friendly in Herbology and didn't want to go out for a walk when I asked, and I thought it was okay cos you know, maybe she was busy or something but then someone told me about her and Ginny and..." she sighed again, a deeper, sadder sigh and curled closer to Alfie. "She was the first person I kissed and the first person I... felt anything for and I don't know. It's just not fun."

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 12:40 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, I know..." He didn't, though, not really. Because he assumed when they were snogging that Capper had wanted to snog Audrey back. He didn't know what that was like.

"I mean, I don't know what she sees in her. I thought Weasley was with Potter, anyway?"

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 01:01 am UTC (link)
Audrey snorted and traced one of the polar bears on her pyjama pants. "I don't either. She's nothing special," she answered, then frowned, feeling mean. It wasn't Ginny's fault that Sam liked her better and it wasn't as though she'd known that Audrey liked Sam as much as she did. Aud hadn't even known! "I guess she's not, otherwise why would she be snogging Sam in the common room?"

She sighed and gave Alfie a hug. "Why can't things be easy? Like with us?"

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 01:03 am UTC (link)
Alfie hugged back, and when she said it that way it sounded so much better than what he'd been feeling. Audrey was his best friend.

"I don't know," He said, and there was something in his voice that said he wasn't just talking about what happened with her and Sam. "It's stupid, how hard it is."

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 01:20 am UTC (link)
She hugged him tightly, her brows furrowing as she caught the note in his voice. "Alfie?" She asked, pulling back slightly to look up at her friend, her stomach twisting as she thought about how caught up in Sam and what a bad friend she'd been lately. "Are you alright?"

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 01:23 am UTC (link)
Alfie felt caught, and he mumbled a 'yeah, fine' but he blushed, too, and Alfie wasn't the sort of boy who blushed all that often.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 01:30 am UTC (link)
Her frown deepening, Aud leaned back even more in an attempt to look Alfie in the eye. "What's going on?" she asked, her tone and even mixture of curiosity and worry.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 01:34 am UTC (link)
Alfie's eyes narrowed a little, more in frustration and embarrassment than in annoyance. She was like his bloody sisters - she could always tell when he wasn't being honest.

"It's nothing. Really. We came down to talk about you..."

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 01:39 am UTC (link)
"Yeah," Aud answered, over the end of his sentence. There was something going on and she wasn't about to let him slip out of it that easily. "And we talked about me. It's your turn now."

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 01:50 am UTC (link)
He knew that look in her eyes, and sighed, then slumped down further into the sofa. He wasn't going to get away from her with that look in her eyes.

"It's stupid." He started with, then took a deep breath and said, "I snogged someone. A... a bloke." That part whispered under his breath, so that only Audrey would be able to hear.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 02:07 am UTC (link)
Audrey's mouth dropped open, her lips forming a perfect o as she stared up at her friend. She wasn't shocked that Alfie'd snogged a boy, but that he hadn't told her! She sat up and looked at him. "When? Where? Who?" She fired off, as quietly as she was able. "Was it good? Did you like it?"

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 02:11 am UTC (link)
Alfie blinked at the rapid fire questions and then looked away from her, down to his feet, frowning again.

"It doesn't matter. It's not going to happen again..." Because Julien had hated it, and stopped it, and talked about how they were taking advantage, or something, but Alfie knew that Julien had stopped it. Hadn't wanted it. So none of it mattered, anyway.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 02:28 am UTC (link)
Alfie's answer paused Aud in the middle of her interrogation and she frowned. "So... you didn't like it?" She asked, sitting back in the couch and tucking herself against him again. She thought for a long moment and then, before she could stop herself, mused aloud something she never would've even thought if she were with anyone else. But this was Alfie! Her best friend! "Maybe... we should... I mean, we're so close and everything seems so easy and..."

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 02:34 am UTC (link)
"It isn't that I didn't..." Alfie mumbled, but he trailed off as Audrey started speaking again, and he didn't understand what she was saying at first, and looked at her from the corner of his eye. "Maybe we should... what?"

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 05:39 am UTC (link)
Audrey shrugged and burrowed against Alfie. "Date?" She finished, her voice coming out a squeak. "I mean, we tried the other way and that didn't work out so well and ... why not?" She was blushing now and hoped that he couldn't tell.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 11:11 pm UTC (link)
Alfie blinked at her, and it still took a minute to sink in what she was asking.

Date Audrey? She was like his sister... except that she wasn't, and she was his best friend, and he had to admit it was a hell of a lot easier than thinking about dating any other girl.

"I...." He trailed off, though, not sure about the answer, and somehow still thinking of Julien. And Audrey was... well, not anything like him.

Except she was a girl, which was normal. And shouldn't he want to date her instead?

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 11:32 pm UTC (link)
Suddenly fearful, Audrey shrugged again and ducked her head, trying to hide her burning cheeks. "It was just a suggestion?" She managed, finally, her voice cracking a little. Merlin, why had she opened her mouth? It wasn't as if she even really wanted to date Alfie. She loved him, of course, but... not like that. He didn't cause tingles and that happy, floaty feeling, but she supposed she could learn to love him like that.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 11:37 pm UTC (link)
Alfie frowned, and she sounded like she was going to cry, and it had been a whole bloody week of people crying around him, really. He was quick enough to hug her, one armed over her shoulder. "Don't - don't cry..." He sounded a little afraid of it, really. "We could. We could do that..."

It would be better than .... well, he wasn't sure. He'd never really thought about Audrey that way. Ever.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 11:41 pm UTC (link)
"No, no," Aud tugged away from him and sat up on her knees. "I'm not crying. I'm just... embarrassed?" She twisted on the couch and buried her face against the back cushions. He'd only said yes because he was afraid she would cry! What kind of person was she? Was there truly something wrong with her that no one was interested in her?

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 11:43 pm UTC (link)
Alfie's face screwed up in concern and worry and... well, fear, and he reached out tentatively to pet a hand down her back slowly.

"We... we never even talked about trying it before. Maybe it would be..." Better. But somehow he didn't think it could be, and the memory of how really fucking good that kiss had been before Julien had pushed him away came back suddenly and left him a little shaky.

"Maybe it would be easier," He finally finished.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 11:49 pm UTC (link)
Arching her back slightly against his hand, Audrey turned her head towards him, resting her cheek on the cushion. "I don't know, it just occurred to me. It's just so... yes, exactly. It's easy being with you." It wasn't easy in the way being with Sam had been, the way she'd seemed to know when to reach out and take the other girls hand or touch her or kiss -- she stopped herself. She wasn't to think about that.

"And I have my... thing and you have yours but... if we're going to try something else, shouldn't it be with someone we trust?" She finished, hoping her ramble had made sense.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-29 11:51 pm UTC (link)
"Someone who..." Understands, Alfie thought, and then he couldn't say it. Because there wasn't anything to understand, really. It had happened, and maybe it had been a fluke (a really, really good fluke) but it wasn't like it was ever going to happen again.

"Yeah. That would be easier..."

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-29 11:58 pm UTC (link)
Alfie seemed receptive and Audrey found herself warming to the idea as well. "And plus," she continued, liking the feel of his hand against her back. "I don't feel stupid around you so if I do something wrong, I won't want to... you know, jump off the Astronomy Tower in embarrassment." She smiled up at him and pushed thoughts of Sam as far back in her mind as she could.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-30 12:01 am UTC (link)
"Something wrong?" Alfie asked, and then his hand stilled on her back as he thought about the fact, for the first time, that he might actually be expected to snog her. Snog. Audrey.

He wasn't sure he could do that. But it wasn't like you to SAY that to a girl... so he started stroking her back again and said, quietly, "Oh. Yeah."

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-30 12:17 am UTC (link)
Audrey shrugged and twisted slightly so she was facing him. "I don't know? I'm sure I could do something wrong," she quirked the side of her lips and gave him a self-depreciating smile. Alfie was turned towards her, close beside her and she studied his face for a moment, trying to convince herself that she could, in fact, date him, snog him, do... whatever else it was people did. "D'you..." she started, then stopped again, trying not to think about the fact that this was Alfie. "Want to try?"

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-30 12:32 am UTC (link)
Alfie's eyes went comically wide for a moment as he hissed "Now?" Before he'd thought about it. Then he blushed and cleared his throat, swallowing the lump that was suddenly lodged there. "Yeah. Yeah, I guess we could...."

And before with Evie it had been awful, because she'd kissed him first and maybe that was the problem. Julien had too - but he wasn't thinking about that. Except, maybe he could make this a little bit enough like that that it would feel the same, and so he slid a hand to the back of her neck and tried to get her to turn around toward him a little more. His grip was maybe too hard.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-30 01:09 am UTC (link)
Aud's heart was beating in her ears as Alfie slipped his hand around to the back of her neck. His fingers were too tight and she resisted the urge to wince, sliding her own hand up and gently readjusting his grip. Merlin, what if it was awful? She only had her kisses with Sam to compare it to, what if she hated kissing Alfie?

She scooted closer and ducked her head slightly, moving towards her friend. Trying to ignore her nerves, she misjudged the distance and twisted her head one way when she should've twisted it the other and ended up bumping her nose into his. The little shock of pain faded quickly, but the blush caused by the mismanoeuvre didn't and Audrey froze there, inches from Alfie's lips, her cheeks flaming.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-30 01:22 am UTC (link)
It was good. It made it real, somehow, and Alfie tried to find some courage that told him he could do this, but his fingers on her neck were shivering and, finally, he just gave up and pulled her in to him - his lips off center at first and then right on hers. He kissed her. And he didnt' really know what to do when the instinct that had someone told him how to kiss Julien didn't jump out at him. But he tried anyway, lips moving against hers.

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-30 01:29 am UTC (link)
She kissed Alfie tentatively at first, her hand moving up to rest against his chest and leaning against him. It was... good. It wasn't like when she'd kissed Sam, she didn't feel that urge to press against him, that desperate, breathless need for more contact, but it was good. She found herself liking it, and being disappointed when he pulled back for air. "Well?" She asked, after a long moment, her voice neutral.

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-30 01:32 am UTC (link)
"Oh...." Alfie dragged in a breath and didn't know how to describe it. It hadn't been awful, not the horrible way he thought it could have been. But it hadn't been amazing, and he didn't want to grab her the way he had him before. "Yeah..." Alfie said, with a swallow. "Yeah, it was good."

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[info]notaspare
2009-10-30 01:38 am UTC (link)
Smiling, Audrey sat back on her heels, then wriggled around on the couch until she was sitting beside him, her legs draped over his. She felt the urge to thank him, as if he was praising her for doing a good job. "So," she started, reaching out and taking his hand, after a moment. "Maybe we're... alright, then?"

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[info]alfiecat
2009-10-30 01:41 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, I guess we are" he answered and he held her hand - and it felt the way that holding her hand always felt. Like holding hands with his best friend. "So. We're okay, and we're... together." Which would take some time to get his brain around.

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