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Tweak says, "K9!"

Jessica Moore | Supernatural (sweetlittlejess) wrote in welcomenetwork,
@ 2013-12-23 00:29:00

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bonnie bennett, guinevere, jessica moore, mary margaret blanchard / snow white, sam winchester

Right, so, maybe I'm thinking ahead, but I can't help but think that we're only a week or so from New Year's, too. And the beginning of a new year. ~~I can't believe it's almost 2014~~ So, what resolutions do people here have? What things about your current lives do you want to change? What things do you want to do better next year? And saying that you want to leave this place doesn't count - only include things you can actually do something about.

And also...shouldn't we have a New Year's Party? Christmas is for family, but New Year's is for getting together with friends.

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	jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-24 04:33 am UTC (link)
	I just don't want to make things difficult for you. But I'm glad I can give you that, at least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam thesamsquatch 2013-12-24 04:50 am UTC (link)
	It's not difficult. It's complicated, but it's worth it. Really worth it. Is it difficult for you? Having my family around, and all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-24 04:52 am UTC (link)
	Difficult? No. But I really do want to get to know them. And they're...a little bit scary, Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam thesamsquatch 2013-12-24 05:11 am UTC (link)
	Well... yeah. We are. I mean, we're the people that monsters are supposed to be afraid of. Scary kind of comes with the territory, unfortunately. Or do you mean scary like, you're afraid of how they'll react to you? I have a lot of fears about that too, honestly. For me, I mean, not for you. ~~Well, both~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-24 04:20 pm UTC (link)
	Honestly? Kind of both. The monsters are scary, but not in the same sort of way. I want your family to accept me. And you're afraid they won't? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jess | sam

thesamsquatch
2013-12-25 02:09 am UTC (link)

They're not the most accepting people in the world. I mean... they are, just not for me. I told you a little bit, didn't I, about how they didn't approve of me going to Stanford? That was a long time ago for us, and now we're playing normal happy family around here, sort of, but it's still... weird.

That's just for me, though. There are expectations for me, not for other people. You're wonderful, Jess. I'm sure they'll love you. I have absolutely no worries about that.

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	jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-25 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, you told me about that. That was one of the few things you did tell me about your family, that they didn't approve. I never understood that. I still don't, really. I hope so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jess | sam

thesamsquatch
2013-12-25 04:52 am UTC (link)

It's complicated, and I didn't really understand it at the time I explained it to you, either. My dad... was afraid for my safety, away from where he could protect me. He told me that was all he could think about, rather than what I wanted. It's that, and-- there's a kind of loyalty you have to have on this job, in this life. Expectations that I'll give up anything for family and for the greater good. Not here, though; the situation here is different. ~~For now, anyway~~

The reason my family is like this is just because we all care too damn much about other people, Jess. About our own family, about the other people we love, about people we don't even know. They already care about you just because of how much you mean to me, even if they really don't know how to show it.

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	jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-25 04:58 am UTC (link)
	I get that. I do. And there's a lot of good to be said for that. I mean, these days, most people don't care enough about other people. And it's one of the things I love of you. One of many. I'll try to live up to that. To earn it. For you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam thesamsquatch 2013-12-25 05:17 am UTC (link)
	Well, my dad and my brother are like me that way, even if they show it differently. You don't have any expectations to live up to, you know. Just be yourself, you're already perfect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam sweetlittlejess 2013-12-25 05:22 am UTC (link)
	I'm far from perfect, Sam, and I don't want to be. I just want to be perfect for you. I love you, Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jess \| sam thesamsquatch 2013-12-25 05:40 am UTC (link)
	That's what I meant, that you're perfect to me. You already are. I love you, too. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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