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daisy johnson is (neveragoodfit) wrote in welcomenetwork,
@ 2016-05-20 16:54:00

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daisy johnson / quake (mcu), grant ward, kara lynn palamas / agent 33, leo fitz, sterling archer

Avoiding the internet is not exactly easy. And there's a part of me that's curious to find out what is going on back home, only a small part but it's there. I'm just glad that the show isn't on the air anymore so I don't have to worry about getting it thrown in my face without warning during commercials.

[Filtered to Archer]
We need a date night, just the two of us.

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Daisy | Kara

agent33
2016-05-21 09:58 pm UTC (link)

How it came about was wrong. Coulson held me hostage. And Grant could have walked away, but he cared. He loved me and he came back. But I think when he got there, when he saw you all again, He remembered how much he missed it. He really did care about you all.

He blames himself for my death.

Another to add to the list I think, its how he sees it.

I need you to be honest. I need you to tell me exactly how it played out that day. Everything you remember.

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Daisy | Kara

neveragoodfit
2016-05-21 10:02 pm UTC (link)

You're right, what Coulson did was wrong. He never should have held you hostage. But he probably wasn't thinking straight, they had no idea where I was and I think it scared them all. Seeing him again on the bus, it was hard. It was almost like we'd never left but there was this giant rift between us and we couldn't repair it.

Of course he does. You know he won't see it any other way.

Do you mean the day we hit that base?

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	Daisy \| Kara agent33 2016-05-21 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	There are always excuses Daisy. Only difference is Grant doesn't hide behind any. He accepts the things he did. But yes. I mean that day. I mean how I died. I want to know what you remember. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Daisy | Kara

neveragoodfit
2016-05-21 10:14 pm UTC (link)

I'm trying to accept the things I've done, all of them.

I wasn't there, when you left with Bobbi. I think it was a few days after the mission. I'd gone back to Afterlife to try and ease over the tension between the inhumans and SHIELD. I didn't find out about your death until a while after. All I do know is that Ward was the one who pulled the trigger. I know Bobbi nearly died, took a bullet meant for Hunter and it left her in a bad way. And Ward did the only thing he felt he could.

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Daisy | Kara

agent33
2016-05-21 10:29 pm UTC (link)

I'd made myself look like May.

He shot her. Because it's how you beat May, you get the drop on her. He didn't know it was me till I fell. Till the mask dropped.

He may have pulled the trigger but none of it is his fault. I won't be another reason he feels guilty.

...I don't know why I'm confiding in you.

I went too far the other day. A lot of the time, I really, genuinely hate you. Because of what you put him through. And because while he hurt you all too, he needed a chance. Just one.

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Daisy | Kara

neveragoodfit
2016-05-21 10:36 pm UTC (link)

I never thought he'd have just killed you. I knew he cared about you and I knew he'd never hurt anyone he loved like that. He was a lot of things back home but he was never that, the kind of person who would hurt someone he loved.

You're right, it's not his fault. None of it was his fault, all of it lies at his family's and Garrett's feet.

I don't know either. Maybe it's because we both loved him and lost him.

Its okay, I get it. I understand why you feel that way. I should have given him a chance, I wish I had and part of me always thought I'd be able to down the line I missed my chance though, I lost him the moment I pulled that trigger, there was no coming back from that and I know that now.

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Daisy | Kara

agent33
2016-05-21 10:43 pm UTC (link)

He loved me. He says he could tell from what he saw. I just wish he remembered. And he'd never have willingly hurt me.

Maybe that's true, only I didn't lose him. Not to my mind, not to what I remember. Last I remember we were in love.

And maybe it's cause you moved on. Sure with his double. Which, is still really weird, but you moved on.

I have no idea if I can ever do that. He's with her, has been for years now, he's happy with her and yet he's still all I can think about.

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Daisy | Kara

neveragoodfit
2016-05-21 10:54 pm UTC (link)

He might remember if he gets sent back home and brought back. I know he wouldn't have, he never hurt me, not physically anyway.

I think that's worse than what I went through. I'd already lost him before I came here.

Moving on wasn't easy. And you're right it is weird but it works for us, we're both messed up individuals, me more than him but together we're less messed up.

I'm sorry, I know what that's like. When I turned up here and he was like he was back when I first met him I thought for one moment that maybe we could have what we never could back home and then I found out he was with May and I was crushed all over again. There was always a part of me that thought one day we'd find our way back to each other but we just weren't meant to be. Moving on wasn't easy. I didn't plan on it, it just happened. So maybe you don't move on, maybe you do but it's up to you.

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