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daisy johnson is (neveragoodfit) wrote in welcomenetwork,
@ 2016-05-20 16:54:00

Entry tags:

daisy johnson / quake (mcu), grant ward, kara lynn palamas / agent 33, leo fitz, sterling archer

Avoiding the internet is not exactly easy. And there's a part of me that's curious to find out what is going on back home, only a small part but it's there. I'm just glad that the show isn't on the air anymore so I don't have to worry about getting it thrown in my face without warning during commercials.

[Filtered to Archer]
We need a date night, just the two of us.

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	neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 10:04 am UTC (link)
	Don't worry, my impulse control is a lot better than it use to be. Do you know anything? Have you seen it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	goforshortbus 2016-05-21 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	I haven't watched it since Coulson... since I had no more point to watch it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 05:45 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. I don't even know how you could watch any of it. It got to be too much, watching it and knowing that it wouldn't make a damned bit of difference, that I couldn't change anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	goforshortbus 2016-05-21 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	I hate myself? Basically that. And fear. I was ao scared I'd end up killing one of you with the way things were going. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 06:31 pm UTC (link)
	There was no reason to punish yourself more though by watching it all because that's all you were doing. None of us can change what happens because when we go back we don't remember. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

goforshortbus
2016-05-21 06:42 pm UTC (link)

I know. I learned that the hard way. But it was still...

[ Daisy ]

Part of me hoped it would turn around eventually. It was like... half punishing myself for everything I was doing, making myself know every sin I'd committed, and part of it was wishing I'd come to my senses. Or someone would stop me... Which I guess is what Coulson did.

I deserved to suffer through all of it considering what I was putting all of you through.

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	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	It had gone too far, we'd all gone too far. The really sad thing was that I understood why you'd been loyal to Garrett. After everything that happened with my mother I realized how easy it was to almost blindly follow someone. Don't you think you'd suffered enough? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 06:56 pm UTC (link)
	I can never suffer enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	~~Grant~~ Ward, you died. He left you on another planet. You had nothing and no one. You suffered more than anyone ever needs to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 07:10 pm UTC (link)
	After I kidnapped Fitz and Simmons, tortured Jemma physical, Fitz mentally, and was content to stand there and watch him get murdered. I didn't deserve anyone or anything. Part of me thinks I still don't. I still have the potential to turn into that. I have no idea what will happen when I get sent back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	That's not you. Or it is but only because we never gave you the chance to turn around back home. Here you have people that care enough to stop you from turning into that. If you get sent back then we cross that bridge when we come to it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	It is me. People keep saying it isn't. But just a few steps either way, and that guy is what I am. Because I understand. Most of what he did makes horrifying sense to me. It's just a matter of time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 07:44 pm UTC (link)
	You're different from him. You are. That guy, he's you without the second chance you were given here. And of course you understand what he did because he's you just you with nothing left to lose. You won't become that if you don't want to. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	You need to speak to Kara, now. She's asking where she was when you were leading HYDRA. What the hell do I say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	I know. I know. I just told her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	Why hadn't you told her before? Does she even know about you and May yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't want to overwhelm her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	What if she'd stumbled across it somehow? And have you actually used the term 'you died' or did you vague it up and dance around the actual words? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	I used the words... I kinda buried it, but I used the words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 09:00 pm UTC (link)
	As uncomfortable as it all is make sure she knows all of it because it's all out there anyway. And please make sure she knows about you and May because if she finds out any other way it's going to be worse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 09:06 pm UTC (link)
	I'm trying. I'm trying but it's so hard when I can only guess at his whole motivations. But I just told her about May. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Daisy \| Ward. neveragoodfit 2016-05-21 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	Then don't go into motivations. Just tell her what happened, not why. Okay, good because finding out another way would be really bad for her ~~worse than it was for me~~. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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