I'm sorry about last night. I was pretty screwed up, almost to the point where I would have probably done something stupid enough to have gotten me killed, if not for people stepping in and rightfully putting me down. I'm not suicidal or anything like that - which is how the post sort of looked to me when I read over it again - I just have some issues with the actual blood that's inside me, so I hope I didn't give any of you the wrong impression of me when I made that last update. I was just being a moron.
I can't keep using liquor to drown out all the bad stuff that happens around here, no matter how much it sucks. I'm not doing it anymore. Waking up with a mild concussion and news that I wanted to start hacking at myself with a knife was kind of a wake up call for me. I'm done with it. Like Bobby says, "fat, drunk, and stupid ain't no way to go through life, son." He's a pretty smart guy, that Bobby.
I'm sorry, to those of you I might have upset, insulted, or freaked out. I won't let it happen again.
(Michael and Dean)
Ready to go?