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Tweak says, "the boy is mine"

winchester, sam. (ex_demonbloo908) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2015-01-11 14:50:00

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bobby singer, claudia donovan, faith lehane, henry swan, jacen solo, jo harvelle, rose hathaway, ruby winchester, sam winchester

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I wished for a bunker. It's underground, it's hidden, and it seems like the perfect place to take all of my hunting stuff so that Emily won't be too exposed to it. It seemed like a good idea.

Except I was going through my weapons, trying to figure out what I wanted to keep where when I kind of - there was this flash and I...did I attack someone? Someone here?

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	lostfaith 2015-01-12 05:34 am UTC (link)
	Yep. That's in the fine print. I am a murderer. Did my time, made my peace. Knowing what you did doesn't really make it any easier to let go of, trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_demonbloo908 2015-01-13 04:01 am UTC (link)
	Huh. I guess it was the same guy who decided to make up all the rules on both sides. Did you ever let go? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfaith 2015-01-13 04:18 am UTC (link)
	It's a work in progress. End of the day, I figure all you can do is try and make amends however you can. You can't undo what's done and you can't ever even the score, but trying's gotta count for something, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_demonbloo908 2015-01-13 05:13 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I get that. It's better that way. You're no good to anyone if you let what happened completely tear you apart. At least this way you're making a difference. Maybe not in the past, but... I'm sure there a lot of people out there who have you to thank for their lives. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfaith 2015-01-13 05:32 am UTC (link)
	Took me a long time to figure that out. Not sure where I stand on the cosmic sale or anything, but I've done some good, much as I can. It's not always easy, but I guess life ain't supposed to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_demonbloo908 2015-01-13 05:41 am UTC (link)
	No, it's not. But you're not alone in it either. If you ever feel like it gets to be too much or if you need someone that's happy to talk or listen, I'm always around. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfaith 2015-01-15 01:17 am UTC (link)
	Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	knocknockclauds 2015-01-13 07:14 pm UTC (link)
	You realize everything you said here applies to you too, right? Whatever happens, however bad it gets, even if like Faith said you can't even the score, you've made a difference, Sam. People owe their lives to you. That counts for something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_demonbloo908 2015-01-14 07:46 am UTC (link)
	I know it does. But I think, for me, it's a little more...it'd be easier to accept if I knew I wasn't going to hurt people all over again. Seems to be a recurring theme, no matter what I do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knocknockclauds 2015-01-15 01:43 am UTC (link)
	Aren't there usually some kind of crazy, extenuating circumstances behind that, though? Not saying that, on the inside from your point of view, that makes it any different, but... yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	frostandsnow 2015-01-15 06:10 pm UTC (link)
	That's what I keep saying. And what he says to me. Just getting him to take his own advice, not so easy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lostfaith 2015-01-15 06:29 pm UTC (link)
	Tougher to take it than to dish it out, you know? Took me a long time to figure it out for myself. Guilt's a bitch like that. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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