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Klaus solves family disputes with daggers (humanitytorn) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-12-21 17:52:00

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caroline forbes, niklaus mikaelson

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I'd like to talk something through with you, about those wishes?

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	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 06:01 pm UTC (link)
	Alright? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	I thought about asking to remember Hope, remember what happened around her birth, what we faced. In case it ever finds its way here. I want to be ready for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 06:25 pm UTC (link)
	So you're wanting to remember just her birth or like everything up to it that you haven't experienced yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	All of it. There's a lot of things with Marcel, with my family. Things I don't think it would hurt to know. It wouldn't change anything with us, I want you to know that (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	You don't know that. You don't know what's gone on back home. You could have easily moved on and everything could have changed. We're not together back home. Apparently we have sex if Damon is to be believed but we're not a couple. So don't tell me that nothing will change. You don't know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	You know how this works, gaining the memories of home does not change my memories of here. It doesn't make anything change. In fact, overall I think it will actually help. I obviously grow to trust my sister. Maybe now I'll know why that is (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	You just contradicted yourse How can it not make anything change if you think it'll help with Rebek Then wish for it. I want I don't know how I think I want to be able to get pregnant. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	Caroline I don't... I'm not ready yet. You know that. For another child. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't say I want to be pregnant right now. I just want the possibility to be able to eventually be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	Are you sure? I mean we have talked about this but are you sure its what you want some day? Because you should be sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

agelessbeauty
2014-12-21 07:24 pm UTC (link)

Am I sure that I want to be able to have a child that's part you and me? That I want to be able to give you that too? That I want a chance to be a mom? How is that even a question?

You have no idea how much it hurts that I can't and that's my fault because I've been keeping it from you. But look. You don't want it. That's fine.

I'll just wish for pictures of my mom or something.

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humanitytorn
2014-12-21 07:30 pm UTC (link)

Its also a responsiblity. Its also beyond anything I can describe to you. It changes everything. And you're still so young Caroline. I just don't want you to do this because you feel you have to, or because you think that I prefer Hayley or anything as ridiculous as that.

I didn't say I didn't want it. I said I don't want it right now. Probably honestly not for years yet. But its a decision you need to make. Not because of me, and not because of Hope.

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agelessbeauty
2014-12-21 07:36 pm UTC (link)

I don't want it because of whatever ridiculous notions you're apparently thinking. I want to be able to have a family with you because I love you. Yes, I'm young but that doesn't mean I don't know what I want. I know I want forever with you and we've no guarantee that these bauble wishes will happen every year. They didn't happen last Christmas even though everyone kept telling us about them. So I want to be able to make the wish now for however many years down the line it might be. I don't care if it takes a century. But I don't want the opportunity for us to eventually have a child just slip through my fingers.

I know its a responsibility. Who was the one who actually did anything for your youngest brother when he first showed up here? Who made sure he had any kind of stability while all of you were at each other's throats and leaving one another?

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	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 07:58 pm UTC (link)
	Then wish it. But you need to understand why I had to ask and not automaticlly assume I was insulting you. I get enough of that from my siblings. I had no wish to leave, they forced my hand. But thats in the past (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

agelessbeauty
2014-12-21 08:07 pm UTC (link)

I didn't think you were insulting me. I thought you didn't want it. There's a difference. I'm not going to wish for something that you're never going to want, Klaus. We're not always going to agree on things but something like this I couldn't just do because I want it if you don't ever want it.

And that's what it seemed like to me.

I'm not going to apologize for having feelings and letting them out to you. Don't you dare act like I should.

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	humanitytorn 2014-12-21 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	You never properly asked me if I did. You've hidden your feelings from me. I need you to be honest with me because if you can't do that, if you can't be open with me when you're upset then this is the last wish you should make. Don't apologize for having feelings. But apologize for not thinking I deserve to know when something is bothering you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't want to ruin your having Hope. I felt like telling you how much everything was bothering me could do that. But you're right. I shouldn't have hid that from you and I'm sorry I did. I've tried to make it go away but it won't and I don't know how to make it hurt any less. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

humanitytorn
2014-12-21 08:28 pm UTC (link)

It wouldn't.

That little girl will always be a part of me, Hayley will always have a place in our lives. But its you I fell for. Its you I've always loved.

But you're allowed to not be okay with it. You're allowed to take time to come to terms with it all. Your emotions are heightened, which no, isnt an excuse, but it is a reason.

We'll work on it. But we can only do that if you're honest

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	agelessbeauty 2014-12-21 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know where I fit anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 11:05 am UTC (link)
	Where has that come from? Is it because of Hayley, because of Hope? Because that shouldn't change things. I made it very clear that you were the woman I loved. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 01:28 pm UTC (link)
	Does you loving me mean that I just fit? Because I don't know how you want me to be with Hope. I don't want to interfere. You need to get to know her. But I don't know where you want me to fit with her. Because it does change things. Not your love for me or mine for you but babies do change things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 01:36 pm UTC (link)
	You're family of a sort to her. Perhaps more so one day. But for now why do you need to label it. You care for her, she's my daughter. I want you to be you. She changed me. I know that. And myself and Hayley will always have a connection because of her. But that shouldn't change us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 01:40 pm UTC (link)
	I don't mean like label-wise. I mean interaction-wise. Elijah and Henrik do things with you and her but I don't know if you want me to as well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 01:47 pm UTC (link)
	Why would I not want that? There are two people from our world I want nowhere near Hope. Neither of those people are you. You can absolutely do things with us (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 01:49 pm UTC (link)
	You never asked so I didn't know. But okay. I will then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 02:03 pm UTC (link)
	Neither did you. I had no idea you were feeling this bad. Honestly no one did. You need to ask us for help when you need it. You know that don't you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 02:09 pm UTC (link)
	I knew I wouldn't have been able to handle it if you said no. And I was hoping with enough time my feeling bad would just go away. I did ask for help. They all said to talk to you but I kept putting that off. I shouldn't have but I didn't want to ruin the holidays. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 02:10 pm UTC (link)
	So you assumed I'd react badly. I expect that from most people Caroline. I didn't from you. Do you know I spent most of the holidays worried about you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 02:13 pm UTC (link)
	Not badly, no. That you just wouldn't be ready for people outside of family to do things with you and her. No. I didn't know that. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 02:18 pm UTC (link)
	You are the woman I love. I know my siblings have taken to calling you sister which frankly is more of a curse than a blessing but don't ever assume that I don't consider you 'family' doesn't mean I don't love you. It mostly means I find it weird they do that. You need to talk to me more when you're upset. And stop pushing everything down. Its not healthy (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 02:23 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. It's how I've always coped with things. It's going to be a hard habit to break. But I'll work on talking to you when I'm upset. Can we have an us day, please? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	humanitytorn 2015-01-02 02:31 pm UTC (link)
	For a thousand years I coped with things by massacare. You'll manage this. Of course we can. I have Hope tomorrow but we'll plan something (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2015-01-02 02:33 pm UTC (link)
	I will, it'll just take time. Maybe I could hang out with you two tomorrow. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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