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Davina Claire is sick of being used (notyourpuppet) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-04-06 21:04:00

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anna milton, caroline forbes, davina claire, iliana dominick, loki, rebekah salvatore

No evil
Is it possible for me to go to school here? I think I would like that.

Also, I've seen people filtering against Heaven...I was curious as to why.

[Loki]
I'm sorry for invading the center the way I did. But thank you for letting me stay with you. I really appreciate it. If I can do anything to repay you for your kindness, please let me know. ~~Please don't turn out like the others I've trusted~~

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	Re: Davina notyourpuppet 2014-04-07 05:21 pm UTC (link)
	I do, though. You don't have to do all this. And the way I came at your family before, I would've understood if you hated me or something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-07 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	I figure I've got two choices here. Either I can be a bitch to you and make you come at me more and none of us end up happy. Or I can try to put right the wrongs my family have done to you, try to do a good thing for once and help a girl who deserves a life she chose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Davina notyourpuppet 2014-04-07 10:23 pm UTC (link)
	You seem kind of different than the you that was at home. In a good way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-07 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	I've been here nearly a year, I guess that's changed me. I have friends, Kol's alive, I fell in love. ~~The Cage~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-07 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	That's good, though. I like it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-07 11:48 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks. I'm actually really glad I've had the chance to meet you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-08 01:09 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad I got to see a different side of you. Can I ask you something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-08 09:56 am UTC (link)
	Of course you can, what's up? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-08 01:23 pm UTC (link)
	You and Klaus. You love him, and you stand by him, even though he's done a lot of terrible things. Even to you. But...how do you do it? How do you just...forgive those things? Or ignore them? How do you just...be his sister, after all he's done to you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Davina

hasherwhims
2014-04-08 01:28 pm UTC (link)

Oh wow. Tough question.

Sometimes I really don't know. He's hurt me, a lot. Frequently. And he says it even here, he'll probably hurt me again some time. But he's still my brother. When we were kids, we were so close, and sometimes, just occasionally, I get glimpses of who he used to be. Sometimes he does good things for me too. After a thousand years together, I think losing him would be like losing a part of myself now.

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	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-08 01:46 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry. I just...I'm trying to understand. Because I really thought Marcel could be family but...now I don't know. But then I see you with your brothers and...you hate each other half the time, but you never really stop caring, no matter how vile you are with each other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-08 03:46 pm UTC (link)
	The thing about Nik is he genuinely believes what he's doing is for our own good. It's a twisted logic, and so very wrong, but he believes it with every part of himself. Marcel learned from him. Deception and control, those are second nature to men like them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-08 11:31 pm UTC (link)
	I can see the similarities, I think. What do you think I should do? Do you think I should give him a chance again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Davina

hasherwhims
2014-04-08 11:44 pm UTC (link)

I think you should follow your gut instincts.

From what I know about Marcel, I suspect that he really screwed up, but that he thought he was doing it for the right reasons. The question now is, has he learned from it, or is he likely to screw it all up again? And that's something only you can decide. Marcel is flawed and impulsive and controlling and kind of stupid sometimes, but his heart is usually in vaguely the right place. But only you get to decide if that last bit is more important than all the downsides.

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	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-09 12:46 am UTC (link)
	I keep thinking... you know, he hasn't even done all of the things I'm so mad at him about, because of the way timelines get messy here... but I don't know. It's so confusing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-09 08:52 am UTC (link)
	It is confusing. You've got every right to feel hurt and angry and betrayed and all the things currently going through your head, even if the Marcel here hasn't done them. Feelings aren't supposed to be rational, honey. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-09 02:24 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. It's all a mess. I am all those things, but as much as I don't want to because of what's happened, I still care about him. He was like a father to me. It would be much simpler if they were. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-09 03:41 pm UTC (link)
	You don't have to make any decisions right away. And you don't even have to stick to the same decision forever. Trust me, take it from someone who knows, having feelings in all their complicated glory is better than having none at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-09 03:55 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe I should just wait and see what happens here, first. You can do that. Turn your emotions off. It can't be pleasant. I think you're right, though. Complicated is better than nothing at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-09 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	Give it time. I've had it happen once. It wasn't fun. There was a situation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-09 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	Doesn't sound good. I'm sorry for whatever happened that caused that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Davina

hasherwhims
2014-04-09 09:09 pm UTC (link)

Thanks. Short version is, we had a Biblical Apocalypse here. Lucifer vs the archangel Michael. Or rather both of them against each other and against us because they both wanted a war that would have ended the world. We stopped it, but some of us ended up in Hell for a time with them. While I was in there, I snapped, turned off the emotions.

I'm only really telling you because it's something that might get thrown around about me, about me being a terrible person, that I did stuff while my emotions were off. And yeah, I hunted, I fed. I ran from here, tried to flee before Niklaus hauled me back and locked me down until I turned it all back on. I was free for about two weeks. Whole truth right there, in case someone tries to tell you I've been lying to you or something.

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	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-09 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, wow. You...were in Hell? I don't think anyone that had the ability to turn feeling that off could handle it without it. You...weren't you, exactly. You were just your nature then, right? Thank you, Rebekah. For the honesty. Even if it's a lot to take in...I'm just glad you're not trying to hide anything from me. Means a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina hasherwhims 2014-04-09 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	A few of us were, yeah. No emotions means no conscience. Just instinct, which was to feed whenever I was hungry. I prefer having my emotions on, even when they're overwhelming sometimes. I figure you've had enough people lying or telling half truths. Honesty seems the best policy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah notyourpuppet 2014-04-10 12:32 am UTC (link)
	That's terrible. I'm really sorry you had to deal with that. Emotions definitely sound like the better deal to me. You're right. I have had enough of misinformation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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