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Hal Yorke was involved tagentially (needstheroutine) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-01-05 22:51:00

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alex millar, hal yorke, john mitchell, katherine pierce, lauren drake, lydia bennet

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I suppose since none of you are ripping my heart out that its real.. That I'm here.

Which means I have some apologies to make.

[Alex]

Alex. I...

Where do I begin but with how very sorry I am for everything I did. It got too much, it got too hard, and once again I didn't ask for help. In hell I saw things, I saw how bad it got at home, the things I did.

I'm sorry.

[Mitchell]

You truly are stronger and braver than I am ever capable of being. Your control I...

You should be proud

[Lydia]

I don't know why you chose to save me but I will always be grateful that you did.

Thank you. You're the best friend a man could have.

[Lauren]

I don't know what to say.

I 'm sorry. For everything. But you should know, in spite of how he...how he used you. You're strong. You have the potential for great things. You just need control, but I am far from the man to teach you.

[Katherine]

I am sorry. I don't know quite how to say it but there it is. I used you, in weakness, I twisted things because it was easier, God, it was cruel. And it wasn't him, not always. I'm sorry.

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	Hal enjoytheadorbs 2014-01-06 01:10 am UTC (link)
	I know he did. And I like Lauren, but I'm a bit more concerned with how he hurt Alex. How you hurt Alex. She went all poltergeisty, Hal. And that was really scary. I hope you are. I really do. I missed you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lydia needstheroutine 2014-01-06 01:15 am UTC (link)
	I remember, when its him. I remember it all. I'm well aware of how much I hurt her, I couldn't stop it, by the time I realised, I'd already gone too far. I'm going to make it up to her if she'll let me. If she doesn't of course, I'll understand (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal enjoytheadorbs 2014-01-06 01:18 am UTC (link)
	She still loves you. She was going to go for you in my place but she couldn't and I wouldn't let her. You just need to try and remember where she's coming from. You should have come to her the second you felt yourself slipping. Or me or Mitchell if you were afraid of her reaction. We could have tried, Hal. You didn't even give us the chance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Lydia

needstheroutine
2014-01-06 01:24 am UTC (link)

I expect she does. But he told her some things, cruel things. And the thing is, he twisted a lot of what was once real into so much worse.

I didn't ask for help.

I didn't once. And I know that. I went to Katherine because I could manipulate her easiest of any of you. Because a few words about managing the condition and I knew she'd falter.

For a while I even thought I could. I hadn't in the past but this time, this time I thought I had it. Take a little to feed the monster, to keep him from taking it all.

Every time, every cycle. I've never been able to stop him.

I don't even know when I finally broke, or why. I just know I didn't care.

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Hal

enjoytheadorbs
2014-01-06 01:32 am UTC (link)

Yeah, I know. We all know. He wasn't exactly secretive about it.

Sorry, but Katherine was in the wrong here, too. I won't feel badly for her. She knew about your condition and she fell for your lies and its partially her fault, too. You and her guy can forgive her, I'm not that easily sold.

And frankly, Hal, the second you drank that first sip, you should have known to get help.

Why? Why didn't you?

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Lydia

needstheroutine
2014-01-06 01:38 am UTC (link)

Of course he wasn't, doesn't care for secretive, less fun for him.

She tried to help. Because I convinced her. I can be convincing when I want to be. I can forgive her because I caused it.

I should have. I did.

I just couldn't bring myself to say it. I came close a few times. I just,

At points in my life I just can't stop him. Its not like the vampires who just flick a switch in their minds. He just takes over, sometimes its a slow decline like that time, sometimes its just..me one moment and him the next.

He'll come back. Maybe not for decades now, but he will

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