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Armand St. Just, friend of the Scarlet Pimpernel (iwanttohelp) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-12-02 12:56:00

Entry tags:

allison argent, armand st.just, enjolras, eponine, mary magdalene, princess adelina, stiles stilinski

No Evil / Lydia M. / Lydia's Friends
I think I am not going to enjoy this holiday season. I have no family here and few friends, and now I am alone. Is it bad I wish for the seal to take me back now? At least home I would have Marguerite and Percy with me. I miss them terribly.

[Eponine]

Do you perhaps have time for tea and chatting today? Or soon, if not today? I want to know if I did something wrong for Lydia to do what she did. I am very confused right now and I do not like it.

[Mary]

Thank you for making sure I did not get sick, and for not forcing me to talk about things. Depending on how my day goes I may go out for more drinks. If I do, would you like to accompany me again? I do not think I will drink as much, and I might be a better drinking partner in that I am not trying to actively drown my sorrows.

[Stiles]

Treat her well. That's all I ask.

[ETA: Allison]

I suppose you know by now, as you are Lydia's best friend. I hope this does not affect our friendship, as you are one of my favorite people here.

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	Armand runswithwolves 2013-12-02 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	I'm the scum of the No seriously I Shit I'm really sorry. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Stiles iwanttohelp 2013-12-02 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps it is for the best. She cares for both of us. She simply chose you, in the end. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Armand runswithwolves 2013-12-03 04:46 am UTC (link)
	~~She probably shouldn't have.~~ Are you all right? ~~Stupid question, asshole.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Stiles iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 02:15 am UTC (link)
	I will be fine, I suppose. This relationship did not end badly and I did not almost die this time. It will take time, but I think I will be all right. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	maryrockstar 2013-12-02 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	Hey, man, no worries. As for Christmas, I've got no one either. It doesn't have to sucked. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-02 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	I had hoped that the season would be better, I suppose. I thought this was a time for people to be happy and I'm quite miserable at the moment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryrockstar 2013-12-03 04:30 am UTC (link)
	Heartbreak does that. Looks like you've got plenty of friends, though. They'll help you be a little less miserable, maybe bordering on content. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 02:14 am UTC (link)
	I am lucky enough to have friends here. I keep forgetting that because lately I have shut myself off from everyone. But hopefully they will humor me until this melancholy mood passes. I do not think they would mind if you joined us for the holidays. It might be nice for you, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryrockstar 2013-12-05 02:42 am UTC (link)
	True friends get it when you're not yourself. As for joining you guys for the holidays, that's something I'd really like. I mean, as long as I'm not intruding or anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 02:49 am UTC (link)
	That is true. And I will gladly invite you as my guest. I do not think you would be intruding at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryrockstar 2013-12-05 02:52 am UTC (link)
	Thanks, Armand. I've never really had a Christmas where I was on my own~~, though a lot of them felt that way.~~ I guess I'll keep that streak going. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 03:15 am UTC (link)
	Then I am glad to help, as you have helped me greatly already. (Reply to this) (Parent)

decidewhoweare
2013-12-02 11:08 pm UTC (link)

You're welcome to spend the holiday at the Inn. I know it isn't the same as having your family around, but it won't be empty, certainly. Eponine puts together a wonderful meal and all of the guests are welcome to gather beforehand for gifts and music and most anything, really. We all have people we're missing, but being with others, it does tend to help.

[Armand]

Might I ask the reason for the filter?

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iwanttohelp
2013-12-02 11:30 pm UTC (link)

I will consider it. It will be much better than spending the day in an empty apartment.

[Enjolras]

Lydia sent me a post a few days ago saying she kissed the friend of hers who is living with her, Stiles. And then a few hours later she ended our relationship. I am friendly with Allison and do not want her to worry, nor do I want Lydia or her other friends to know just how much I currently do not want to be here.

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	decidewhoweare 2013-12-02 11:53 pm UTC (link)
	It should be, yes. We'll make certain of it. [Armand] ~~Well that doesn't give out a lot of hope to the rest of us~~ Perhaps it is for the best. You rushed into that rather quickly, if I'm being honest. And if a girl can't be faithful to you, then she isn't worthy of your time. However, one woman shouldn't be enough to force you into hiding. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

iwanttohelp
2013-12-03 12:06 am UTC (link)

Then I will plan on being there.

[Enjolras]

I am sadly thinking much the same thing. And I believe part of my problem stems from the fact that there is still much from my past that I have not gotten over, I think. I opened myself up and got hurt yet again, though not to my near death this time, for which I am grateful. I suppose I might try again later, but not any time soon. I think it might be best if I am not in a relationship for a ~~long~~ while.

Well, I did go to a bar with Mary Magdalene and proceeded to become quite the drunkard that evening, so I suppose I am not hiding. I just...Allison was one of my first friends here and I do not want her put in the middle.

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	Armand toldyouiddoit 2013-12-02 11:14 pm UTC (link)
	I can make time. What happened Armand? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Eponine iwanttohelp 2013-12-02 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	Lydia ended our relationship after she admitted to me she kissed her friend Stiles and wasn't sure she wouldn't do it again. I know I have been distant as of late, and I'm wondering if all of this is my fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Armand toldyouiddoit 2013-12-04 02:44 pm UTC (link)
	At least she was honest. Okay so what she did was awful but she could have kept you in the dark. Not knowing. Imagining... I don't believe it was your fault at all (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Eponine iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 02:17 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I just wonder if there is more I could have done, or something I could have said. But yes, she could have kept me in the dark, and I think it would have been so much worse. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	hopefollows 2013-12-03 01:48 am UTC (link)
	I sympathize with the wish to go home. But you are not alone here so long as you have friends here. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-03 01:50 am UTC (link)
	That is true, I suppose. I am out of sorts since my relationship ended, and in a decidedly unhappy state of mind as of late. Forgive my melancholia. How are you doing, by the way? We do not talk often enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hopefollows 2013-12-03 01:59 am UTC (link)
	You and Lydia? I'm sorry to hear that. I thought things were well between you. I am well enough. Belle was kind enough to offer me a place at her family's celebration for the Thanksgiving holiday. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

iwanttohelp
2013-12-03 02:10 am UTC (link)

I thought they were as well, but I was mistaken. She cared for two of us deeply, and in the end she chose her friend over me. At least this time the end of the relationship was not hazardous to my health. I am grateful for that.

That is good. I went to the youth center banquet. It was definitely an experience. I think people would have been in a better mood if Lucifer had not initiated the firestorm he did earlier, but it was still nice.

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	hopefollows 2013-12-03 02:47 am UTC (link)
	Then she still cares for you. Perhaps it was simply not meant to be. I'm sorry, Armand. I think people would be in a better mood if Lucifer were not around at all. His cruelty causes much suffering here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

iwanttohelp
2013-12-03 02:50 am UTC (link)

I suppose. it still hurts, though. It makes me wonder if it was worth offering up my heart in the first place.

I want to be doing more to get him locked up in his cage, but I do not know how to help. There is much going on that others know so much more about and I feel useless in this fight. The sooner he is gone the better it will be for this world, regardless of whether we all are able to stay or not.

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	hopefollows 2013-12-03 03:04 am UTC (link)
	Did you love her? You should not seek to compare yourself to the others in that way, many of them have been warriors for years. Besides, there are many parts to play in war. Fighting directly is only part of it; the people must be protected and their needs must be cared for. If you wish to fight, I know that Bobby Singer works to train hunters. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

iwanttohelp
2013-12-03 03:07 am UTC (link)

I believe I was starting to, even though I never admitted it to her. She doesn't need to know that, though. I do not think the feeling was mutual.

I had hoped to attend his last camp but I was unable to. If he offers another one I intend to know. And perhaps, if things are not too awkward, I can get Allison to continue our archery lessons. That is something I am quite good at, apparently.

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	hopefollows 2013-12-03 03:21 am UTC (link)
	Then you should not regret it. Love should never be regretted, even if it is unrequited. There you go, then. You have a plan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	iwanttohelp 2013-12-03 03:24 am UTC (link)
	I suppose that is true. I do not feel anger towards her, I know that much. Just an acute sense of loss and confusion. I think it will be a good plan, if things can work out accordingly. Though with Lucifer making strides against us we shouldn't really hold much to plans, as he has the tendency to disrupt them often. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Armand \| Allison silverarcher 2013-12-03 04:26 am UTC (link)
	I don't think it has to affect our friendship. There doesn't really seem to be any bad blood between you two. I'm sorry this happened, though. (Reply to this) (Thread)

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iwanttohelp
2013-12-05 02:18 am UTC (link)

Good. I do not want to lose any of my friends over this. And thank you. I am sorry it happened as well, but I get the feeling it is best that it ended now as opposed to later, and that she was honest with me. That helps.

Would you be free to go to the archery range tomorrow? I get the feeling it would be best if I practice some more. I think there might be a need for my burgeoning skill in the future, and I would at least like to be prepared.

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	Armand \| Allison silverarcher 2013-12-05 02:45 am UTC (link)
	I am definitely free for the range. If the end is coming as quickly as it seems to be, it's definitely a good idea to practice as much as possible. ~~Plus, it'll get your mind off of~~ Should I meet you there after school? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Armand \| Allison iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 02:51 am UTC (link)
	That would be excellent. It will be good to do it again. it is definitely a good reliever of stress. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Armand \| Allison silverarcher 2013-12-05 02:55 am UTC (link)
	It really is. I'm glad we have a range here. Back home I only had the woods to practice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Armand \| Allison iwanttohelp 2013-12-05 03:15 am UTC (link)
	The few times I went hunting back in my time it was...interesting, shooting in the woods. I think I like shooting at a range better. I just wish there was a way to practice amidst chaos, because I think that will be the position we're in if there's outright fighting. (Reply to this) (Parent)