I am sadly thinking much the same thing. And I believe part of my problem stems from the fact that there is still much from my past that I have not gotten over, I think. I opened myself up and got hurt yet again, though not to my near death this time, for which I am grateful. I suppose I might try again later, but not any time soon. I think it might be best if I am not in a relationship for a long while.
Well, I did go to a bar with Mary Magdalene and proceeded to become quite the drunkard that evening, so I suppose I am not hiding. I just...Allison was one of my first friends here and I do not want her put in the middle.