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Ariel wants to be part of your world (onlythreedays) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2012-06-05 22:51:00

Entry tags:

allana solo, ariel, clark kent/superman, connor temple, dawn summers, gregory house, jimmy hudson, svetlana sergievsky

Filtered against evil, Moriarty, Katherine, the Master...and Romana...
I pride myself on learning new things whenever I can. I think the universe has been trying for a very long time to teach me the most important one and I've been ignoring it. The concept of trust is a beautiful lie. If I'd known this was what it was going to be like to be a human, I never would have made that stupid deal. ~~My father was right about you. You're barbarians and I'd give anything to go home and never look back~~ ~~I'll never trust anyone ever again~~

[Connor]
I think it goes without saying that I'd like to study exclusively with you until school starts. Is that all right? ~~Are you going to betray my trust like everyone else, too? Why am I even bothering anymore?~~

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	niblet 2012-06-06 03:07 am UTC (link)
	What do you mean? ~~Does this mean you hate me again?~~ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	onlythreedays 2012-06-06 03:13 am UTC (link)
	I made a mistake thinking the world above the surface would be better. I was stupid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	niblet 2012-06-06 03:15 am UTC (link)
	No you weren't. Some things are good. [Ariel] We're still friends...right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Ariel let_them_talk 2012-06-06 03:09 am UTC (link)
	Whoa, wait a minute... What happened? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Danielle onlythreedays 2012-06-06 03:15 am UTC (link)
	I've been a stupid child this whole time. One would think I would have learned from my mistakes, but I hadn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ariel let_them_talk 2012-06-06 03:22 am UTC (link)
	Oh, hon, you're not a stupid child. Everyone makes mistakes, you know. It's kind of a daily thing, for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	thegirlisme 2012-06-06 03:19 am UTC (link)
	It is normal to wish to protect ourselves from hurt, even if it means not trusting because you are opening yourself to being hurt by doing so. This does not make it a lie, though. It just makes it a part of life. Pain and hurt, happiness and joy. The good and the bad. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	onlythreedays 2012-06-06 03:31 am UTC (link)
	~~No? So Joker was a good man, Jimmy & Dawn will never grow up to be horrible people in some time line, Ben won't ever leave me, and Romana won't betray all of us? Really?~~ A part of human life, apparently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thegirlisme
2012-06-06 03:40 am UTC (link)

Well I cannot speak for those who are not human, but I would hazard a guess that it falls to any who does not rely solely of a survival instinct. Where decisions are made based off of ideas and beliefs and differing sides or opinions.

There is good and bad in everything. There has to be a balance. There are those who can be trusted, even if you do not wish to. And you can protect yourself by not trusting or at least taking time to trust. And there are those who are cruel for no reason, who create chaos for no reason beyond enjoyment. There are those who hurt others. But it is their decision. But not every person will do that. Just like not every person will be good. No single person is a carbon copy of another. No single incident will be the exact same. There are too many underlying factors.

To shut off from trust will only hurt you in the end even if you mean to protect yourself. Especially here. You do not need to trust inherently, it should be earned. But that does not mean it is wrong or a lie.

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	hates_clowns 2012-06-06 03:24 am UTC (link)
	Not all humans are like that but people do make mistakes. Sometimes over and over and over again, it's part of being human. Don't hold onto the negative. They can surprise you if you let them. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	onlythreedays 2012-06-06 03:33 am UTC (link)
	~~Yes exactly, you're only proving my point, you know~~ I wish I'd listened to the ones who loved me back home. I wouldn't have to find out what it's like being human if I had. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hates_clowns 2012-06-06 03:43 am UTC (link)
	You've made friends haven't you? If you never became human you never would have met them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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onlythreedays, 2012-06-06 03:50 am UTC

Ariel

sonofsnikt
2012-06-06 03:45 am UTC (link)

~~I wish I could protect you from this.~~ Yeah, I know how that feels. When I first got here...some people lied to me. People I thought I could trust. Turns out they were working for the people trying to lock us all up, trying to get a group of us together to hunt down our own kind. I bailed. Before then, the entire reason I was with that group of tools to begin with, I found out that my dad wasn't the sheriff and local hero I'd grown up with, but the world's most feared assassin. Maybe he was also a hero, but then again, he admitted the only reason he actually joined the X-Men was because he wanted to get with one of the girls on the team, so maybe he was just a creepy perv. I'll never know, because he was too afraid to even risk raising a kid, so he ditched me and had his old war buddy lie for him.

So I know a little about how fragile trust can be. I know how it feels to suddenly doubt everything, to wonder if the smile on someone's face is for real or if they're just setting you up for a fall. I know how easy it is to just stop trusting, because when I bailed on the losers I was on the run with, that's where I was.

Then the Seal dropped me here, and maybe a lot of bad things have happened to me since then, but you know what? I found you. You never looked at me like I was a freak, you never lied to me, and even when most people would have abandoned me or never been able to even look at me again, you did. No matter what, you were always there for me. So I learned that no matter how easy it was to believe that it was a lie, there are some people you can trust.

I know how it feels, Ariel, but just remember this: No matter what, no matter how bad it gets, I'm going to do the same for you. Even if you do decide not to trust for awhile, I'll still be here. Promise.

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onlythreedays
2012-06-06 03:58 am UTC (link)

~~Why do you have to do that? Why do you have to make me sorry I feel the way I feel just by being so understanding?~~ Because you're not a freak, I had no reason to, and you've always been a good friend. My best friend. ~~And I hate her for making me second guess even you~~

I know you will. You've always been there to save me. ~~I think that's why I love you so much~~ Thank you.

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	Ariel sonofsnikt 2012-06-06 04:53 am UTC (link)
	And I always will be. You want some company? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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sanguinesolo
2012-06-06 05:05 am UTC (link)

I think I understand why you'd feel that way at this point. As someone who had people, including her grandmother, trying to kill her before she was five, and knew she couldn't trust anyone back home with so much as her name if she wanted to stay alive by the same age, I know it's a horrible feeling. There are people here I trust, but I don't think it's wrong to make them earn it. People should understand that.

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	Allana onlythreedays 2012-06-06 05:07 am UTC (link)
	Rather than trying to insinuate that I'm wrong, you mean? Because if I understand you correctly, then I agree. I'm tired, Allana. I'm tired of being let down. I don't think it's wrong for me to become jaded by it, unless who I am means I'm not allowed. Thank you for understanding. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ariel

sanguinesolo
2012-06-06 05:22 am UTC (link)

Yeah, that's what I meant. I'm typing this while my patrol takes a break from an Auton sweep so I'm glad I'm not tired enough for complete jibberish.

People always hate to see someone get jaded, and try to convince them not to. Maybe it's because they remember how horrible it felt to realize you can't trust everyone, and they want to think they can protect other people, especially their friends and family. They still haven't got the right to demand trust from you though, I definitely agree.

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	ex_savior698 2012-06-06 02:52 pm UTC (link)
	That's a terrible way to look at everything. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	onlythreedays 2012-06-07 02:01 am UTC (link)
	Well, looking at everything the way I used to only served to disappoint me, Clark... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_savior698 2012-06-07 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	Life can be full of disappointments. That doesn't mean you should give up on everything you believe in. You learn from the bad and it only makes you stronger. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	not_r2d2 2012-06-07 06:03 pm UTC (link)
	Are you telling me no one betrays anyone else in the ocean? ~~Cause I've seen that movie and that's not entirely true~~ [Ariel] Of course. You'll be fine. You're nearly ready anyway, I'm pretty sure. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	onlythreedays 2012-06-07 06:26 pm UTC (link)
	On this scale? Where the result of the betrayal could or did cause the loss of multiple lives? Yes, that's what I'm saying. At least in my experience. [Connor] Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	happyinmymisery 2012-06-08 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	Live without expectations, and you have no disappointments. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	House onlythreedays 2012-06-08 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	That's the most honest piece of advice I've received since posting this. Thank you. ...and you're right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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