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Darcy Rhone is a total MILF (total_milf) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2011-10-10 22:04:00

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darcy rhone, svetlana sergievsky

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I have...the best friends ever here. I'm just saying...you guys are amazing. I got some totally cute stuff and I love you all for helping me out. There will be another baby-shopping spree in the near future, I promise, and you guys will be the first to know. ♥ my girls. Where were you in my old life?

While I'm at it...just, you know, to get it off my chest because I really do need to leave this all behind me but...

Dear Rachel,

You're a terrible person and I didn't think you had it in you. I'm sorry that I learned the hard way, but I'm not sorry that I was selfish about Dex. You said you were just friends; you said we should go for it and see where it took us. I just wish that you hadn't ruined a life long friendship over some guy, because honestly...I miss you sometimes. A little. Not much, but some. If only out of habit.

Have a nice life,
Darcy

Dear Dexter,

I hope you're both very happy together and you should know that I'm happy, now, too and you could never live up to what I have now. Our life together would have been a joke. I'm really glad, actually, in hindsight, that you did what you did. You two deserve each other and I might have made a lot of mistakes but I've paid for them and now? I'm allowed to be happy. I deserve to be happy with someone else, too. So...

Fuck you,
Darcy

Dear Marcus,

You would've been a terrible father, anyway. Get a haircut and get rid of the skateboard; you're thirty. Grow up.

-Darcy

Dear Claire,

You're even more shallow and vapid than I used to be...and it makes me sad for you. Please grow a spine and be your own person. I hope that you decided to do just that when I left Manhattan and you suddenly didn't have anyone to fawn over and bow down to. I never asked for that and even if I secretly enjoyed it...it really was kind of pathetic, sweetie.

-Darcy

Dear Ethan,

Thank you for believing in me and giving me a good, hard shove in the right direction. If you could see me now, I know you'd be proud of me. I read about our future together. I knew you were still in love with me :P

~~I named one of the boys after you~~ I wish you were going to be here with me when the boys are born, because I know you would've been an awesome coach. I have a really awesome coach now, though; you'd approve. And the Tenth Doctor is coming, as well — beat that for an awesome story to tell, jerkface! hahaha

I miss your stupid face and I wish you were here.

Much love,
Darcy

And now...I'm letting go. For good.

[Clark]
My books are under your mattress...the Blu-ray of my movie is hidden behind your DVD collection. Please dispose of them for me? I can't...make myself do it, but it definitely needs to be done. I'll love you forever if you do lol ♥

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	notachesspiece 2011-10-11 02:37 am UTC (link)
	That was incredibly brave of you. I think maybe it'll help put the past behind you once and for all. As for where I was in your old world? You really don't want to know. I'm enjoying this 2011 as a thirty-something rather than a...well, let's not discuss it. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 02:45 am UTC (link)
	Oh that's right, you're not from this decade! I can't remember when you're from, though... And thank you. I think I just needed to come out and say it, you know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notachesspiece 2011-10-11 11:47 am UTC (link)
	I was born in 1951. I came here from 1981. ~~The same time as Svetla~~ So...yeah. Definitely not this decade. Where I was from, the Bee Gees were still all the rage. It's good to get it off your chest. ~~I wish we could~~ Even if they'll never be able to read it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

total_milf
2011-10-11 06:13 pm UTC (link)

Wow, you were born in the 50s and I'm still older than you, now. That's so strange to think about, you know? It's kind of amazing how well you've acclimated to the way things are now.

You know...part of me wishes they — well, at least Rachel or Dex —were here to see how much I've grown and that them hurting me the way they did only made me a stronger, better person.

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notachesspiece
2011-10-12 05:33 am UTC (link)

That's this place for you. Incredibly twisted. And honestly, acclimating isn't that difficult for me. When we moved to England, Mum insisted I start acting exactly like all of the other British kids. And so I did. And after that, I traveled the world competing and had to get used to things there. The only real difference here is technology. And some attitudes.

Maybe someday they will be. And it might be nice, but to be honest? You're better off without them. Don't worry so much what they would think. What matters is that you know you've grown and changed. If anyone else sees it, then brilliant for them.

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total_milf
2011-10-13 12:46 am UTC (link)

I had a terrible time...I'd been in London for months and was still having trouble with the culture shift when I got hauled out and dropped here... So kudos to you sweetie, seriously!

Yeah...the other part of me is glad I'll never see them again, not gonna lie lol I know I have. There are still some things that will never change, though. ~~Like how shallow and starved for attention I am~~

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	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 02:58 am UTC (link)
	It is good that you are letting it go. That seems a very good way to do so. ~~I do not know if I would ever be able to They are all here~~ As for the shopping, it was strange seeing things being purchased before the birth, but it is a cultural difference, so I am glad I was able to help. ~~Though a lot of things seemed~~ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 02:59 am UTC (link)
	Thanks. I guess it's the only way I can since they're not here. Really? No way, doesn't that make you feel panicky, not having all the stuff you need before the day? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:05 am UTC (link)
	That makes sense. Not particularly? It is just how it is in Russia. That is not to say preparation is not done. Just the actual buying of things did not happen until after. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:08 am UTC (link)
	Wow, that's crazy. I mean, not crazy like Russians are crazy, just crazy how different things are in our countries. I'm for a total lack of culture, seriously, you'll have to forgive me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:12 am UTC (link)
	It is fine, I understand what you mean. And yes, the cultural differences are strange enough not to mention the time differences. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:16 am UTC (link)
	Here I thought that six years was a lot... lol (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:23 am UTC (link)
	I am sure there is a lot to adjust to even in six years as it seems technology here is always changing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:24 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, that's true, but I can't imagine being, like, ten or more years from the past. I can't even wrap my head around the culture shock. I feel for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:26 am UTC (link)
	It is difficult, yes, but there are things about being here that are better than back where I am from. I am trying to stay focused on that and to adjust as things come up. ~~But with the past few weeks it has been~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:30 am UTC (link)
	That's a really positive way to look at it. I like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thegirlisme
2011-10-11 03:35 am UTC (link)

It is? I suppose. I just know that sometimes that is all you can do when things get to be overwhelming. Focus on what is good. For me it was always my daughters. Here, it is that I can raise them in a world where they do not need to worry about the KGB. There are trials here, things that do not make sense and can throw a person.. still, there has to be something to hold onto if you want to make it out with your sanity.

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	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:38 am UTC (link)
	I...you are really brave, you know that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:43 am UTC (link)
	No I am not I cannot even I barely sleep or ea I I consider it more survival. You learn to adapt to your situation and how to make the best of it. Sometimes alone, sometimes not. But I believe everyone has that ability in them, they just need to find it in themselves. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 03:45 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, but still. You did, though; I'm still looking, kind of. I'd like to think I just made a giant step forward, but... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-11 03:48 am UTC (link)
	~~I had no option, if it were not for~~ I did, yes. Years ago. As for you, all it takes is that first step and it gets easier. And you have people on your side who are you friends and will help you along the way. Not to mention your sons. You will be fine, you have a lot going for you here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-11 04:01 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. You know, I really never used to have a worry in the world when I should have and now that I have no reason to, I've become ~~Rachel~~ my own worst enemy. I think sometimes...I need to hear that. So thank you, sincerely, sweetie. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thegirlisme
2011-10-11 03:31 pm UTC (link)

It is easy to become one's own worse enemy. After all, who knows you better than yourself? ~~There is always that one person you let in but then they~~ Your mind can fill with the worst case scenarios and make you lose focus because you are the one who knows your deepest fears. ~~And when they become reality and you lose control~~ But there will always be something to pull you back. Your sons. Your friends. Even if you have to come back to this post. It is possible. Just remember what you have when everything gets chaotic and you will be fine.

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	total_milf 2011-10-11 11:31 pm UTC (link)
	I should bookmark this, probably, you're right...that's a good point. Thanks, Svetlana, you're such a peach ♥ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-12 12:18 am UTC (link)
	I am a piece of fruit? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-12 12:21 am UTC (link)
	lol sorry, it's an expression. It means you're a sweetheart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thegirlisme 2011-10-12 01:45 am UTC (link)
	Oh. All right. Well, you are welcome. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	alicebubblegum 2011-10-12 05:27 am UTC (link)
	I think you're probably loads braver than I am. I'm pretty positive I couldn't do something like that, letting it all go. And I expect in your old life we were all in our respective worlds. :) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	total_milf 2011-10-13 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Well, we'll see how successful I am but I'm feeling pretty good about it so far haha Yes, well, I was being facetious but I wish I'd been friends with you guys there, too; I'd have been a much different (read: better) person. (Reply to this) (Parent)