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bella swan lost her shoe (ichoselife) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2011-06-07 15:57:00

Entry tags:

allana solo, clark kent/superman, isabella swan, kitty pryde/shadowcat

I don't want to talk about how I feel so alone and useless that sometimes I consider just leaving this place and setting out for some place like California. Maybe start up a shop on the beach out there and see were life goes. I drifted away from a lot of people I used to talk to and it just really, really sucks. And I didn't want to type any of that, but I started to talk about how my ficus was doing so well, and my fingers started to type all that instead. And no matter how much I want to delete this post, I can't.

I think Chuck the drunk prophet is right. There's something in the water.

I also don't think my new dog likes me. He keeps peeing on my floor and he's suppose to be trained.

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	phasinghalfpint 2011-06-07 08:22 pm UTC (link)
	I liked it when we were friends, but you changed and you got judgmental. And I'm afraid to use my powers around you because of that, so that's why I don't talk to you much anymore. And I didn't mean to post that I was just going to say you should get your dog a cage and re-train him. (Reply to this) (Thread)

ichoselife
2011-06-07 08:39 pm UTC (link)

I got angry and scared when someone used their powers to turn someone else into someone they weren't. If you want to call that judgmental, fine, but it's not the powers that I'm scared of. It's the attitude and willingness that people had to let that happen. I'm just sad that no one one but Epiphany and Caroline saw that and I'm sad that so many people were willing to cut me out of their lives without talking about it first.

I will do that. Thank you.

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phasinghalfpint
2011-06-07 08:49 pm UTC (link)

But when you talked about it, when people kept talking it came up to a big debate, you lumped all powers into that category. Everyone started talking as if people with powers, period, needed to be monitored or whatever. That scared me because back home people hate mutants, people with powers, and they wanted to make us register....and they created a 'cure'. The thing with Nathan wasn't completely right, but it wasn't permanent. And Epiphany wasn't mad about the willingness to let it happen, I read her posts, she was just mad it happened to Nathan, it happened to others and she didn't care. And I don't want to cut you out of my life, I just don't know if I should just jump back into talking to you again or what, I feel awkward.

And you're welcome.

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	ichoselife 2011-06-07 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	If you feel awkward around me, I honestly don't want you talking to me for your own sake. I'm not trying to make people uncomfortable around me and it bites that they are. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	sanguinesolo 2011-06-07 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	We're all telling the truth and I don't like it and you kind of intimidate me and your dog is probably just nervous about being in a new place I can take a look if you want and make sure he's okay wow this truth thing sucks. (Reply to this) (Thread)

ichoselife
2011-06-07 10:21 pm UTC (link)

You kind of intimidate me too because your father is terrifying and sometimes I think it's better if I don't talk to you so I'm never on his radar again. But I don't want to be afraid of him or anyone else and I really care about Kon and I think you're really nice anyway which is why I haven't.

This really does suck.

But I would appreciate it if you could look at him for me. I want him to like me and if he doesn't or doesn't feel safe, he shouldn't stay here.

OOC: REPOSTING! I remembered wrong and it was Jaina that said what led to her moving out. SORRY, should have double checked instead of trusting my memory!

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sanguinesolo
2011-06-08 01:21 am UTC (link)

I'm surprised so many people give me a chance after meeting my father. I lived under an alias at home so I never knew how people who weren't family would react. I'm glad you still talk to me because I think you're really nice too even if you're all competent and can cook things without blowing anything up and you always know what to say so I always sort of feel weird because I will never know how to do those things. Plus you're Kon's best friend and I don't want to make things weird for you guys like it would be if you hated me or something. And you're right you shouldn't have to be scared of anyone, but for what it's worth I don't think my family would hurt you? Unless they were sith. That happens.

Also it's embarrassing.

I can come over whenever you want, I'm just sitting here processing like eight million truths. A dog would be nice. They never lie and it never really matters.

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	nightwingingit 2011-06-07 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	I would hate it if you left. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ichoselife 2011-06-07 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	I want to so bad sometimes, Kon. But I'm not going to. Not anytime soon anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nightwingingit 2011-06-08 02:07 am UTC (link)
	Even if you did leave, I would still come visit you. i wouldn't let you be alone. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	whenyouseered 2011-06-08 01:53 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure your dog likes you. I think a lot of it has to do with the new environment that he's in. (Reply to this)