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Dick Grayson is just wingin it (nightwingingit) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2012-02-08 12:24:00

Entry tags:

allana solo, kon-el/superboy

Who: Kon and Allana
What:Dealing ~~or not dealig~~ with loss.
When:Sometime at somewhere. With stuff.
Where:Kon's place.
Warnings:tba!

He'd spent all day looking for Clark with Barry and Allana's help. He was determined to spend all night doing it too if he had to. He wasn't gone. Kon just couldn't accept it. He'd finally gotten the relationship he'd always wanted with Clark, to lose him would just be too much. He would be alone. That idea terrified him being without Clark. Clark told him that he wouldn't go anywhere and would always be there for him. Logically he knew Clark didn't control the seal, but it didn't make it hurt less. Clark had made his share of mistakes, but that hadn't meant that Kon didn't want him there. He wanted him there more then anything.

"He's pretty good at hiding when he doesn't want to be found." Kon said hopefully as he could while he paced his apartment in his new uniform. "Remember? he hid for like two weeks that one time.." He folded his arms and looked down at Krypto who was trying to follow him around and eventually just tripped over himself instead. Kon didn't smile, he hadn't done anything funny all day. He just couldn't bring himself to pretend to be happy with the sick feeling he felt in the pit of his stomach that said Clark was gone. It meant in this world he was the last Kryptonian. He didn't have Clark to go to for advice or the occasional distraction he didn't have any blood family at all. That scared him. He'd never not had that in some form or another.

Krypo got up to nudge his hand and Kon looked down at the dog with worried blue eyes then over at Allana. "I haven't checked his apartment yet. I can't." Finally he at least forced a smile and ran a hand nervously through his dark hair. Without Clark was a thing he didn't know how to cope with and it was showing but he really didn't care. "I was so mad at him before." His voice trailed off as he knelt down beside Krypto and stroked his ears.

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nightwingingit
2012-02-11 08:34 pm UTC (link)

His own comments had become increasingly more worried and nervous the more they looked without any real success. In the back of his mind he knew the likelihood that Clark was still in Kansas was low but he didn't want to admit it. Admitting that meant he was alone. Logically he knew he had Allana, but really she could be gone tomorrow too. His brows furrowed as he folded his arms uncomfortably to keep from wearing a hole in his sleeves with all his nervous movements.

"I should. That would probably be the only place I haven't really looked. How can I say I looked everywhere if I didn't really look everywhere." He was tense and looked down rubbing at the back of his neck and watching as Allana came toward him. He could manage a small smile, but behind it was worry. Clark was one of the few who regardless of his own feelings on whatever stupid thing Kon had done that week had stuck up for him if someone else decided he was wrong or tried to pick an argument with him. Clark had been there through everything right next to Allana. His leaving was something he didn't quite know how to react to.

He felt things, but most of them were saying worry. Don't stop. Everyone could be gone tomorrow. You'd be left here. It was irrational, but he couldn't make the little obnoxious worry voice stop. He sank down beside Allana and just sat there looking down at the floor. "I can't do it. I can't look." He watched Krypto instead who was easily distracted with Allana's attention since his master was busy sulking he took advantage in what he could get.

It'd been a long disappointing day but really Kon couldn't bring himself to sleep or relax yet. He didn't know if he would be able to any time soon either. "We used to fight all the time. When he first found me outside of Cadmus he didn't want anything to do with me." He couldn't help but remember the past, they'd come so far. "I actually thought he finally wanted me. Nobody really did. I was angry at all of them. They treated me like I was just a ticking time bomb. A Luthorcorp experiment with unpredictable powers before." He reached out to pet Krypto. "I could hardly tell a lot of the time if Clark even liked me. Only recently when I left home did any of them really start to treat me like I was one of them then I got pulled here and had to start all over with three different versions of Clark." He wanted to hit something, but he also didn't want to break his own things.

"Every time I tried. We got close and he went away. If the seal brings another one.." He paused and the corners of his lips tightened slightly. "I don't know if I can do it again."

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