essek (thelyss) widogast is problemagic ✨ (shadowhand) wrote in valloic, @ 2021-05-02 14:26:00 |
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Entry tags: | !: journal post, critical role: caleb widogast, critical role: essek thelyss, ~player: jamie, ~plot: ancient vallo |
Journal Entry
CALEB
[ooc - handwriting!]
I did something today that I have never had to do before, which was literal foraging for spell components. I realize that is probably an example of my noble privilege showing, but it was an incredibly humbling experience, should it make up for that at all. I didn't kid myself into believing I'd be able to find gold dust or obsidian, let alone 50 gold worth for the latter, but I was able to find some fleece and feathers so, at the very least, I can make illusions and fly. I am still irritated that my spellbook isn't here, but I suppose I should just be happy I can cast any magic at all.
On the more amusing side of things, I thought I might try to find some pearls; it seemed like a good idea at the time, at least. Instead, it left me very wet after I slipped on some kind of algae covered rock. Apparently it was a funny sight as I don't think Verin has stopped laughing at my expense since. No pearls were found, but I did manage to get all of the grime off of my clothes that Prestidigitation missed after yesterday's arrival activities. (Verin and I came into existence in the middle of a field full of some sort of animal that wasn't entirely pleased by our sudden presence.) That is my half-hearted attempt at optimism, at least.
I know that I ought to be more excited about this venture in time travel, but I fear that if my thoughts linger on what is happening too long that my anxiety over the whole theory and what we know of those who have toyed with it in our world might get the better of me. It's fascinating, to be sure, and it has always been top on my list of things I wanted to study further, but a practical application feels -- well, premature, given that I have had no control over doing so. The arcane can be unpredictable enough when one is unprepared and this feels like an extreme example of that. Though, there is so much we don't understand about Vallo's magic, should this be thanks to Vallo in the first place, so I'm trying not to dwell. I'm sure that you can imagine how well that is going.
I apologize for all of this babbling, because I know that is exactly what it is, but I'm -- well, I miss you. I know it has been only a day and I'm unsure if I have any right to feel as such given how I have been acting the last several more, but it is nevertheless how I feel. While I don't necessarily wish you to be in this situation as well, I don't like that we continue to be separated when these sorts of things happen. We are both capable, but I prefer being capable together. I'll always be a bit selfish, I'm afraid.
Please give Kiri a hug from me.