I learned, when I was here over the summer, that I could see the spirits of the dead that still lingered, and 'send' them, much like I do in the dreaming world. It wasn't a sad thing, this realisation. I thought... it was good, that I could help these souls find peace.
But... I never thought... In either place, I never thought... that I would have to perform a sending for someone that I knew and cared for. When I became a summoner... most of my friends were with me. Together, I never doubted we would make it to the end. I never let the thought of having to send them cross my mind.
Last week was the first time... and I hope that it will be the last time. I know that wherever Dr. Hussain went, it was a good place. She is... at rest, now. But it was far too soon. And I'm not really sure what to do in her wake.
She left me a medical scanner, but I can't practice medicine alone. I'm not a doctor, yet. I want to be one now, more than I ever did before, but I feel so lost.