InsaneJournal

I've been neglecting to pray again. I apologize. I just don't know how to pray to something someone I know personally.
It's been a smooth transition for us, relatively speaking. I appreciate that. I only wish I could stop regretting the mistakes we made in the other reality. I want to make right the things we neglected there.
... What I'm saying is I miss Rocco. He was truly a good man, and shouldn't have fucking died for what we believe. He shouldn't have been brought into it. He was as innocent as the ones we defend. For fuck sakes, he shouldn't have died. I will always wear that as a burden on my shoulders. That he died because of us. If you're able... and he's somewhere in your keeping, God... I want to let him know I'm sorry. I didn't mean for him to die. We care about him still. Think of him every day. We even went to his funeral. Murphy brought flowers - just like he said he would.

God, I've met people here that said they'd died. We ourselves were as close to dead as could be before we were brought here. Why isn't Rocco here? What constitutes the basis for why someone arrives? He... He deserves a second chance. And an apology in person.

If I were to be able to do it all over, I'd have had him stay out of it. There's no reason Murphy and I can't do this on our own. We've eyes and ears and can tell when evil is being done. That's enough. Recruiting will only get other people killed.

In my Lady's name I pray,
Amen