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Anya Lehnsherr (notincestuous) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-03-08 11:50:00

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anya lehnsherr, henry mccoy, vision

{Vision} You likely don't know who I am.. My name is Anya Lehnsherr, and I am Wanda's older sister. I imagine by now you've heard something of what happened before. I would like to discuss things with you in perhaps a more civilized tone than my siblings could manage, at the moment.

{Hank} I've returned to myself, it seems. How are things on your end, love?

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Vision

notincestuous
2008-03-08 07:41 pm UTC (link)

I appreciate your concern for her safety and willingness to respect her wishes..

It's very complicated. She cannot trust you right now. It hurts her too much to think about. She is scared, and does not feel safe. She wants to believe you are not the same man, she wants to be on friendly terms with you. But because of what happened, she feels too vulnerable.

I know it's difficult, since this was through no fault of your own. Perhaps one day she will be able to trust you. Perhaps she was hurt too badly. But she needs time. She needs to heal.

She feels guilty. She feels like a hypocrite, believing that she may have harmed you in other universes.. She would not wish to be distrusted because of another's actions in her name, and hates that she has to think of you in such a way.

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	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-08 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	I do understand, and I am doing my best to honor her wishes, to stay away. I will not cause any problems. I do not understand some of her choices here, but I will honor her wishes. I can do nothing else. I love her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-08 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	Her choices? She feels as though all of her choices have been taken from her. You have no room to blame her or criticize her for anything. I'm not sure you do understand. This isn't about her wishes, this is about her wellbeing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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avisiondarkly
2008-03-08 08:09 pm UTC (link)

I am not talking about this situation, but about some of her allies, and I do not question what she needs to do for her wellbeing. I simply have some issues with at least one of the people at her side, since one of them tried to kill us on several occasions and has an arrest record that includes instances of the crime for which this situation has arisen.

Nonetheless, I was not trying to start a fight, and I apologize. I have no desire to attack anyone, or force anyone to do anything, or to act against anyone.

I am sorry. Perhaps I misspoke. This situation is shocking and it is catching me at my worst as my wife now thinks of me as a rapist, one of our enemies, a known rapist and murderer, is her friend, and her brother, who has killed many people, and threatened both of us on numerous occasions, is at her side. I feel as if I am cast into Hell, and the last thing I need is one more person attacking me.

If you wish to discuss thing, then do so, but do not assume you know what I feel or understand. Especially not over some forum.

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notincestuous
2008-03-08 08:34 pm UTC (link)

As I said, she feels guilty for her feelings. It is completely normal in her situation, and I do not attribute anything you, personally, have done to the cause of her feelings. But by repeating the phrase 'honoring her wishes' as if it's putting you out for some personal decision on Wanda's part, it only gives her more reason to feel guilty. So yes. I believe you misspoke.

Dominic was not a violent criminal in my universe. Do you have evidence to prove he is in this world? Or are you making the same judgments you wish everyone would not make about you?

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avisiondarkly
2008-03-08 08:46 pm UTC (link)

I am sorry. I feel hurt, and confused, and like I am being penalized for something I did not do.

Do I understand? Yes.
Do I feel guilty for feeling hurt by this? Yes.
Would I remotely tell Wanda any of what I am telling you? No. For it would not help her and that is all I care about. I mistakenly thought I could be open in this discussion with you about how I felt, but I was obviously wrong.

All I want, all I care about, is Wanda finding her recovery, and whatever that takes, I will do. I would rather die than hurt her, or harm her in any way, shape, or form.

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notincestuous
2008-03-08 09:12 pm UTC (link)

I apologize. It seems I overreacted. I did not intend to do that, and I am sorry. I believed I could speak with you in a calm, rational manner, but I am too close to the matter, I suppose.. It is hard. I saw how badly hurt Wanda was. I watched her recovery begin, and then saw how it was set back when you arrived. I know in my head that isn't your fault, but it is still difficult.

You are being penalized for something you didn't do. It isn't fair, but that is how it is. There is no other way for it to be, right now. Hopefully, in time, things will change. She wants them to change.

I know this must be difficult for you. I hope that you will find a person who can be more supportive of you and help you. I thought that I could be fair and try to balance both sides, but it does not seem that I can.

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	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-09 01:56 am UTC (link)
	I am sorry as well, for any mis-speech, for any harm, or any hurt I may have given. I fear I am not at my best, Forgive me if you can. Thank you very much for the effort, and the time. It is appreciated, as is everything you do for m-, for Wanda. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-09 02:25 am UTC (link)
	I don't think any of us are. At our bests, I mean. One day I hope all of this is mended. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-09 03:01 am UTC (link)
	It will be. They say Time is a healer of all wounds, even if nothing else will. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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