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Tweak says, "what have I done"

Anya Lehnsherr (notincestuous) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-03-08 11:50:00

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anya lehnsherr, henry mccoy, vision

{Vision} You likely don't know who I am.. My name is Anya Lehnsherr, and I am Wanda's older sister. I imagine by now you've heard something of what happened before. I would like to discuss things with you in perhaps a more civilized tone than my siblings could manage, at the moment.

{Hank} I've returned to myself, it seems. How are things on your end, love?

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	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 06:35 pm UTC (link)
	All is well! And you look positively beautiful, my dear. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:37 pm UTC (link)
	Let's hope I can manage to stay this way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	Indeed. Would you care for supper together, tonight? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:45 pm UTC (link)
	I would. It would be nice not to have to cook. I have a feeling I may be a little stressed by this evening. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	I would be more than glad to repair a repast. Is all okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	My sister is having a difficult time. She is opening up to me more, though; I am grateful for that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 06:54 pm UTC (link)
	...be careful. Has anyone told you of what happened in my universe? Nonetheless, I hope it goes well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:56 pm UTC (link)
	What are you referring to, love? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anya

mccoysluck
2008-03-08 07:02 pm UTC (link)

Wanda's abilities, in my world, unbalanced her mind, and led to her slowly going insane. After years of stress and a lifetime of trauma and pain, she snapped, killing her mentor and her husband, and causing the deaths of half a dozen of those closest to her. She warped reality, trying to create a perfect world, but it failed, and when it did... she...

She... decimated the mutant race, reducing a three million population to under 200, with three words and the power of her mutation.

She was the most hated mutant by any other mutant on our Earth...

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	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	I... Did you hate her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 07:34 pm UTC (link)
	No. I pitied her and mourned for her, for the Wanda I knew was dead and eradicated from her mind and soul by the pain she had felt. She was... a victim of her genetic code, and... I felt guilty for never realizing what it would do to her and finding some way to help her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	I hope that we can prevent that from happening again. I am trying my best, and I know others are too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anya

mccoysluck
2008-03-08 07:52 pm UTC (link)

There is one further thing you should know.

I do not know when the Pietro who is here is from, but in our universe, ... he was the one who drove her to the final acts that caused so much havok. He went insane first. As much as I would like to not prejudge someone, based on his actions and words here, I do not trust the Pietro who is here to not be that wrong-headed.

Nonetheless, I hope your efforts go well. If I can assist in anyway, let me know. Wanda is and always will be an Avenger, and someone who I admired.

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	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	I see... I hope.. I would like to think that Wanda has more support here.. I will do what I can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-08 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	Anything I can do. You are a good woman, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hank notincestuous 2008-03-08 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, darling. Remind me of that tonight. It is becoming a bit difficult for me to remember. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya mccoysluck 2008-03-09 01:55 am UTC (link)
	I will be more than glad to, my dear. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-08 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	Anya Lensherr? Then you come from an Alternate universe where your death was prevented? Intriguing! And, yes, I would be glad to meet with you. Where and when would be good for you? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, it would seem that way. I do not mind talking here, over the internet, unless it bothers you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-08 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	I am more than willing to talk here. I wish to cause no troubles. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-08 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	I know you don't. I do not wish to make you feel defensive. I believe they already told you what happened when another version of you was here? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-08 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. I have, partially, and enough to wish I could have stopped it. I cannot, but I am respecting her wishes to stay out of her way and leave her alone. ...I can do nothing else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Vision

notincestuous
2008-03-08 07:41 pm UTC (link)

I appreciate your concern for her safety and willingness to respect her wishes..

It's very complicated. She cannot trust you right now. It hurts her too much to think about. She is scared, and does not feel safe. She wants to believe you are not the same man, she wants to be on friendly terms with you. But because of what happened, she feels too vulnerable.

I know it's difficult, since this was through no fault of your own. Perhaps one day she will be able to trust you. Perhaps she was hurt too badly. But she needs time. She needs to heal.

She feels guilty. She feels like a hypocrite, believing that she may have harmed you in other universes.. She would not wish to be distrusted because of another's actions in her name, and hates that she has to think of you in such a way.

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	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-08 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	I do understand, and I am doing my best to honor her wishes, to stay away. I will not cause any problems. I do not understand some of her choices here, but I will honor her wishes. I can do nothing else. I love her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-08 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	Her choices? She feels as though all of her choices have been taken from her. You have no room to blame her or criticize her for anything. I'm not sure you do understand. This isn't about her wishes, this is about her wellbeing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anya

avisiondarkly
2008-03-08 08:09 pm UTC (link)

I am not talking about this situation, but about some of her allies, and I do not question what she needs to do for her wellbeing. I simply have some issues with at least one of the people at her side, since one of them tried to kill us on several occasions and has an arrest record that includes instances of the crime for which this situation has arisen.

Nonetheless, I was not trying to start a fight, and I apologize. I have no desire to attack anyone, or force anyone to do anything, or to act against anyone.

I am sorry. Perhaps I misspoke. This situation is shocking and it is catching me at my worst as my wife now thinks of me as a rapist, one of our enemies, a known rapist and murderer, is her friend, and her brother, who has killed many people, and threatened both of us on numerous occasions, is at her side. I feel as if I am cast into Hell, and the last thing I need is one more person attacking me.

If you wish to discuss thing, then do so, but do not assume you know what I feel or understand. Especially not over some forum.

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Vision

notincestuous
2008-03-08 08:34 pm UTC (link)

As I said, she feels guilty for her feelings. It is completely normal in her situation, and I do not attribute anything you, personally, have done to the cause of her feelings. But by repeating the phrase 'honoring her wishes' as if it's putting you out for some personal decision on Wanda's part, it only gives her more reason to feel guilty. So yes. I believe you misspoke.

Dominic was not a violent criminal in my universe. Do you have evidence to prove he is in this world? Or are you making the same judgments you wish everyone would not make about you?

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Anya

avisiondarkly
2008-03-08 08:46 pm UTC (link)

I am sorry. I feel hurt, and confused, and like I am being penalized for something I did not do.

Do I understand? Yes.
Do I feel guilty for feeling hurt by this? Yes.
Would I remotely tell Wanda any of what I am telling you? No. For it would not help her and that is all I care about. I mistakenly thought I could be open in this discussion with you about how I felt, but I was obviously wrong.

All I want, all I care about, is Wanda finding her recovery, and whatever that takes, I will do. I would rather die than hurt her, or harm her in any way, shape, or form.

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Vision

notincestuous
2008-03-08 09:12 pm UTC (link)

I apologize. It seems I overreacted. I did not intend to do that, and I am sorry. I believed I could speak with you in a calm, rational manner, but I am too close to the matter, I suppose.. It is hard. I saw how badly hurt Wanda was. I watched her recovery begin, and then saw how it was set back when you arrived. I know in my head that isn't your fault, but it is still difficult.

You are being penalized for something you didn't do. It isn't fair, but that is how it is. There is no other way for it to be, right now. Hopefully, in time, things will change. She wants them to change.

I know this must be difficult for you. I hope that you will find a person who can be more supportive of you and help you. I thought that I could be fair and try to balance both sides, but it does not seem that I can.

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	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-09 01:56 am UTC (link)
	I am sorry as well, for any mis-speech, for any harm, or any hurt I may have given. I fear I am not at my best, Forgive me if you can. Thank you very much for the effort, and the time. It is appreciated, as is everything you do for m-, for Wanda. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Vision notincestuous 2008-03-09 02:25 am UTC (link)
	I don't think any of us are. At our bests, I mean. One day I hope all of this is mended. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anya avisiondarkly 2008-03-09 03:01 am UTC (link)
	It will be. They say Time is a healer of all wounds, even if nothing else will. (Reply to this) (Parent)