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Tweak says, "OMGYAY!!!"

Kitt (knight_2000) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2010-06-07 18:52:00

Current mood:	predatory
Entry tags:	aidan winchester, kitt 2, miniver cheevy, napalm wartooth, nathan ford, teague brennan

Apparently, the only thing one has to do to stop drinking is to simply... stop.

Which will then lead to life becoming one big never-ending ball of happiness and joy, I'm sure.

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	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 03:44 am UTC (link)
	Fair enough. You know where I am, if you decide you need a friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 03:47 am UTC (link)
	I don't think you want to watch a grown man cry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 03:48 am UTC (link)
	I've cried, in the last 24 hours. I'm not too macho to admit it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 03:49 am UTC (link)
	You've had reason to. I haven't even asked you about Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 03:54 am UTC (link)
	Sam is awake. He has some memory loss, but it's not total. It's like, the past year is missing. He's awake and his stats are improving by the hour. His memory should come back in time. Iggy is with him, Sophie is here, Candy and Eliot are here, to stay with him. he won't be alone. I can spare a visit, Kitt. It'll help me I think, as much as you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 03:58 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad, Nate. I'm glad that it wasn't more serious. If anyone's had reason to cry, it's you. I'm glad he's improving. I don't know what to say. Thank you. I'll... where? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 04:03 am UTC (link)
	Where are you? I'll come to you. I need to get away from here, for just a little while. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 04:05 am UTC (link)
	Still at my hotel room in Hong Kong, [here]. I'll pour everything out that I haven't already drunk. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 04:13 am UTC (link)
	That includes the one you've hidden in the cushions, or under the mattress. I know how it is, Kitt. If you're going to do this, you're going to do it right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 04:20 am UTC (link)
	I feel like the proverbial deer in headlights. There's no hiding from someone who knows. Which means I'll have to buy another bottle of mouthwash before I leave here. It's all gone now. All that I can remember, at least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 04:54 am UTC (link)
	I'll look, when I get there. When you're settled. Do you have coffee? It helps take the edge off, if you can stomach it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 04:58 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I can scrounge up some coffee, I think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 05:42 am UTC (link)
	Good deal. I'm on my way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 05:46 am UTC (link)
	Thanks, Nate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 06:04 am UTC (link)
	You're welcome, Kitt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 06:08 am UTC (link)
	A couple of more people got wind of this. They're stopping by too. I hope you don't mind. I guess I didn't really want to be alone after all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 06:14 am UTC (link)
	See? People do care, Kitt. You'll get through this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 06:16 am UTC (link)
	I didn't know, Nate. I didn't know. I thought I was alone. Day one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 06:19 am UTC (link)
	Day One. It has a nice ring to it. And that number will only get bigger. You're not alone, Kitt. My grand daughter said you were going to get a couple dogs. She's kind of fond of you too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

knight_2000
2010-06-08 06:23 am UTC (link)

Every day.

I think I'm going to lose it again, Nate.

I am. She's really cute. You have a family to be proud of. And I'm fond of her too. She was going to help me name them. Maybe you and she could help me pick them out, too.

Another person sort of shook some sense into me, about the children. How they're reading, and I wasn't setting a good example. He was right. I wouldn't want Ash to be disappointed in me.

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sassdoesnthelp
2010-06-08 06:30 am UTC (link)

You're going to feel like you're going to lose it all the time, Kitt. That's one of the things you have to learn to deal with. You only lose it if you let yourself lose it, and if not wanting to disappoint Ash helps, lean on that. She's a good kid, and she would be disappointed. I'm glad she wasn't around for my lapse a few months ago, but we have no idea what she's been though with her father, or her mother. I'll make sure she doesn't read the post, but yeah. I know she had a blast when Eliot took her and Riley to get their dogs. She'd love to help you pick them and name them too.

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knight_2000
2010-06-08 06:38 am UTC (link)

I just can't remember the last time I've shed so many tears in the course of one day. How can we live our lives like this, feeling this way all the time? I'm sorry, yes. I don't want to disappoint Ash. She's a great kid, you're right. I'd hate to see that look on her face.

She misses her father. I probably shouldn't have, but I spoke to him. I told him. I'm sorry for interfering. I know - he's like me. Don't let her read any of them, Nate. I don't want to do that to her. I don't want her to think that way about me.

I'd really like that.

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	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 07:09 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I...I don't know about Lindsey. He's...I don't know how to reach him, he hasn't even tried to contact Ash. It's...complicated. Let's get you through the next could days, then we'll think about the dogs. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knight_2000 2010-06-08 07:21 am UTC (link)
	Oh. I was hoping he might have. I'm sorry. I'll stay out of it. That sounds like a good idea. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sassdoesnthelp 2010-06-08 03:04 pm UTC (link)
	The thing about it is, Eliot doesn't trust Lindsey and I don't know where we stand with him. He didn't hesitate to help Eliot when he was injured, but he doesn't seem at all interested in getting to know any of us. I'm keeping my distance, hoping he comes around. And if he doesn't, it's his loss. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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